Hi Everyone

I guess I can't post my cute pictures anymore, that means half of my purpose for living is gone

but its true. Sorry I haven't been here for a while ,I'm not stuck in a snow bank, actually I have none at all. and I'm not responsible for the impending snowstorm , , so blame Angie

I haven't been feeling well for a while now, trying to wish it away ,but it seems now I have to get it checked out , symptoms suggest it may be a hiatal hernia .but thats only a guess on my part since it feels like something inside is torn and It feels like a have a lump in my upper abdomen,along with it goes severe heartburn, vomiting, persistant dry cough, and pneumonia like congestion when I eat or drink anything,Oh and did I mention severe pain in my upper abdomen and back. I really hoped it would go away , but it didn't . I have had over 15 major surgeries in my life and numerous little things including 3 car accidents, two of which were serious. Going to the doctor for me is something I don't like to do, always ends up being something, and I just don't want to hear the word operation again.Hows that for a Happy New Year Start. I have been so exhausted , first I just thought it was the holidays and decorating,but soon discovered this was different, I haven't been able to even get my house cleaned up from Christmas , and everyone is back to work ,my daughter works two jobs so she hasn't been able to help much and me I can hardly get out of bed. I made the much dreaded doctor's appointment ,for Friday afternoon so I guess I will have to wait awhile to find out whats going on, and I'm sure from there it will be being prodded and poked and drinking yucky thick goup. Hows that girls , am I not a cheery ,peice of news. Ahhh maybe she will send me home and tell me I have gas or something

I hope ,I wish. I really have no news other that that , sorry , the babies went for their first checkup today, my son took them before work , turns out they are doing well , and the little tan one is a boy and the little black one is a girl ,so I have one of each, they have already doubled in size , I will post the pictures when I get them ,if I can , can I, I don't know whats acceptable and whats not, so maybe someone could explain to me please. Who has S A D , I have struggled with that for years .I have seen those lights but never got one, my medication helps somewhat, but I have been unable to take that since my sypmtoms progressed, it seems to aggravate everthing.so on top of everything else I am going through withdrawl and depression. Oh I'm depressing myself more. hopefully not you girls , just don't listen to me ok. I have tried to get a quick update on everyone, I am sorry for everyone who lost friends and loved ones in that tragic situation its still so uncomprehensible . Angie ,so sorry to hear about Brandons fall , I feel so bad for him, he is going through a lot in his young life, give the boys Hugs and Kisses from Auntie Ellen whether they want them or not

and nice trick by the way ,maybe Monte will insist they wear mittens

Mindee how is Tommys hand doing and what was the outcome of the nurses visit today?Poor Cristi all that enthusiasm and now a downside to the paint I hear , I agree with the advise pretty lamps and lots of candles , You know what I think would look really pretty in your room a tiffany style lamp.It has that warm feeling that would lend itself to your room do you think? I hope your family got home safe and sound , Ice does scare me to when people are cought in it.Just think that its only 3 months till spring and that should take care of the ice problem, the paint problem, and the blues problem ,so smile,its closer now than it was a month ago

I'm a big help huh? Hey whats this I hear about the meeting of the Oregon minds, I want to come, how come no one said Ellen do you want to come, guess you don't want me there

I'm hurt and offended looks like Angie and me are going to be left out in the cold and I mean that litterally, unless of course you invited Angie , Hey Angie are you going,without me,??

Hi Susan , am I still going to Hawaii with you, I packed my new undies and everthing,their pink did you hear. I don't think they are ever leaving that lingerie drawer.How are you and the girls , did you get anything straighted out yet, If you don't respond I will have no choice but to write another poem to you.Hi Jane the situation with my daughter seems to be alright,at this point. maybe she really just wasn't feeling good , I don't know, I just figured he should have called her regardless, it was New Years Eve, but as a Mother I tend to over react to these things,I want my kids happy all the time, and I am a little touchy where she is concerned ,since her last relationship. I will mind my own business , she knows how I feel and she also knows I am always here for her, what more can I do.Marti , sounds like you did well with the nutcrackers , its the best time to buy things like that, they are the kinds of things that go through the years, without changing. I only wish I had some money to go shopping for after christmas bargains, but knowing me its better that I don't,

can't get the stuff I have put away this year, and anyways this is my year to groom and primp, great start I have had, I feel so depressed everyone is doing so well , starting off the year and I can't even get out of bed.Marti , thats a great plan ,for your savings good luck , savings what is that anyway sound nice,

so does the by 40

I'm crying now, you went and made me cry

Hi Pam there are so many varying opinions out there , they make you crazy , I am not sure how water could be bad for you, under any circumstance but I'm no Dr. Ellen , I leave the expert advise up to Dr. Katy. Marti ,have you ever seen than financial expert on tv her name is Sue , I can't think of the name of the show , but I would think any book by her would be intelligent advise, even I got that from her and I'm not to smart

thats why I can't remember her name

but I will find it , its my promise to you,

Hi Ann good luck with your weight loss program. Hi Julie, sorry I didn't read an update on your progress, but I hope that everything is going well for you, I am sure I have missed someone, Oh Ellen get you butt out of bed , life is passing you by girl.

I know I'm a nutcase but you may and I say this lightly with tongue in cheek , miss me , if my tummy needs a fixing, or maybe not I can understand that you may need a rest from me from time to time.

but I'm not going yet unless they ban Me as well as my pictures,

Well I need to go make me some soup or something , haven't eaten much today, to tired to open my mouth,its a good thing , all I have to do is type , cause I couldn't have talked this long,

I will try and come back later, I bet you wish now that I would go back to that snow bank you though I was stuck in don't you, I know thats whats you guys are thinking. but I don't care I'm coming back whether you want me or not

Marti I just remembered Suze Orman she has quite a few books out ,A few comes to mind The nine steps to financial freedom, Road to wealth , You earned it, don't lose it, Courage to be rich, Laws of money. Lessons of life, see just partially not smart,

I have enjoyed watching her show many times and its not really to entertaining talking finances , but she makes it so , Maybe it would be worth picking up her book, and thats all she wrote.