Wow!!!! We have all these new people here, yay. I'm so glad this thread is more active. I must confess that I haven't been around much this week, not because I've done so bad, I've just been sorta depressed. I know that I am not going to give up though, today is a new day and I have the WHOLE day off..yay! I am at my cousin's house, house sitting for the day. So today I will make sure that I get my walk in, I'll do another walk Friday and then Saturday, and I should be all set with my four a week quota.

Anyways, I plan on going to get a grinder now, and I WILL report the good news later..the good news that I have done my two mile walk ;p

Talk to you all later, and I look forward to getting to know you all better....


Melissa

Now that I've done the cheerleader thing for Twinkledpink and finished another hearing...

Good Morning Ladies!

The day is only just starting and it's a busy, busy day! I managed to overdraft my checking account and had to start the day by running to the bank to deposit cash from another account at another bank. I swear, I'm going to change all my accounts to one bank! We only use the one we have because DH had it for a dozen years prior to our getting married and because we have all these autopay things directed there! There must be a way to get them changed easily and quickly so I don't keep doing this.

Anyway, then I had a not-so-healthy breakfast of bacon, egg and cheese on toast from the deli upstairs in my office building. I figure it at about 10 pts...(bacon 3, egg 2, cheese 2, bread 3). NOT what I wanted to spend on breakfast, but quick and I was late this morning. Now I've done two hearings and can finally breathe. I really could use coffee. The Diet Coke isn't handling the caffine needs this morning. I also forgot to bring lunch, so I guess it's salad from the state cafeteria for lunch. I just have to make myself avoid the parmesan peppercorn dressing - my favorite , but SOOO fattening!

My big plans of exercise last night went out the window when I came home to find DH mowing the lawn. After that there was NO WAY he was going to the Y. I suppose I should have gone by myself, but I didn't... I have just GOT to quit being so lazy!

Well, on to replies:

SCOOTER! I'd been thinking about you!!! I was waiting to dance with you!
Sue: I'm sure it'll all work out fine. Probably the guard has an overly-active dirty mind! You have yourself, the child and the other adult all saying what really happened. Don't worry. ((hugs))

Biggirl: I've been wondering this since I was about five years old....what the heck is porridge anyway? Also, I can't wait to see Kingdom of Heaven. Folks on my SCA yahoo groups have been talking it up like crazy! The last movie I saw was Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy. Really funny, but then I have a great fondness for British humor.

Tashabella: You hang in there! Like I said before, one slip does not a diet kill! As long as you don't make it a habit, you are going to be fine. Personally, I STARVE when I have PMS, it's like I just can't get enough to eat! That's been the hardest time for me. My stomach literally growls!

DoxieMom (and anyone else I missed): Howdy! We're glad to have you!

Well, I suppose I should try to get some actual work done today! I've not had a very good time of it so far this week as productivity goes. So....back to the grind.

Have a happy, healthy OP day!

Tashabella: That darn PMS is a killer. I'm fighting it too. My down fall during this time is salt and sweet cravings. I used to eat Doritos and M&Ms together. This time I found myself a substatute that worked for me. Quaker makes Quakes rice snacks.I like the cheddar cheese ones. They worked perfect instead of Doritos. And they make my mouth sore after a reasonable amout, instead of allowing me to eat the whole bag like the others do. AI found sugar free malt balls at the candy store. They were a fair trade for the M&Ms. The sugar free chocolate helps in its own way because too much has a laxitive effect. You only over do it once !!! I ate what felt like a pig-out amount. Then when I checked my self I had done 1/3 the damage I would have with the old junk. I felt satisfied and not like I was restricted. I'd love to hear any substatutes anyone finds that fill in better than the fat stuff..CELERY IS NOT AN OPPTION.

TwinkledPink: I'm sorry you feel so bad about over indulging at MILs house. That is a place you go to socialize and for some reason, we tend to think food and company MUST go together.Its being a good host to feed your guests. MIL is set in her way of hosting her family. An alternitive that would allow you to visit with less tempation would be to not visit at meal time. Or even leaving when its time. Any way, I here when you need me. And the support inhere is fantastic so don't give up girly.

I have been doing well and staying op very well. Other than depression from other parts of my life, my eating hasn't shown the effects.. Been very lucky with lots of praying !!Good luck and strength to us all.

Hi ladies! I am so happy to be in this group. Thank you all for the wonderful welcome. As I mentioned before, I have been really sick and had prided myself on staying OP while being off from work and sick. Well... I broke down last night and rummaged through the pantry until I found some PB cookies we forgot to toss when making the junk food "sweep." I slathered PB on the cookies and put them in the micro and the whole time I was eating them, I knew I shouldn't have been, but I think that d*mn prednisone makes me so hungry. But, I'm not going to beat myself up over it. I jumped right back on this morning and plan on going back to work tomorrow, and I do so much better at work.

Twinkle - I too used to have the MIL problem. Mine is what you call a "sabotager." She would intentionally bring chocolate iced brownies, donuts, etc. over to the house saying they were a special treat for the hubby and my son. My husband actually finally took a stand on my behalf (been married for almost 18 years) and told her not to bring another thing into this house. If she brought that crap over, she was just going to take it home with her. I was sooooo proud of him! Now when we go to her house for dinner, I actually preplan my meal and even prepare it at home and take my entire meal with me. I always make sure I bring myself some dessert (strawberries on a rice cake, sprinked with splenda, and topped with some FF cool whip) and enjoy my meal and dessert with everyone else. Once she realized I was serious, she has finally given up. And as everyone else said, don't beat yourself up over it - everyone makes mistakes. Pick yourself up and start all over.

Scooter - YEA FOR YOU!


Thought for the day - "Write it before you bite it."

Pink-calm down. One of the seven habits of successful weight loss maintainers, is to expect slips, but to never give up. I used food as a sedative for so many years, that when I stopped, I have had to learn how to deal with a whole range of emotions that I used to simply avoid. Sometimes I feel like an alien from another planet. The thing I am most thankful for is I have achieved a calm that I have never known before in my life. I wish I could explain where it has come from, so maybe I could share it. I describe it as a bubble of calm that surrounds me. Even when people are freaking out around me, it can't seem to touch me. My best guess is that since I am no longer lying to myself and others about my eating, I have become an open book. There is a relief that comes from having nothing to hide. I wake up every day and try to have an attitude of gratitude for having enough. Just keep trying.

Scooter-Man I am jealous. I haven't been in the 2's in 15 years, and then I was only there for about a year. When I hit 299, I am going to sign up for scuba lessons. When I hit 350, I'm going to buy a bicycle. Do something really nice for yourself, you have earned it.

Tashabella-I am writing a book. It's called "The Lying in Bed Diet." Kind of a how someone can end up weighing 600 pounds, and then get their life back. I wrote a lot in the beginning, being in bed most of the time, I didn't have much else to do. I only write a little at a time now because I am caught up to the present, and don't know how it's going to end yet. I know how hopeless being super morbidly obese can be, and I want to give other people the hope that I have found. I believe in the AA idea that to keep it, you have to share it.

I'm going to go hit the sewing machine. I am making a new cover-up/towel for the pool. Being big doesn't mean I can't be stylin'.

I posted a pic of my OOAK Barbie over at the picture thread today, LOL. . .

I wonder why I remain fascinated with such things: Barbie, Disney girls, anime girls. . . probably because they have the type of figure I've always wished for but never had.

I don't expect perfection out of my body, I really don't. All I really want is to have a waist that curves in a little instead of protruding way out and to lose my double chin.

DARN! I did it again!

My friend offered me Gummy Bears. "They're fat free," she said. Cute little Gummy Bears. Innocent little Gummy Bears. How bad could they be? I ate 12 or so, then on impulse, checked the nutrition information.

Serving size: 4 pieces.
Servings per container: 9
Calories: 110


WHEN am I going to learn to check the nutrition information FIRST! Chaulk another 330 calories (about 6 pts) up to stupidity! Sigh.

Well ladies...

The kid changed his story. It's going to be an investigation now. I called my union rep. I think the security gaurd scared the boy into saying what he wanted him to say. My God... my whole life is going down the toilet. I dunno what I'm gonna do, my whole career is in jeopardy and I havent even finished my schooling to begin a career. I'm so depressed right now. The principal told me he is going to talk to the teacher about the kid, see if he's one to get ito trouble, or lie. Then he is going to have him re-questioned to see if his story changes. I'm so distruaught I dunno what to do. My eyes are burning from crying so hard. I didn't even go to class today. I couldn't. Pray for me that the truth comes out. Once I get my job cleared, I'm going to sue that security guard. He violated my rights and the procedure for chain of command. I mean for goodness sake, the principal and assistant principal didn't know anyhting. he took matters into his own hands.

:'(
Sue

Hello all
I haven't posted in a while[I don't type very well] but I come and read the post every day! and boy am I thankfull for you guys just being here! I've been feeling better and that makes all the differents in the world.
To the new comers; Welcome!
well guys hang in "there" and may our wt. loss jounerys take us to new highs and most of all new lows [wt. loss that is]
AUDREY

Oh Sue, how awful for you! I can't believe that they'd have even talked to the boy again after you and he and the lady you were with all said they were wrong! How awful! But you know you did nothing wrong and you do have another adult to back you up. Surely this will all turn out okay. Keep your head up and remember that you have the truth, and another witness, on your side! (((hugs)))

Sue,

I will definately be praying for you. That is awful. Hang in there. I'm sure the truth will come out.

Blessings and may the Lord clear this matter up quickly,
Dogpal

Sue, although I am new to the group, my heart goes out to you. I am so sorry this has happened to you. Keep your chin up and know that I will be praying for you. If the security guard got the kid to change his story, others questioning him will definitely get conflicting stories, and then hopefully the kid will finally break down and tell the truth. As for the security guard, I do think something should be done about the way he handled the situation. If he would have followed the chain of command none of this would have happened. Any child would be intimidated by a security guard and would be easily manipulated to change the story. Just remember, YOU DID NOTHING WRONG. My prayers are with you.

Hey Sue -

I just wanted to tell you I can TOTALLY empathize with you in your situation. A couple months back I found myself in a similar situation. Only, it involved me caring for a girl with brain damage...someone reported me as doing something that I did NOT do (and I had witnesses to vouch for this)...but still, I lost my job while they were "investigating." I don't even think proper procedure was EVER followed with this situation, but to make a long story short, I never went back there. I could have called to find out what happened, but I seriously had lost all faith in human services..I have no desire anymore to work in a non-profit agency, not if my good name is going to be run through the mud like that...it was mortifying, and I am so disgusted with the ******* who totally took my career into his hands and single handedly ruined it.

I don't care that I'm innocent, some jerk still had the power to make me lose my job over something I didn't even DO. After my suspension, the girl I took care of lost a lot of state funding because no one was working with her, so they decided that she didn't need as many hours a week, so even if I had gone back, I would have been out of my comfy well-paid full time job (I got 14.50 an hour, for entry level human services, that is almost unheard of in this state anyways).

I applaud you for still wanting to perservere, lord knows I couldn't do it. It's just not worth it to me anymore.

I am sorry if I was a downer, but I just had to share my experience and honest thoughts with you.

You'll pull through, keep us all posted though.

*Hugs*

Sue,

I feel for you, I really do.

If I were you I'd do more than call my union rep, I'd call a lawyer. Seriously, it might be the best thing you can do. How old is the student?

I don't talk about it much, but I was once under investigation by DCFS over an accusation made by a girl I had once babysat for. It's a long story, but I remember how scary that was. . . I'd randomly burst into tears during those three months I was under the investigation.

I was scared to death of the impending trial. My word against a "poor, defenseless" little girl in a wheelchair that I used to treat like a little sister. Not only was I wrongly accused, I was betrayed because she wanted to get back at me for encouraging her to be more independant and not feeling sorry enough for her like everyone else. Luckily, the case was dropped before the scheduled trial because my lawyer and I had gathered character witnesses, leaving the accusors with nothing to stand on.

I swore I'd never work with children again, but here I am working at a school age center. . .

Remember that you have an adult witness; that will be a big help in your situation. If you need to talk or vent or whatever feel free to PM me. Like I said, I know what it's like, and sometimes it just helps to know that someone can relate. I only wish I could do more.

I wasn't going to post tonight... but SueMarie... I had to stop long enough to give you {{{ HUGS }}} and support.

Detroitlady / Audrey ... Just keep typing away. You will get better.
When I first started posting I could not type well either. I have certainly built up speed... but I still having typos everyday. LOL