weigh in day down 400 grams.. which i very happy with .. i a;wasy slow down in weight loss after the firt couple of weeks.. the trick will be to keep going.. but 400 im very happy with

Good for you Amy that's great

I had a sneaky unofficial weigh-in yesterday at the gym and was not impressed to find that I was up to 93kg. Tres frustrating!

I had a good workout though, did weights and 30 mins run / 20 mins walk and felt great afterwards.

The weekend is always my biggest challenge so I plan on going to the gym tomorrow afternoon which should hopefully help keep me on the straight and narrow!

So...

...here I am getting fatter and fatter!

I am sitting here polishing off a large supreme pizza (yes a whole one all on my own!!!) at the same time ordering an eliptical trainer on-line!

I am insane!!!

Someone direct me to the NUTHOUSE!!


UGH!

Ok, I just threw out half of the last slice of pizza!!!

What's going on Lindor? Are you able to maybe set a couple of little goals and start making some changes slowly? What is it that's triggering you eating like that? Boredom? Worrying about the poochies? Maybe if you start writing down everything that you eat and why you're eating/what you're feeling at the time.

If there's anything I can do to help, let me know.

At long last it's a beautiful sunny day here and I'm working till 1 and then going to the gym. My sister and her kids were meant to be coming down for the weekend but they got stuck in Wellington as the airport was closed so that's disappointing.

My aunt and uncle go back to the UK tomorrow so we're having a family dinner at my favourite Chinese restaurant.

Lindor I am with Julia, what's going on? Half the reason I ask is I have the same kind of struggle going on, and need to find my own answers.

In some ways I know what's going on. My best friend has fallen in love, and I rarely see her while she is in that 'honeymoon phase' of her relationship. My best mate from work has taken time off to be with her twin sister who is dying, and the other person I spend time with is off on another planet at the moment. I feel a bit lost.

I have set myself a goal to go to Europe in 18 months time, and have started saving up for it. I want to go for six weeks, and I want to be fit enough, and strong enough to enjoy it - so hopefully that will give me some impetus to make a plan and stick to it.

I'm happy that The Biggest Loser starts Sunday night - that might motivate me to get off my bum and start a whole new program too.

I don't know what it is!!

I get up in the morning and make these big promises to eat right 'from now on' and then comes the afternoon and I just eat...and eat...and eat! Then, as I am going to bed feeling like a stuffed pig, I tell myself that was my last binge!!

The wet season has totally screwed up my routine! It rains nearly every afternoon...which makes it hard to deliver junkmail after work...which makes it hard to get out in the garden and do stuff...which leaves me inside...bored!!

This morning we had a massive storm here. Lightning hit the power station at around 6.30am...the whole of Darwin and the surrounding areas lost power. My power was finally restored at 11.30am. Apart from solar hot water, I am solely reliant on power. I have no other breakfast cereal other than porridge in the house...and I DEPEND on my morning coffee within half an hour of getting up! I got to 11:20am before I was so hungry I had to eat something, and because I had no power to cook porridge, and because I was so hungry I ate four jam sandwiches and a massive mug of full cream milk with two teaspoons of instant coffee stirred through it!!! When the power came on at 11.30, I kicked myself for not waiting that little bit longer!!!

My junkmail round is messing with my routine too. Too frequently at the moment we are getting new area managers. If it is not the rain preventing me from delivering, it is the area manager who is meant to drop of the catalogues for me to deliver running late because they 'are not familiar with their drop off points'. They don't believe in calling me to say they are running late or won't be dropping off at all. Instead I am sitting there waiting! And if they are a day late, that screws up my plans for the whole week!

Things are occuring at work and that is making me feel a little insecure about my future there.

And this time of the year hits hard financially too with home and contents insurance, car rego, car insurance, and all the big bills, all straight after the expense of Christmas. And as much as I hate to say it, Mista is a huge burden on me too when it comes to dollars - I am spending about $250 every six weeks with just his meds! You'd think if I was trying to keep things together financially I'd slow down my eating to save a few bucks here and there? And why the **** did I think an elliptical trainer was a good investment????

And I was thinking the other day, after a binge...I don't eat because I am hungry, I don't select my foods for the taste or the flavour. When I think of food, I first think of the texture, how it feels in my mouth, as I swallow. I don't like soup because I prefer to chew. I prefer toast over fresh bread, because I prefer to crunch. I prefer apples to oranges, because I like the roughness in what I swallow. I am eating for all the wrong reasons - but we all know that.

And now I have just read over this, I am wondering why I started with "I don't know what it is!!"

So how do I stop???

And trust me, I want to, because I have even found myself recently looking up the phonebook for psychologists...if they can use hypnotherapy to make a person quit smoking, can they help me with my addiction to food???

And Ani, I am looking forward to The Biggest Loser too. I'd like to think it will motivate me a little as well, but if I recall, last year I as I sat on my butt watching the show, I'd often be watching it with some form of food going into my mouth!

Maybe I can make The Biggest Loser my time to get on the new elliptical trainer?

I don't know if I am mentally in a position to suggest this, but maybe we can start our own 'Biggest Loser' challenge here? Challenge ourselves to lose as much weight as we can for the duration of the series, and see who manages to lose the most?

Anyone know how to work out the percentage of weight-loss?

...off to google...

hello hello. Lindor if yr always getting new area managaers, maybe u could become one yrself and give yourself the area where u live?

Have read everyones posts all but briefly. And please know i am thinking of u that r struggling and congratulating u that are making headway.

Working stupid shifts over the next few months so that will be hard for me.

I jumoed on scales 2 days ago and it was a kilo down, however jumped back on this morning and a kilo up again. wtf is going on with that? I am thinking of getting some lasix lmao just to see how much of this weight is fluid.

Had my scan done friday last. micro adnomas have developed and 2 more have doubled in size. going to doc on 15th for review. hopefully they sort something out soon i am tired of being tired.

anywho, must go, watching a movie with matt then off to bed.
cheerio

oh and derr, i just went back and saw that i DID tell u guys all that in my last post but in more detail. ahha

Ok, got it...

(Weight Lost / Weight Before Loss) x 100



I did weigh-in on Sunday and was a flat 97kg! Didn't really want to announce that, but there it is!

I am getting too close to that 100kg and I don't want to go there!

So, regardless of whether I am doing it alone or not, I am going to challenge myself to lose as much as I can for the series of The Biggest Loser.

Well I've lost the plot yet again too. My plans to exercise in the weekend came to nothing and I haven't been paying attention to what I'm eating.

I was off work sick yesterday and am still feeling pretty run down and blah. I've got no energy and don't think I could handle even a walk at the gym I'm just zonked.

Just trying my best not to eat too badly and hoping I get my mojo back soon.

Oh dear, where is everyone?

I've only been to the gym once this week Just haven't got the mojo for some reason. I'm going to have a talk with Nigel this weekend and ask him to help me - I think it would be easier for me if he helped in some way so we'll talk about that.

I REALLY have to start training for this half marathon. I'm fine running on the treadmill but running on the road is a totally different story and at the moment I'm putting it off.

The next few months are going to be crazy busy with work, study and exercise so I really need to come up with a plan if I'm going to achieve something.

.weighed in this morning and have gained 600 this week .... pfffttt... i know why .. i was unwell had hormanl issues and poor food choices.. but i did show a 1 kilo gain earlier in the week.. so not as bad.. i suppose.. ... I really need a cattle probe to get me back into exercising.. atm i feel like i cant be bothered.. i have been walking the dog to and from school which is only a 2 km walk.. so really lazy.. only done aqua and walks this week . oh i did go on the elliptical monday night but that was only becuase i had over eaten... so not really productive..

I can't do this!

Forever fat! That is me!