Okay ladies, I am really in need of a bit of support right now. I had a light breakfast, and brought some homemade butternut squash soup for lunch: a HUGE bowl is only a little over 200 calories! However, as usual on Fridays, there was a ton of free food at the office, so I found myself tempted by the pasta bar and salad. I left the soup in the fridge for another day, and didn't do too badly with my choices though: about 450 calories, which is just over what I like to do for lunch (400).
However, near the end of work, I got sucked in by the Friday afternoon cocktail hour. I went downstairs to take a quick break from work and have just a glass of wine (which would have been completely within my plan). However, because I've been losing weight and also drinking less than I used to, I get drunker a lot faster... and I found myself very buzzed and not caring what I put in my mouth. There were tons and tons of pastries and cheesy hors d'oeuvres, and I ate about 1900 calories!!!

I am so disgusted with myself. That's way more than I would normally eat in a whole DAY. I honestly feel so gross, I really want to throw up right now (but I am definitely not bulimic at all, don't worry). I'm a little scared of myself for thinking that though.
I know it sounds silly to get so upset about one screw up, but I screwed up yesterday as well with the dessert I had when I went to lunch. I made up for it yesterday by working out and having a really light dinner (100 cal salad), but it's scary to me that I've messed up so badly two days in a ROW. On Sunday I'm heading to Boston for two days to visit a friend, and I'm really scared of the choices I'm going to make there - it's even harder to eat healthy when you're visiting someone away from home. I'm not going to be able to cook healthy meals, and we'll probably go out to eat, where I find it really difficult to be good.
Tonight I did just 45 minutes at the gym - a normal amount for me, but I really should have done a lot more in light of what I ate. I'm planning a 10 mile run in the morning before work (yes, I got stuck working tomorrow, which sucks a lot). But, I was counting on the 10 mile run to make up for the junk I know I'm going to be eating Sunday/Monday. I also have a potluck dinner tomorrow evening, and while I can bring something really healthy, I have no idea what other people are making, and I'm really going to have a hard time not trying stuff, as most of my friends are not domestic at all so it's a big deal that they're cooking!
I think I am going to have to try to just go for salads with light dressing on the side when I am in Boston, and other really light things. Not fun at all, but I ate too much "fun" tonight to make up for a while.
Hope I haven't let you all down when I weigh in on Sunday morning
