On the bright side, when this is over, you are gonna have the cleanest colon in the entire state of (fill in your state here, or province, if that suits).
Seriously, though, you have just learned something about yourself, or circled back around to something you already knew: That when you're triggered, you will eat beyond the point when a rational person who avoids pain & gas & cramps would stop. There's a self-destructiveness to this that we have to acknowledge takes us to a very dark place. There's a rational version of you, who sits here posting about what you've done, fessing up, and there's an irrational version of you, who lives in the moment, doesn't let herself think ahead, & engages in behavior that may end up hurting.
The question is, why do you switch gears, and do you know how to pull the brake & stop it?
Was there any point when you think you could have stopped it?
If not after two, then after three? After four?
Have you ever thought of practicing stopping? Just a thought. Like observing yourself, and saying, "I can stop this at any time. And while three or four isn't good, it's not all of them, and I am going to stop now."
It may be too early for you to do this, but hold onto that thought, the next time this happens. Try stopping. You may continue, but at least do try. You may just think about stopping. You may stop & then start up again. That's good. I mean, not good, but it's better. That's better than nothing. That would be better than where you sound like you are. That means you are giving it a good fight, and that someday, maybe the next time, you will win & you will indeed be able to stop.


Let's just say God had mercy and allowed me to get home in time. My tummy still isn't 100% but I'm much better. Thanks guys!
