OMG, I'm a cow!

I just saw the pics from last week's family visit and as it turns out, I'm HUGE!!! You know how it is...there you are, puttering along, minding your own business and WHAM! Someone shows you a picture of yourself and you just want to crawl under a chair (or into a cake) and cry. I am MASSIVE.

So if anyone wants me, I'll be over here...not eating.

B

Hi Brandy glad to hear that baby Susannah is getting better

Hey, I know exactly what you mean about seeing yourself in photographs ... I HATE seeing ones of me ... I look so old and HUGE, I can't believe it's me!! ... I look more like my mother than my mother! ... No disrespect to my mother of course, but I want to look like her daughter, not her sister!

Two weeks ago I had a good loss of 6lbs, which I was really pleased about ... then last week I gained back 2 of them!! This week I've lost 1 of them again ... Who gets the prize for being the best yo-yo dieter???

Been doing ok during the week (sort of) but the weekends, as usual, are a big struggle for me. I had a meal out on Wednesday for someone's leaving 'do' at work ... I'm out on a 'girls night' tonight ... more food and drinks! And hubby & I are out for dinner with friends tomorrow night ... How the **** is a girl supposed to lose weight?!!!

I guess I'm aiming for another gain next week!

Nichola

Hi Nic!

I have a few weddings this summer but other than that, I'm going to try to avoid eating out (although with a baby, it's not like I do that much going out anyway) so I won't have any "special occasions" messing me up. It's HARD when you have an active social life - well, I imagine it must be. Mine's dried up.

I think I'm going to have a "de-junk the kitchen" day tomorrow. We just have too much crap around. I have said I don't want Susannah to grow up with my food issues and obsessions. I don't want her to see me doing WW or obsessing about points or calories. I think my best bet is to chunk the junk and just start living the way I hope she will grow up - no junk in the house, regular rounded meals, etc. I just don't want this to be an issue for her, I don't want to look at her and see all my bad habits making HER life harder.

Of course, I'm sure every fat new mom thinks like this at some point.

Hi Brandy, you've made some very good points there ... what better reason is there to get healthy than for your daughter My kids have both grown up seeing me constantly on and off "diets" and either starving myself of pigging out on something ... I can only hope that it won't cause them to have an unhealthy relationship with food.

I had some very upsetting news yesterday ... my work collegue was taken into hospital ... she had a heart attack ... and she's only 35!! Needless to say I am in a state of shock. It's hard to believe that things like this happen to people so young. It's not until it happens to someone close to you that it makes you realise just how fragile life is.

Hubby and my son have both told me that it's about time I started taking more care of myself ... they are worried that it could happen to me ... I guess it's understandable. It made me realise that perhaps it's about time I started taking this seriously instead of abusing my body with yo-yo dieting, overeating and too much alcohol! It's a shame that it's taken something like this to make me realise it.

Nichola

Nic, I'm so sorry about your friend - what a shocker!

I am currently looking at Jenny Craig. I don't belive it's magic, it's just controlled portions and calories, but I like the idea of someone else doing all the work. All I have to do is heat up. And Mark wants in too. Yay.

Baby up.

Bye!

B

OMG didn't realise I'd been away so long.

I was looking at house porn (I love looking at houses for sale on the internet) which made me think of Lorraine, which then made me think of everyone else....so here I am.

Anyway, my update.....gave up WW AGAIN, joined a weight loss clinic at the doctor's, but haven't been back since the first meeting and have gained weight AGAIN. At the moment though I am struggling with stress, as my exams start a week on Monday, and last until 22nd June (although not every day!).

Something big has happened though. A friend asked me to look on the internet for her to see whether she could gain enough emigration points to make it to Australia. I found that she couldn't, because of her age, looked at whether we could, but again, we failed because of Alan's age (they won't take anyone over 44).

Anyway, to cut a long story short, I thought while I was on the website 'oooh I wonder if we could get into Canada'.....did the points assessment, and we more than have enough points to get in. The emigration process is 2-3 years which is too long for Alan (he'll be close to 50, which he thinks will make things harder), but if he can get a job, go over on a work permit and apply for permanent residency when there it could all happen in less than 12 months. Soooooooo......looks like Alan is looking for a job in Canada now!!! Nat is excited about the prospect, and Dom is worried that all the boys will be better hockey players than him.

I'm not sure how I will tell my Mom yet though....guess I'll wait to see if he does get a job offer first.

Anyway I hope you are all well. Brandy, I'm glad to hear that Susannah is doing better.

Love
Jo xxx

Hi all!

Jo! What exciting news. Sure, and just as I'm leaving Canada! LOL What kind of work does Alan do? There are loads of jobs here in Calgary, depending on his specialization.

I've been procrastinating terribly on all fronts except helping others. Perhaps I should curb that a bit and help myself hmmm?

Less than a month until the move. Still no house (hope to put in an offer on one today) and still haven't decluttered everywhere. Go me.

I can, however, see the top of my computer desk which is truly a miracle.

Hope you are all well!

Lorraine

Wow, Jo, fingers crossed!

Lorraine, good luck with that move!

I was all set to try JC and as it turns out, you can't order online, you can't just get the food and the plan you have to DEAL with someone, and the nearest "center" is like an hour and a half away. So screw that. I've just de-junked the house and I'm going to do the best I can. I shall call it my Not Eating Like A Crazy Person plan.

Hope everything is going well for everyone else,
B

Jo, great news! You must all be really excited! As an expat for many years I can't say I blame you ... You go for it!! The difficult thing is telling the family you're leaving behind ... but at the end of the day, if you're seeking a better life for your own family, I don't see how anyone can't be be pleased for you, even though it's upsetting for them. I hope your hubby manages to find a good job out there ... if things don't work out you can always go back 'home' again ... but if you don't take the chance now it may be too late and you could live to regret it ... Live for today and all that!

Lorraine ... hope you've made a start on all that 'decluttering'!! ... I don't envy you ... I've done it too many times in the past!!

Brandy ... Good luck with the NELACP Plan!

I've not weighed myself this week ... have not had a great week Even the scare with my friend hasn't jostled me into action! I should be ashamed!

Nichola

I weighed-in this week and wasn't surprised to see a 4lbs gain! I'm once again back to where I started ... I really need to break this cycle ... but HOW????

Hope everyone else is doing better than I am!

Awww Nichola, try not to let it get to you.

I'm up and down more than a yoyo, well more up than down, so I know how you feel. Started my exams yesterday, got two tomorrow, two on tuesday next week, and one a week on thursday (22nd). Just want to sleep and eat at the mo.

Oh and Nat has decided that she is going to make my life as difficult as possible this week by playing up. She isn't pre-menstrual (wrong week), so I am assuming it's because I'm nearing the end of my course and will have to find work. My Mum, who supported my decision to go to Uni now thinks I should go back to being a stay at home mom because 'Nat needs it'. Unfortunately the debt we got into because of my course is pretty much forcing me to get a job. Can't win.

Hope everyone is ok.

Jo

I've had a mammouth weekend ... can't even begin to tell you how much I've had to eat/drink ... I must have consumed a whole months worth of calories in 2 days!! It's stopping right here and now ... it has to ... I can't go on like this any longer. I feel so uncomfortable ... nothing fits ... I keep buying bigger clothes and a couple of weeks later they're too tight again!! I'm bursting out of everything!! I'm so angry with myself. I started off this year saying that I was going to lose this weight before I went back to the UK this summer to visit my family & friends ... It's now just over 3 weeks away and guess what ... I'm heavier than I was at the beginning of this year!!

Well, I may only have 3 weeks but I'm going to try my hardest to get some of this blubber shifted ... I'd be happy with just being comfortable in my clothes instead of bursting out of them. I'm aiming for 7-10lbs to begin with ... it's a start

So here goes ........

Jo, hope the exams are going ok ... good luck on Thursday ... is that your final one?

Hey, I'll commit to three weeks of serious dieting with you. Even (insert scary music here) EXERCISE! I need a little kick in the pants. Ok, a big kick. They're BIG pants

Jo, best of luck with all your exams. Tho you have been our star student so it's not like you need luck! How old is Nat again? Seems like when they get to a certain age, THEY aren't even home that much!

Alright, baby complaining. Off to..well, I don't have a plan. Wish me luck.

And Nic, more on this three week Super Diet SOON!

B

So much for a three week super diet. I am all over the place. This child is teething and will not sleep. I'm a mess. You can't give me back my sleep and then take it away again! That's just messing with me! So no, no super diet here. I feel like everything is out of control. My house needs organizing, I need to get a grip on myself.

Anyone out there?

So we just joined Jenny Craig. Actually, HE called and joined for both of us because, in his words, I'd just dither about it for another six months and really, why not just do it already. So I'm really excited. He's into it, I'm ready for it, it's enough of a financial investment to keep us going AND I feel so overwhelmed with everything lately, the idea of just heat and eat really REALLY speaks to me just now.

So again I ask, anyone out there???

B