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Originally Posted by MoveMoveMove
Love this thread. It taps into what I was thinking about yesterday and this morning.
Inside, I am "feminine." For me, that means I love girly colors, soft fabrics, dresses, and skirts. Too bad most clothes in my size are tents full of couch flowered fabric.
I've always said I never learned how to be feminine. My mom died when I was ten and all that was left in my household was males and me. Sigh.
I can "pretty-up" with makeup but I hate wearing any makeup other than lipstick.
But I do indulge what I like. I love pedicures and this Christmas, I finally gave myself permission to splurge on my favorite perfumes which, to me, are expensive. I'm cheap so that was a biggie for me. I love the feel of soft fabric carressing my ankles when I wear dresses and skirts so this weekend I'll be starting on a trek to put those back into my wardobe.
This is really rambling but that's where my head is at on this issue.
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I really appreciate your and everyone's comments. I feel very much like you---inside I am the girl in the commercial running through a field of flowers in a dainty dress. On the outside, I make too many jokes and dress more masculine. with the added weight above 300, now my shoulders seem bigger than when I am below 300lbs.
I also feel like maybe because I did not take care of myself is partly the reason my bf lost interest in me. I am not sure, I do worry about that. Right now I am trying to comfort myself by doing things that make me feel more womanly.
