Haven't seen or heard from her either... I'm hoping she's ok too...

So I've been a hungry hungry hippo today. I am really trying to figure out why I am self-sabotaging like this. I mean, I WANT to get down to 145. I've been there before it's not like it's this weight that I have never been at and OMG what will I do once I'm there. I WAS there. I know how good it feels. It's just that the exercising and diet part is not going as well as it was earlier in the summer. Plus, the added stress of weighing in for the BL challenge is just throwing me off. I've been hopping between 155 and 156 for the past 2-3 weeks. I need to rethink my game plan and start bringing in more fresh fruit and veggies. I have been slacking on my fruit intake lately...

We're leaving tomorrow night for NJ. Going to be there til Mon night. Sigh to food. We're visiting inlaws as well as attending a good friend's wedding. Scale, say **** to an extra 5 lbs.

I won't sign off before saying that I'm going to try my darndest to control portions all the more and exercise. I have the neighborhood to walk/jog in, a park nearby and a treadmill in the basement (at home). I have no excuses.

Good job on the weight loss, Ang!!!

Evening, Ladies. Not much going on. Worked really hard during my workout today. My poor abs. I think they cried a little through out the day. I have to get together with my in-laws this weekend. I'm hoping to keep it short and sweet and I don't plan on eating while I'm there. I don't have a desire to get together with them in the first place. I certainly don't want to have to spend enough time there to eat with them. XD

actually i heard jillian talk about that. it might seem like, oh my god whats wrong with them crying. but the thing is these people have overweight issues cause of something emotional. they didnt get 100+overweight cause they love cookies, no they are hiding behind something, or protecting themselves from some emotional issue. so when jillian pushes them to the very end of their limit, it causes them to breakdown emotionally. thats why they break down. not cause its hurts physically but something inside of them gets sparked. im not explaining it very clearly. but jillian explained it and it made sense. when you work out VERY intensely it brings all the repressed emotional stuff to the surface. i also experienced it once when i was working out really hard on the bike and just before my viva. i got really emotional.

glad you like jillian! i love her too!!! she is so awesome

you're so welcome! lucky i just happen to listen to that podcast that weekend. and my mom wasnt feeling well so i went back to the podcast and typed out what she said verbatim, i got my mom on the same regime aswell. shes my guinea pig too hehe im just glad i could help you feel better

congrats on another pound loss!

Angela, congrats on the two pounds lost!

I've been super busy the last few days (I'm gearing up for grad school apps and the GRE...eek!), but have been mostly on plan. Hubby and I went out for Chinese last night, but I stuck to veggies (instead of the fried faux sesame chicken that was calling my name) and was still down a little this morning on the scale, despite all the extra sodium from the sauce.

My confessions today:

B: 1 mini cinnamon raison bagel with 1/2 tbsp ICBINBL, 1 banana

S: 1 piece homemade pumpkin bread with 1 tbsp cranberry apple butter

L: 1 morningstar chik patty, 1 medium sized apple

D: 1 cup whole wheat pasta with homemade with tomato sauce, 1 faux sausage

No exercise today, as I've met my 4x a week goal, but I may watch Ugly Betty from the gym instead of my couch anyway - we'll see.
ETA: I did go to the gym - 10 min stationary bike and 30 min on the treadmill.

Hey everyone.....I'm Melissa. I would really like to join in here cause I could use a place to keep me accountable in the all important areas of food and exercise!

It will take me a little while to get to know everyone, and some of you I may already know. I've been around 3FC for the past year and a half losing and gaining the same weight over and over for various excuses. UGH and I'm ready to get rid of it for good!

So here I am I'm 28 happily married for 5 years as of this October, and I have a beautiful 2 year old baby girl! I'm go to school at the University of Tennessee at Martin and major in secondary education in Biology and Chemistry.........I graduate in May and I'm super excited!!!! I'm going on a cruise to Mexico in May after I graduate with a friend....and I would love to feel better about myself. So that is a little about me!


So far today:
Breakfast - White chocolate covered strawberry yogurt and walnuts - 200 calories
Snack -
Lunch -
Snack -
Dinner -

Melissa ! come on in and join the party!!! nice to have you join us!!

very quick message, as i'm running late! having a little halloween party for my friends kids. bless them they are so excited.

i gotta get ready! gonna dress up as a witch!! and then set everything up.

Have a great halloween everyone!!!

will log back in tonight!

Welcome, welcome, welcome, Melissa!

As for me. I don't know how I'm going to manage this afternoon. I have to get together for a bit with my inlaws. I think I'm going to eat my lunch before I go and just cut down on the total calories I take in for it. Just in case they decide they want to feed me something. My sister-in-law is something of a health person. At least what I've seen of her so far suggests that she is, so calories shouldn't be too much of an issue.

In other news, I decided to leave Jillian in her box today. I decided I wanted to play nice with Pam today instead. I think I'm going to try working with Pam more over the next week. Downside? I don't want to haul my transfirmer out to work with me every day. Which means I'll have to get up early in the morning again. Bright side? I think getting up and getting that workout in first thing in the morning was doing really well for me. Kinda gets my body in to gear a LOT faster.

Hey everyone! i hope everyone had a great Halloween!!

my confession from yesterday:

well i did it! i finally did 30 day shred! i did level 1. and then thought oh its only 20 minute workout. and i'm used to working out for 1 hour on p90x, so i thought let me see what level 2 is like. so i did level 2 and then did level 3.
mind you, i TOOK BREAKS!! she doesnt take any breaks! not even for water. so i paused the dvd sporadically throughout the workouts for little mini breaks.

but also if i hadnt been doing p90x, i wouldnt have been able to do the 30day shred workouts. they are killers. but i follow anita, and then modify the workouts to my own level. but i felt great afterwards! i really liked the workouts. and i couldnt believe i was relieved when she would say, okay 2 minute cardio! i was like oh thank God. the strength training is TOUGH! luckily also cause she does alot of plyo work, ie jump training, i use my rebounder (mini trampoline) to protect my knee joints.

i really love jillian. so i felt like i was a contestant on the biggest loser and she was training me!!

yesterday, i did have 3 mini chocolate candy! and then felt slightly sick afterwards. small flake, small crunchie, and a small kitkat. total around 300 calories. but the rest of the day was okay.

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so i've not seen any loss on the scale. so i have decided to stick with eating 1500 calories STRICTLY. that is my BASIC BASIC BMR if i just lied in bed all day. and my BMR with sedentary activity is 1800. so i'm going to eat my BASIC BMR calories of 1500 and then do cardio workouts to bump up my calorie deficient/ burn.

so thats my aim starting today!

eat 1500 calories. and workout as much as i can.
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also i noticed if i just eat carbs , i get hungry real quick like within 2 hours. so i have to have some protein. also going to eat every 4 hours to keep my blood sugar stable. so thats 3 meals a day and 1 snack.

so far today:

breakfast - bowl of fruit and fibre cereal. and small piece of chicken with salad and 1 tbs of yogurt.

then i did jillian's workout - the fat booster metabolism one, which is killer aswell! i was soaked after the workout lol.

and now just drank 600ml of water. and then going to wait 15 minutes and have some lunch.

Thanks Angela! aww arent you a brilliant Aunty, picking them up so late!

and can i say, you are looking stunning in your avator picture! beautiful!
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my confession today

i made sure every meal i had some protein.

breakfast i had cereal and then afterwards a small piece of chicken. then i waited 1 and half hours and did my first workout for the day. i did...jillian michaels dvd - the fat burner metabolism booster. modified and took a few breaks!! i love working out with jillian. everytime she says 5 4 3 2 1 i feel like im on the biggest loser hehe. its great! but boy its a killer workout. my hair was wet afterwards as if i had taken a shower, and i could feel beads of sweat coming off my face.

i made sure i ate every 4 hours, to keep my blood sugar stable and stop myself from being overly hungry, and it worked. i went over my calorie intake by 169 calories. not too bad, since i was aiming for 1524 calories today.

then i had lunch.

and then after 1 and half hours i did workout 2 cardio X p90x - 45 minute cardio workout.

then had dinner.

total calories eaten 1693
caloried burned 1255
calorie deficient 1396
predicted pounds loss 0.40

Hey everyone! I have not been around for several days due to being busy and also having major pc problems. Everything is good now. I am down two more pounds and I met my Halloween goal.

I have still been calorie cycling and it seems to be working for me so far. Today was a heavy day at just under 1700 calories:
coffee with milk
water
carnation breakfast drink

grilled chicken sandwich
french fries
soda

water
small grilled chicken breast, plain
large salad with 1/2 oz cheese and ranch
carrot and celery sticks with low fat dip
coffee with milk