Ladies -

Hope - Glad your eye apt went went and good luck with the dentist. Talk about a fun day, eesh. You should do something fun tonight to make up for it, you deserve it!

Jelly - Glad you and the hubby had fun!

Pure - you can find some amazingly fun stuff cleanin up after someone who is a packrat! Look for treasure!

Sassy - I never want to be at work, don't feel bad! You should start making your journals into stories - if you can do it at work, it might wake you up.

I feel better today. My body never lets me get super bummed for too long. 2-3 days tops, and I'm in a good mood whether I want to be or not. It's weird being physically happy when I'm mentally yearning to crawl back into bed. Ha! Maybe the energy will help me get my laundry done tonight!

Everybody have a goooooood day.

Hi Gang

Hope Everyone Has A Great Day!!!! I Don't Have Much Going On So Far This Week!!!!! I'm Going To The Bar Tonight W/shango(husband)and Friends From Work Just To Brake Up The Week And Relax For A Bit Tomorrow Have To Take Taylor(14 Yr Old Daughter)to The Doctor's For Her Yearly Check Up!!!! We Have Our Kids This Weekend So We Will Be At The Pool!!!!

TALK TO YOU ALL SOON!!!!S

Have a great day

Hi gals!

I'm trying to do too much, and have to slow down. I'm frustrated being so slow, but I MUST wait out this healing process. It is odd to weigh more (please, PLEASE!, let it just be the swelling!!) and be larger than when I went into surgery. We train ourselves to measure clothing sizes and numbers on a scale - it's hard when those don't match up!! Must give it time, but it is making me a little teary.

MissRicer - where are you? Come back!! Post here - we'll support you. Lying low, licking wounds - I am the QUEEN of that... but coming here always, ALWAYS, helps!

How's everyone else?? (and Hope, I HATE when I type a post and lose it - stupid computers! gah!!)

Heather

Ok I need to go back thru and catch up on Junes post cause I was a little lost on some things. I feel so stupid because I want to lose weight so bad and cant stand to look at myself and everytime I start something it never becomes a long term routine. Like we did the c25k for a week. I felt great then we missed a week due to things going on and last night I couldnt make myself go do it....why...I was counting calories and just forgot a day or two then had no desire to do it. I started doing the 30day shred and couldnt find the same time of day to do it and started missing days. I dont know I am totally getting my life and family in order and on schedules maybe I just need to give a little more time and add it. I got my kids in a good routine with bed time and everything.
I just can NOT stand to look at myself after I get dressed and I cant stop eating junk. I dont over eat but I drink soda and eat stuff I shouldnt.

I feel like I am running into a brick wall every day!! It is so bad that I think about coming here and checking in with you guys but I feel like crap cause I cant even say I am doing anything right. I dont know.

I just want change but my motivation is not as high.....

Awww momof4 I've been wondering how you've been doing. I feel like I'm in a similar place, I'm so fed up with myself. I know I have to make the changes and know what to do and yet I still make poor choices. Take this morning, its almost 10am and I'm still lying here with a ton of things to do. I'm trying to think of something for breakfast, do I have what I want which is left over dinner, but its really high in carbs go for the lettuce and thai tuna, don't really feel like that, have a protein type drink? what about a homemade egg mcmuffin thing? and then I start thinking of the calorie numbers, get overwhelmed and opt out of making a choice which means I'll skip breakfast and be starving for lunch and grab whatever. I don't know, I just can't get it together. Congrats on getting your kids on a good bed time routine, that is a huge start.

Hope that is one busy day off you had!!! Hope you had a nice long soak in the tub after all was said and done.

Heather give yourself time and be good to yourself. The swelling and retained water will go soon enough and you'll have to go shopping for a whole new wardrobe!!

marbear glad to hear you are feeling better, makes it a bit easier to get things done.

Bit Hi and to everyone else!!

Don't have to go to work until 6:30 tonight. I get to work with both of my daughters as we are going to a different store and covering while they have their climate meeting. Sort of feel sorry for whoever our supervisor might be. Its not raining and the sun is out today so that is great. Came out of group yesterday and walked into a downpour, crazy. My mom had her gallbladder surgery yesterday morning and wasn't doing very well last night, my sister had to take her back to the hospital for some more painkillers. Haven't heard this morning how she is. DdA's burn is looking terrible. All part of the healing process I know. We are going to stop in at the after hours clinic on our way to work and get proper documentation as she really needs to make an accident report incase it becomes infected or anything. Plus the doctor will let us know if we are doing the right things.
I better get going here or else I'm going to lose my day.

Take care everyone and note we are on the downward slide to the weekend!!
K

Hello Ladies..

Jelly ~ Have fun at the bar tonight with your hubby and friends. It's always nice to relax during the week. Have a great weekend with your kids as well.

Hope ~ You do need to slow down. Doing to much isn't good for you after surgery of any kind. Don't pay attention to what the scale or your clothes look like until the swelling goes down. You'll drive yourself crazy.

Miss Racer ~ You should really come back. We are here for support when ever things are good or bad.

momof4 ~ I really know how you feel. I've been doing the same thing and it's driving me crazy. Take one thing at a time. If you drink soda drink diet. If you want to eat something that is bad for you. Pick one day a week to do it. If you want help trying to stick to something send me a PM and we'll come up with something.


So far the first 8 days of July have been really crappy. I have been so moody and keep getting aggravated and then pissed at every little things that happens and gets said. Then tonight I finally realized as I sat down at the computer that I hadn't taken my medication in about a week. I feel a little better now that I've taken them.

I'm also sore. My legs, shoulders, arms and back are killing me. I have been cleaning non stop since Monday. I finished cleaning out the front room and finally got it set up into a bed room for my boyfriends son. The only thing I have left to do is hook up the DVD player and his Xbox and it is done. I also cleaned out the shed and reorganized all of my boyfriends stuff that he has out there. Now I can put some of my stuff in there. I'm still cleaning out the basement tho. Its been three days and I'm still not done. I only have 15 totes to finishes going through and I'm done. I ended up throwing out 43 bags of trash between both so far. The garbage men are going to love me in the morning. My mother is literally a pack rat and she is going to freak when she gets home. I ended up with 4 totes worth of stuff. I am moving in a few months and the treasures I found. OMG. I still have to clean my room out. All the totes that I brought up are sitting in the corner and I have to finish cleaning out the attic. So I have a few more days of cleaning ahead of me.

Other than that I have been running like crazy. I haven't seen my son since Sunday but I've talked to him everyday. (Long Story). I was surpose to go to Maine but it didn't happen so I took the three days to clean but I should be going to Maine on Monday. Who knows.

Hopefully things start looking better tomorrow. I am going to watch what I do and what I eat and hopefully I get all my cleaning done. This weekend is the Whaling City Festival. I normally spend all three days at the festival but I don't know what I am doing yet. I think I am going on Saturday with my mom and on Sunday with my best friend. Both my boyfriend and my best friend both work at the festival considering their boss runs it every year.

Hope everyone has a good day tomorrow.

Pure..

Buddly-Wow that totally sounds like me in the morning. I cant decide what I want so I dont eat or I have no energy to make myself anything so I dont eat. I hope your mom and dda is getting better. Sounds like alot going on at one time.

Pure-I am trying to drink more water because that is what will help me lose the weight and I hate diet soda. I have tried doing one day of the week junk food but it ends up then I cant not eat it I just want more then. I dont know something has to give soon!


I put shorts on I just bought and they wer tight...Tom already left town and the scale doesnt show i gained weight. I must be holding water since all i have been drinking is soda. Its like this sugar and junk has a hold on me and I cant get out of it. I want so bad to RUN around with my kids at the play ground. I know I am not a little kids anymore but I want to have fun and enjoy playing with them while they still want me to. I dont want to enjoy watching them...I want to get in there and play with them. i need to go to boot camp where I cant get away I HAVE TO DO IT....UGGGGHHHH Why do we get stuck in such ruts...I wish I was taught growing up how to eat healthy and about food not just made to eat what was on the table. Plus my mom hardly ever left me have junk food or soda so its like I have to make up for those years. She doesnt really let her foster kids eat much candy then when they arent home they want candy. Kids need to be taught a balance and truly taught about food and shown. Ok I am getting off my soap box now. I am sitting here soaking my foot in vinager to help kill fungus on my big toe. I guess I am gonna go to bed now!! talk to you all lata!!

Pure - Be glad you havn't been in Maine! It's done nothing but rain! It's actually nice out today though, so hopefully the weather will hold out for you. Where are you headed in ME?

Mom - You know what's really good? Baked chick peas. Bake them until they're crisp and throw some salt on them. They make a great substitute for junk food. So do rice cakes.

Heather - SLOW DOWN!!! Don't go too fast and hurt yourself...

Not too much here. The sun is out so that's a good start to the day. Work has been UBER frustrating. I feel like I'm a babysitter half the time, which is not cool. I'm trying to get back into writing on my lunch break. Actually, I'm trying to get back into the habit of remembering to take a lunch - and writing on it. It's a good release and who knows - perhaps I will write a book someday

All - have a great day.

Hi Chickies

Heather yes, its swelling from the surgery... bet your looking better and better with each passing day.

Have a wonderful day chickies, I have to get back to work

Luv yah !!

Hi Girls! May I come and join in on your thread? I may be a little lost at first, but I am sure eventually I'll catch up.

Hope4me... I too have social avoidance when I am not at my best. I have been feeling absolutely horrible about myself for about the past year and have managed to avoid several social scenes. Those I have attended, I generally wished they would "disappear", and usually ended up with a headache after each because I was tense and self-conscious most of the time.

Does anyone else tend to hold their breathe when uncomfortable? Maybe it's from trying to suck my stomach in the entire time.

I have also been avoiding responsiblities for some time now. Not the necessary ones, but the ones that I constantly think I "should" be doing. I put tremendous pressure on myself. I used to work non-stop. A busy-bee that never settled until "everything" was done. I was also thinner then. I was also much more high-strung then too. (ADHD). Since I have been on antidepressants, I have become much calmer, but I don't like how I have also become more lethargic and complacent. I am afraid to stop the meds, though, because I have tried twice, and I have never felt so depressed in my life. I didn't want to die, but couldn't find the will to want to live each day. I cried constantly and could deal with just about NOTHING. Thank God my DH has patiently stood beside me through all of this.

Thanks for letting me go on. I'm looking forward to getting to know all of you.

Hello Ladies.

Momof4 ~ Water works for me in losing weight as well, but I can't drink it as it is. I have to put a flavor packet in it or I won't drink it. I have been on a diet soda kick lately. My boyfriend works at an auction and he can get cases of soda for free and there is a ton of it in the house. I am going to try limiting it to 1 bottle of soda a day. Then the rest of the day drink water. As for breakfast.. Lately I have been buying either Slim fast drinks, special K meal bars or Slim fast mean bars. I don't normally eat breakfast, but if I have them in the house they are a meal replacement and I can normally last til lunch before I am hungry again. Plus I have been buying the Special K Protein water mixes. They help curb the hunger as well. Its always an idea if you don't want to make breakfast.

Marbear ~ My mother went to Maine and she said the same thing. All it did was rain. I don't know if I am going Monday. I seriously doubt it because my bf is working a festival this weekend and Monday is the day that they take everything down. Oh well. Maybe the week after.

Heather ~ I hope you are doing better.

Welcome Blueenough. I do the same things sometimes. Its hard to change it and I drive everyone crazy.

Today is day 4 of cleaning up the house. The basement is almost done. I have a few totes to go through and then sweeping and it looks wonderful. Trying to catch up on laundry as well. I have been picking up my room and cleaning out the attic and all the stuff I brought into my room from the basement. Once I have both done. I am done. I also changed my whole room around and cleaned it top to bottom.

I only slept two hours last night. My bf and his son were playing video games and then put in a movie and I woke up and couldn't go back to sleep. When I got upset and went downstairs to clean the basement at 1am my bf came down to ask what was wrong. I want to sleep but I can't do it with them in the room. I fell asleep an hour later and slept for 2 hours and my mom's bf woke me up so I could move my car. I've been up ever since.

I am taking a small break and enjoying a cigarette. and having my coffee. Then it's back to work. I think I have another 2 hours of cleaning to do. Then I have to make lunch for my bf's son and then run to take him to the auction tonight.

Busy day.

Hope everyone has a good day.

Purefire

Can't stay long but...

Welcome Blueenough!! Glad you joined us.

I've gotta get to work soon, blah. I'm really frustrated with the eating right and exercising thing. I'm not doing as well as I should be. Maybe that's an understatement. I'm maybe doing what I should about 1/3 of the time. I guess that's still better than nothing but the lack of visual or scale results that show from that such little effort tends to throw me into depression and frustration. I hate the mental games that trying to improve my health causes me to me to start playing. I don't think I'd be this stressed if I was eating junk and not exercising at all. Weird.

Catch y'all when I get home tonight around 10:30pm.

Hmmm, nobody's been here since I left.

I just have to say to Purefire: I can't believe how hard you've worked! But also I can't wait to hear what your mom's reaction will be. True hoarders are hard to change. I hope she doesn't flip out on you too much. I'm anxious to hear what she does.

I'm tired b/c I've been filling in for a lady who's on vacation plus trying to do my job. She will be back on monday. I'm just trying so hard to do everything she does ( with only 2 days of training) and sometimes I just can't fit everything in.

See y'all tomorrow.

:Hug: to everyone. I

'm quite tired today - and lazy, so I'm copying this from another post I wrote. (I post to two forums regularly, so if you happen to be on both - don't think I'm crazy!)


"I didn't get up an exercise this morning. I got home from work last night and immediately started cleaning - didn't finish until 9:30 - and I was so wound up I couldn't fall asleep until almost midnight. That is not helpful when you have to get up at 5am. My guests arrive between 5 & 6… and last I heard they planned on making us dinner tonight and taking us out to dinner tomorrow. Eeek. I may be a very sad and off-track chicka on Sunday!

I haven’t seen my therapist in like a month & a half because of vacations, visits, etc… I have an apt at 5 tonight (my husband will have to babysit the guests until I get home). I have to give her what I have written so far on this stupid story. Ugh. I wanted to write a book, because my brain is filled with… ridiculous nonsense. (Seriously, I’m just way too weird sometimes.) Anyhoo, what seems to come out is something based upon my grandfather dying when I was in middle school. SO… apparently I need to “get it out of my system”. Goody! Now I get to write and proofread what I went through when I was 12 and lived with someone slowly dying for 2 years. My husband read it. He said it was “Beautifully written but horribly depressing.” Haha, ya think? This should be an interesting appointment…"