Hey all,
Another newbie checking in
Before I do my intro I'd just like to say that Lindor, you are inspirational and you should be proud of what you have achieved so far. People who are starting out (again) can only dream of being 20kgs lighter. And we've all had those 'awful' moments that can turn into days and feelings of depression start to creep in because we can't find answers. But you know what, you'll get back on track, this is just a learning curve. You're suppose to learn something from this particular experience. And I'm sure throughout the journey it will happen again - but you can't beat yourself up about it. You have to refocus even if you don't want/feel like it. And remember that tomorrow is a new day ....
Sorry, you don't even know me and I'm here offering advice when I should be taking it myself (isn't that how it always works..haha). But hope it helps a little.
Anyway now with my quick intro

I'm Jo and I'm 30 (turning 31 in October) and I'm from Sydney. I've been married 5 years (in October - great month) and my DH is from Maryland USA but he moved to Oz to be with me! We have a 14 month old daughter who will definitely keep me on my toes in the upcoming years.
I have been overweight since birth basically and I have always resigned myself to being 'the fat chick' (as I was told by a family member). This comment always stuck in my head and instead of using it as a motivator I used as an excuse to keep myself down. In the back of my mind I don't think I'm worthy and then I say "it's to hard, I'm suppose to be this way" ... this set up the pattern of my life.
I have been fat for the last 30 years and want to be healthy and slimmer for the next 30+ years! One of my closest friends died of a heart attack 2 weeks ago - she was 51, and it was a big wake up call to me. I want to be around for my daughter as she grows up. But if I keep going the way I am, I won't be .. as I'm also a heart attack waiting to happen!
I've put on A LOT of weight over the years and now weigh in at 120kgs! It's gonna be a long and hard journey but the time is now! But no more excuses I just have to do it, change my life and never give up! I never finish anything I start - but I'm sick of being negative and quitting. It's what I usually do, but I don't want to be that person anymore.
Anyhow - I've rambled on enough, and am happy to have found you all ...