WOw I've missed heaps the past few days. You are all so chatty and I'd love to reply to everyone of you but....

Kylie nope I don't get Vonni time. I'm really sad about that cause i love ME time. MY BF thinks when I lock myself away in office to study that is "Vonni time" HA!!

Going ok so far.

OH GUESS WHAT GUESS WHAT. For the first time in a couple of months I have been for WALKS.

Don't y'all have heart failure now u hear! I have been walking to pick Bree up from school. only a 20 minute walk, but it's all uphill for 10 minutes.

I am NOT going to weigh myself this week, I will try for a week of short walks, then try to get my eating back on track. At least I drink water when I am hoofing it. And that is something I havent done in ages either.

I also have not been having kit kats on my work breaks either.

Hey Julia... How on earth do u manage to eat TEN biscuits? Not all at once surely? I could I guess over the course of a day but in one sitting I would be sick. On a good note. Your tattoo looks cool. I love the way it wraps around the side.

Hi ANi. I was thinking u had gotten lost in these forums somewhere, or hibernating away from yr housemate.

Gen I am glad u told RE about stain. Best to be upfront about it. Love the hair. I am soooo tempted to get mine all chopped off but.... I am kinda attached to it, but I am over it also. Who knows, I might go to brissy next month and find a GOOD hairdresser.

Kel little one may be getting lots at once. Ebony got all her back teeth early all at once. In saying that, maybe Jemima just is grisley. They all go through a grisley period.

Gotta fly. One more subject to study before lessons tomorrow.'

Vonni xxx

Uh, yeah Vonni, the 10 biscuits were all in one sitting and if number 10 hadn't been the end of the pack I could have easily eaten more.



I am thinking about food so much more than I ever used to and I know that it's because I'm not allowing myself to eat junk. I've never been into biscuits before but once I had a couple of these ones, I just couldn't stop. Best to just keep them out of the house methinks.

Nevermind Julia, I'd have no problems eating 10 biscuits, except that there are only 9 Tim Tams in a packet!

I love that you know how many Timtams in a packet I could easily polish off a pack I'm sure!

My tattoo is healing nicely so I decided to get back to the gym last night. I weighed in and I'm down another 200g ... not much but as long as the scale is moving in that direction I'm happy.

I find that it's much easier to stick to my points when I exercise too so that's another good reason to go to the gym.

I won't be checking in at all next week as I'll be out of town but I'll definitely catch up with you all when I'm back. Goal for while I'm away is to go for a long walk every day and to stick to my current eating patterns.


Julia

I don't think I could eat a full packet of Tim Tams without feeling sick, but that's a guess. I don't actually know what I might be capable of.

I think my maintenance practise has been a spectacular failure, and I'm a bit scared to get on the scales on Monday morning. But I'll take a deep breath and do it - and cop whatever the numbers say .

I have learned, over the past few weeks, that I'm not yet at a point where I trust myself to maintain a lower weight without putting in the work. Maybe that's the secret I've been avoiding… that maintenance is as tough as weight loss for those of us who struggle.

Hmmm - something to think about, but I'm beginning to realise that "getting to goal" is just part of the whole journey. So I'm planning to spend some time, over the next six months, trying to understand all of that.


Ani

i am so hopeless at keeping up with this site.... i've missed PAGES oh well here we go

thanks heaps everyone for the encouragment, encouragement came in the form of a GAIN this week..... but only 500grams so i am still under 90kg JUST so yes if i get over 90kg i have to dig a hole in the yard and put my head in it, so I am quite simply not allowed to put on weight this week... i loss would be good (obviously) but i will be happy to stay the same and recover from a shocking week of overeating, i could actually FEEL the weight come back on, it is around my belly

i know why i want to lose weight, there are a couple of reasons, health so i can be healthier for next pregnancy, fit into clothes so i dont have to buy anymore (which i will need to if i stay this weight any longer as i have too big and too small in wardrobe) and i am SICK of wearing jeans and black tshirt EVERYWHERE, and yes i hadnt thought of rolemodel for baby... i hadnt really thought of that

calorie king works for me so i guess i will just tweak the amount of calories and stop making millions of M&Ms fit into the plan.... i have gone for my walk the last 2 days yesterday was just because i knew i was having takeout for tea.... i ate a lot of pizza..... last supper perhaps......

julia, your tattoo rocks! i really really love it

gotta go jemima screaming.... but not unhappy just finding her LOUD voice....

hopefully thursday you can all come to my dancing carrot party.....

I suspected this would happen - I gained 0.8kg over the last few weeks of 'practising maintenance'. never mind - it's a lesson learned, and it's coming off over the next few weeks.

Today is my one-year anniversary of starting this weight loss journey. I have never stuck at a diet for a whole year before - so YAY me!

On this day last year I weighed 105kg, almost fit into a Size 22 in clothes… and life was pretty ordinary. What a difference!

So - back into it this week. I want to get down to 85kg (again) by next Monday, so I'll set my goals and report in here to keep me accountable.

This week I want to:

• Eat no more than 1600 calories a day;

• Walk for an hour every day;

• Drink 2 litres of water; and

• Plan my meals every morning.

How is everyone else going? It's pretty quiet in here.


Ani

I have NOT GAINED this week yahooo....

In fact I dropped about 300grams. I know we fluctuate but I weigh in at exactly the same time wearing exactly the same thing (nothing )

I've been not to bad with my eating. Not to great eaither but better than I used to be. Going to Brisbane on the weekend for a couple of nights and when we go away it's a food and shopfest.

Pancake Manor here I come. MMM Banana pancakes with butterscotch sauce and ice cream. I do only have one pancake though. And we are going to Kapsalies (however u spell it) on southbank. Thats my favourite place for steak.

Sorry I have been quiet everyone. Study is taking up a lot of my time, and when I am not studying I am houseworking or being a mum and girlfriend. I did manage to go bed early the other night and have some 'Vonni' time with a new book.

Reading a book called "UGLY" by Constance Briscoe ... It's a really good book and sad. It really makes me sit back and reflect on some things I say to my kids may be a bit harsh without realising it and how it may be damaging their self esteem. No I'm not an ogre, but sometimes we don't think before we blurt out. And no I don't smack my kids like the woman in the book. Doesn't help anyway, kids only get more defiant. Thats not to say they don't deserve a good kick in the rear every now and then lol.

Anywho, must go do some research. We have an assignment on an aged care section and I have no idea how to even begin. I have hit a mental block and only 3 weeks to do it.
We have to choose one of five conditions - dementia, cerebrovascular accident, macular degeneration, coronary heart disease or parkinsons disease.
We have to demonstrate the ability to understand the physical changes, psychosocial changes, adjustments, drugs etc.... holistic care. Then we have to research facilities in our area.

I'M SCARED!!!!

Vonni

Go with the dementia one.... i have found visiting the oldies quite eyeopening for me, I didnt realise that with dementia sufferors they lose words as well as forget memories and stuff, i never thought of words as something in our memory i guess..... example this one lady named emily if she is not asking me the same thing every 5 minutes she is asking it in a way that really makes me think... she always wants to know "did you make her?" she means am I Jemima's mum.... it is hard to translate sometimes, all part of life but very sad, she cant even remember how many children she has.

congrats on staying the same! i think this week my only obsticle in not loosing will be my addiction to m&ms..... i blame ebay this week as i bought a m&m dispenser... gotta try it out.... now this week i have eaten a kilo of m&ms ... gradually though?....?

ROTFLMAO @ You Kel. I have an M&M dispenser too. An impulse buy at the Ekka 2 years ago... Not me, my significant 'other'. He is addicted to impulse buying. We have used it twice. Can I ask how much you paid for it? Ebay might be a place to get rid of mine. I tell you everytime I try to declutter the house 10 items pop up in place of 1. Grrrr.

PS Thanks for suggestion. I thought dementia, but also thought so will everyone else. I am going to research briefly each one and then decide.

Cheers
Vonni

PPPPSSSSS. OH MY GOSH!! I just went to ebay and didn't realise just how many M&M dispensers there were. Mine is the Golf one. Hey Kel...... what led you to that spot on ebay? lol. Did you just happen upon it or actively search for M&M.

Kel and Vonni, explain something to me. Why would you have something like an M&M dispenser in your home when you're trying to lose weight? You feel less accountable when you just give yourself a handful - but you're getting as many calories whether they come out of a "cute" gimmick or a packet.

I don't mean to sound like the food police - but it's a shocker of a weight loss tool .

Come on - I need some inspiration at the moment, and I want to hear some stories about the things you are doing to nurture yourselves and improve your lives.

Where's Gen? I know she's in the process of moving and rearranging her entire life… but COME BACK!

I've lost sight of my goals a little - but I gave myself a slap this morning, and now I am hoping to get back on track.


Ani

will reply more in a second.... and i totally agree that the dispenser purchase was probably not my wisest investment BUT i actually give myself less than if i just went to the packet...... it is weird rather than pouring out more and more i make myself happy with the 5 that come out of Red m and m guy....... dont think i'll be buying refills this week though.......

will reply more but gotta take jemima for a walk (and mummy needs to do exercise today so that kills 2 birdies)

I'm here, just busy. Joined the gym Monday and have been every day since I have my fitness assessment tomorrow, eek! Had been eating very well up until today, when I had a licorice pigout.. oops.

i cant possibly have actively searched for m&ms.... could i???? actually no maybe i went for "RED KITCHEN" or "RETRO KITCHEN" it is all about decorating my half dont know when it will be started kitchen... dont even know what freakin colour it will be..... but at one stage last month it was going to have a red bench top and and then it was going to have black bench red splashback and it was going to be retro themed..... now it is going to have dark blue walls and we dont know white or black or grey granite benchtops.... the kitchen guy is sick so we have a half kitchen waiting for his quote... hubby and i dismantled kitchen and played with it like leggo so we can get a feel for what new kitchen space will be.... no cupboard doors and bench moves when you touch it as it is not official bench just part of our old bench rearranged......


hey ani, have no idea what to say to you to create any kind of inspiration.... have you got time to go to a yoga class that has a good meditation session at the end... that has always helped me focus when i totally lose sight of where i am going, had a FAB session on monday but that is coz i am at the moment the only person in this mum and baby yoga class, my baby also chilled out and looked like she was doing yoga which made me relax more so
and since then i have been more focused on the right things in life rather than the others.
i am the worst ever for *****ing behind my "friends" backs... it is just that things they say frustrate me so so bad i have to let them say it as it is important to them but i dont agree so so bad i have to tell someone so i tell other friends.......... problem.............. all my friends are starting to become friends............... so i have realised that that is JUST ONE reason i have to stop *****ing....
the other reason
LIFE IS TOO SHORT to *****, i should just let the frustrating comments slide and move on to celebrate the good.............. it is so hard though when this means putting your baby in the background and making sure the other mums feel 'adequate' and proud of their babies.... i dont ever ask other mums to get excited about jemima, but all the other mums seem to expect everyone to be thrilled at their babies.... luckily my little jemima doesnt mind sitting bacck watching the other bubs.... most of the other bubs crack it when other babies are getting more attention...

anyhow what i was saying was by focusing on the good stuff i actuallly motivate myself to lose wieght for me, knowing how good i will feel, and feeling like i am accomplishing something... why now??? why not?? and ifnot now when??? TOMORROW NEVER COMES

i think it is too late at night to be posting so i will go... exciting day tomorrow i am meeting someone from a pregnancy/baby forum i am on for the first time... very exciting we have been emailing/foruming since we were pregnant

happy thursday everyone