Hello. I'm getting pretty excited about vegas but very very nervous about flying. I need something that'll calm my nerves. The kids will probably keep me busy enough to get my mind off of it so we'll see I guess. I have so much to do before I go.

I am getting my mom to get a scale because I will be there for 2 weeks and I want to stay on top of it. I dont wanna use any freebies unless I absolutely have to. Trust me....if you knew my mom, you would stay on top of your weight too. She is junk food and sweets queen. She's not heavy but she likes to eat and it's not always the healthiest stuff. She's having a family party while I am there and alot of family members are coming to vegas for the party and she's gonna have a chocolate fountain....aaaahhhhh. I am trying to stay away. Hopefully I will be strong enough to say no. or at least to really limit myself. I'm just glad its not around TOM time because that is cause for disaster with me.

No exercise today. I regret it....I was gonna go to the gym but had stuff I had to do before Leo went to work. Speaking of Leo, he's been awfully affectionate with me lately. I guess it's because he's taking his meds again. I am happy about it, not complaining. It's either the meds or because he knows its getting closer to me leaving with the kids and he knows he's gonna be lonely.

How do you tell someone that they might have alzheimers?

vix--It may not seem like it at the moment but of course things will work out for you and BF.

Jamie & mj--Congrats on the losses!

Anna, Diva, Dixie & Zinke-- I am happy to hear I am not the only one looking forward to the end of the challenge. This is a great bunch of people but I am in a funk. I hate getting on the scale on a weekly basis especially when I know I am making a minimal effort to get this weight off me.

Jill--My SIL had WLS and looks beautiful! She has since had two babies.

Anna--Congrats on the 3.2 miles!

I went clothes shopping yesterday. How depressing! I have been spending that stimulus package to get my wardrobe in order because it has been a struggle to get dressed everyday. I've done a combination of shopping in stores, online, and catalog shopping. When I was in the dressing room just getting more and more frustrated BF called. I needed to hear his voice right at that moment. I do feel good about my purchases.

I has a wiifit victory today. DSS thinks I rock now because I'm good at the Tree pose in yoga. I'm actually not very good at it, but I'm better than he was. I did a few of the exercises, but mostly I let DSS play with it while I re-read my SBD book. We need to start Phase 1 again on Monday. My weight is still up this week, but I'm in the middle of TOM, so I refuse to worry. Really. This is me being not concerned. At all.

The monsoon outside isn't going to let up, so I need to hit the treadmill.

My day today coulkdnt have been any worse.. and tonight im left feel sad lonely and a bit heart broken..

i got up to do my early morning workout.. and had to stop after only 15 minutes becuase i was exhausted and dizzy.. i am starting to get a cold.. and i think that made me a bit dehydrated this morning (even though i felt fine other then the congestion..) so i took a rest had a glass of orange juice and then slowed down and did the last 15 minutes..

I felt pretty tired at mid day so decided to go and lay down.. and watch some tv in bed.. i must have fallen asleep and i woke up to Leah screaming her head.. off.. she has had a cold all week she said everything hurt.. her ear haed throat nose.. so i made her get in bed with me.. and the minute she layed down she cryed even louder but was very tired and fell asleep. When she woke she was hot as hot.. and was red all over her face and ear.. she was yelling and screaming and crying all at once ... telling me her ear and throat hurt.. so i took her to the doctors.. and he told me it looks like her ear drum is going to pop..and she has a bad infection..

Great we are talking about a child that reacts badly to chemicals.. she has bad allergies ( to preservatives food colours, food additives, metals etc)and the last ear infection antibiotics nearly killed her.. So i explained this to the doctor he said she has to take something and gave me amoxillian.. She reacted to ceclor .. and ceclor is a completly different type of antiboitic to amoxiliian.. but it really doesnt make me feel any better.. im so nervous.. about it.. and my hubby isnt here to help if something goes wrong..

Ok then just after we got back from the pharmacy i get a call from my hubby... One of his work colleges.. drove himself into the refinery last night took and rope to the end of the warfe tied it around his neck and jumped off the warfe.. He is a mess , he cant believe this guy killed himself but he understands why.. the work conditions are horrible and dangerous..
the bosses are unreasonable.. and they seem to not give a **** about the lives of there workers..

Later i tried to talk to John on the net .. but his connection was terrible so we couldnt talk..

I rang him after i put the kids to bed and he then told me the azzhole boss has said he cant come home 1 week early in septmeber to celebrate both his kids birthdays.. he asked them if he could do 3 weeks instead of 4 and then come back and do 5 weeks to make up for it and put them back on the same schedule.. THEY SAID NO YOU HAVENT BEEN HERE 12 MONTHS.. YOU CANT... OMG!! im so angry they call them selves a family freindly business... what they cant remember being kids.. and how heart broken they would be turning 8 and there dad isnt there.. Leah we can celebrate when he comes home she doesnt know but Cameron does.. They are not going to break my childs heart for the F7cking margains.. im so upset.. i have spent the night crying .

We have lived with this since febuary.. and my family is slowly drifting apart.. john is up there alone and miserable.. Cameron loves his dad but doesnt want to see him when he has been drinking becuase he gets so grumpy .. . Cameron school work had gone down hill this year and the happy sparkle that was always in hs eyes has turned into a sad puppy face.. Im living the life of a single mother.. and i dearly miss my companion.. but i fear we are drifting apart.. and i have a feelign its only a matter of time till.. my hubby goes looking somewhere else.. he has even said to me that i feel distant and he feels single.. its not good..

So i cracked tonight.. a had a mouthful of irish cream(baileys) then ,i opened the jar of nutella and grabbed a spoon and sat down with it.. i ate one heaped teaspoon ( fine great improvement on what i woukld have done before but i just know i have blown my cals for the day ).. then i felt like slapping myself.. made myself cry again.. got up put it away .. and proceeded to scrub my floor on my hands and knees..

I rang my best friend screamed and cryed down the phone to her and she made me feel heaps better.. But she had to go.. her son.. had fallen out of bed and they think he has broken his foot.. .. WHY NOT>> ITS A BAD DAY>>> LET IN CONTINUE.<<<<

so i have come on here to vent away.. if you got through all this .. well done.. we all know i cant spell or type a proper sentence.. lol

I feel liek i do nothing but complain lately.. and im sick to death of it.. the night time is depressing when im alone all the time.. im fine durig the day.. maybe i should talk to my doctor.. would they put me on something for everning depression, maybe i should get something form the herbalist?

Hi everyone! I went to a whole bunch of garage sales w/ my gm yesterday. I found many w/ clothes in my size (and the next size down), but the prices were pretty high, so I didn't buy much. I did get a few things, though. More fall stuff, than things to wear right now, but that's ok.

I ate too much sodium, plus TOM is here so I am very bloated (and it's humid)....so LOTS of water for me today!

Not much planned for today. Last week I slacked a bit on exercise, so fresh start w/ that for this week.


Jill--I am so excited for you! I am really pleased to see how much research you are putting into this and making such informed choices.

Jamie--Congrats!!!!

tk--Good for you your planning before your trip. I know you are going to have so much fun!

Shay--Sorry to hear shopping has been so frustrating for you. Glad you feel good about what you bought.

Dee--You do ROCK!

Amy--Oh, Amy, I just don't know what to say....other than of course you can come here and vent away and yes, your doctor might prescribe something for depression. Sending you a big cyber hug, I know it isn't as good as the real thing, but I feel for you!!!



Ok, I need to finish up the laundry before it gets too hot and I REALLY don't feel like doing it!

Have a great op day!

Good morning, Bluesers!

Today is day 7 of a 100% on-plan week. I haven't done this in months. Yesterday, I went shopping with the family and we did our impromptu dinner at a restaurant. They wanted Ruby Tuesdays. Typically, I'd have a margarita, something cheesey fatty and yummy, and some french fries. Yesterday, I had a diet coke, a petite sirloin, steamed broccoli and tomato mozzarella salad. I was so proud of myself! And, I didn't overstuff. I was actually feeling hunger 2 hours later. Weekends and eating out are usually my weak points where I fall off-plan. Tomorrow is weigh-in and I'm excited to post a loss for the first time in a few weeks.



How close are you to this person?

Have you given up completely? As long as you keep trying, there is hope, right?

I'll be thinking of you. I probably need to do Phase 1 again, too.

A good doctor will ask you a series of questions to see if you're truly depressed. Your circumstances are tough and I can see anyone having a bit of sadness in your shoes, but it might not be true depression. I hope things get better soon.

Today, I'm trying some new foods. I tried my first mango yesterday..yum! Today, I'm trying a honey mango, a "reddish" mango, some couscous and some acorn squash. I also bought a butternut squash to try this week. I'm really enjoying the new flavors...and, feeling truly hungry when it's time for a meal or a snack! Hunger is a sensation I've not felt much lately.

Hope everyone has a great on-plan day.

GO BLUE!

Oh Rhonda--you know I never give up. I'm all over the place but I will never give up. I've decided to start a "Love Me" campaign. I need to work on doing things for me and taking care of me and that definitely includes my health. I am off to write a plan for it!

I agree with Rhonda about talking to your doc about this depression. Even if it's not full fledged or chronic, sometimes they can give you a little something to help you cope.
I also think that once dh gets home ya'll should sit down and talk about his drinking and how it is effecting you & the kids, and that he either needs to stop or cut way back. I've said it before to my man that I DON'T want to be married to an alcoholic. Once that discussion is squared away, maybe y'all can discuss his work options, because it seems to me that this job isn't working out for your family. I think he needs a job where he can be home more with his family. Jess has had a couple of jobs that made him miserable, and in turn he came home and took it out on us therefore making the entire family miserable. Something has got to give. I think it's time to reevaluate the job situation and put down the drink. Just my two cents.

I hope you & your kid are feeling a little better after some rest.

amouse: good idea to talk to a doctor for you
re the work and getting leave or the right schedule of work load- is there a home office to write and request the schedule? they should be in a more reasonable state of mind after the worker's death to align all employees. worth a try?

didn't make any real losses this past week but I am looking forward to next week making something happen

linda

Guys im feelign alot better this morning i think i just needed a good old fashoined cry.. and vent.. My hubby says he cant work fr town money anymore .. he is on over double the money he would be here .. and not paying for food or petro or anything.. the food is provided as too is the transport to and from work anf to and from town after work.. and when he was working at home financially we were going under.. but we have now redued our morgage by 14000 and i believe it would be alot better now.. but he just cant see it.. hes like i dont want to be paying the morgage the rest of my life.. i want to be more secure .. etc.. we were fine on his money but since our family grew and our house was small it got to the stage of move or build on.. so we built on.. which more then doubled our morgage.. and we managed to stay above water for a year and was slowly getting deeper and deeper down .. bills were all red.. car was broken and we couldnt fix it.. and life was very hard.. so we made the decision he would work away .. He is only drinking becuase he is alone.. we have a drink free house here .. as he is a nasty azz drunk.. so we have had a no drinki rukle is this house for quite some time.. which he usually sticks too.. but since he is alone.. and he has nothing to do.. he drinks up there.. but without my nagging he is cutting down on his own..

as for them letting him come home they let him know he couldnt after the told him the guy had died.. nice aren't they?

I feel fine today im not lettin this get to me and last night was a one off.. i dont hink i need antideperesants .. i was just in a bad place and to tell you the truth that is the first time i have cryed since this work started.
I am getting fed uop and i know cameron is past fed up.. so we will just have to see what the future brings..

on a much lighter note.. and it is a lighter note im 266 this morning lol..

Bah! DS has had a 103* fever all afternoon long. No other symptoms so it doesn't concern me in the least. DH on the other had is a wreck and made a big to do about me taking DS to day care tomorrow. At that time it was just a fever.

Fifteen minutes after DH left for work DS puked. Blech. Now I won't be able to go to the gym tomorrow because no matter how good he feels in the morning DH will throw a fit.

Weekly Check-In:

I'm happy to report that I've been doing well about writing down what I'm eating. Even if I'm not positive about what exactly it is, and even if it isn't the best of choices... that's something I was never able to bring myself to do back at home... write down the poorer of my choices. But here, since I don't really know points of meals, it's easier to just write everything down without much judgement. (Okay, except pizza, that's always going to have judgement attached >_>)

3 meals a day seems to work out just fine over here. Still need to work on the exercise... (the story of my life)... But, really, I'm doing a lot more walking during work here.

Down 4.6 this week according to the hotel scale. I'm close to being only 100kg (Whoot!).

3 more weeks here. I'm looking forward to being able to get back to my regular 3FC check-ins.

to everyone!

rhonda-its my dad who I think has alzheimers. Its hard to tell him anything--he lives alot in denial and he's the type you can't tell him what to do cuz if you do....the more he wont do it. I just don't know how to bring it up to him that he might have it and needs to see his doctor about it. he lives in a different state then me but I really really think he has alzhiemers.

Good Morning Blue Team!

I have been sick all weekend, as some of you may know, and I'm finally feeling a little less crummy. I'm totally bummed that my whole weekend was wasted on being sick though. It was really hard being sick and staying OP. For some reason feeling bad tore down my resistance. BUT . . . I fought through it and have stayed OP for 7 days! (Since my challenge to beat Jo for the biggest loser spot) I am so proud of myself.


SO . . . the big question is . . . . what happened at my weigh in this morning?



Do you really want to know?



OK . . . I'll tell you! I LOST 4.5 LBS!!!!!! (it was actually more because of last weeks weigh in, but instead of posting a gain I used a freebie so only 4.5 lbs counts, BUT it's 4.5 freaking pounds!!!!) I almost saw 259 on the scale and I'm confident I will say goodbye to the 260's FOREVER at my next weigh in. Funny thing is my hubby asked me (because he always asks me how I did) and I told him, and he wanted to know what I did different. LOL I told him for once without fail I did what I was supposed to do. It only works if you are committed. (right Josephine? )


Amy- Glad you are feeling better and I know all about needing to let it out. Sometimes that's all you need. Yay for 266!

Rhonda- Keep it up girl!!! We are rocking!!!

Jill- I'm also glad you are doing the research and let us know how it goes! I know it's not an easy decision to make.

Anna- Way to go on the running!!

Hope everyone has a great OP day!!

How are we doing this morning? Hopefully everyone had a super weekend.

Mine was not bad. We finished our yardwork friday night. The amount of time we took to finish this job you'd think we have an acre land instead of a small patch But hey it's done and that's all that matters. We laid the stones and it looks great. But let me tell ya it was not fun carrying bags of stones from the car to our garden patch. Our TH is towards the end of the lane and lot of steps to get to the front of the TH. I think my arms still hurt...

Food wise I've been on plan for the most part. I know not good enough but I'm working on it.... TOM is over and I'm glad. I managed to post a loss for this week not as much as I'd like but it's a loss and I'm happy. I didn't work out as planned last week and it's my fault totally

Jen, awesome!!! That's an amazing loss! Keep it up!

Zinke, hope DS feels better soon

Amy,

Fae, thats a good thing you're writing down everything. I know it has helped me a lot...

Rhonda, on staying OP. I know it's not easy when eating out...too much temptation. But you did great.