getting out of bed
I have the same problem. I don't feel that it's any particular time of the year, I just have zero motivation and I let too many things get to me and would rather hibernate. I have screwy work hours, I'm 29 and 370+ pounds, I'm in school full time, of course I'm exhausted. But, even on my days off, I just don't even want to bother, it's easier not to. I realize that you have to make yourself get up because that's part of winning the depression battle...actually getting out of bed. My psychiatrist recently switched my depression meds and I honestly can't say if I feel like it's doing me any good. I know if I lost weight I would be a lot happier and life would come easier. I just feel like we are the way we are for a reason, so why do we have to change just to fit in with society? Yes, I know health is a factor and I only this year started feeling unhealthy. I'm trying to get a lot of these things under control, but I don't feel like it's doing me any good at this time. I'm so angry, all the time. I don't get it. I do have a boyfriend and he loves me for me and doesn't want me to change at all, but what he also doesn't understand is that with obesity often comes PCOS, which puts a damper on getting pregnant like a "normal" girl should be able to. And it's not only the PCOS, I'm just not comfortable with myself. I literally disgust myself. I don't know what to do to make things better. Yes, I have sleep apnea, that whole process was a waste for me...it did absolutely nothing. I always have headaches and neck aches...now the back aches are starting...not to forget that I'm packing up top. I hate it. Absolutely hate it. I would love to join a gym, but my work hours and school won't allow me...I just don't have time right now, my options are limited. I've even looked into bariatric procedures...my crappy insurance won't even pay for adipex let alone a weight loss procedure. I feel stuck. No pun intended. I know no one said anything was going to be easy, I just don't understand why they have to be so hard for a select few.
Last edited by peanutbuttercup29; 12-22-2012 at 01:43 AM.
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