Haven't posted for a couple of days.
My calorie intake has stayed in the 1100 to 1300 range. We went out for dinner the other night but I stayed away from the bread (my weakness).

I still don't have a loss to report which makes me think that maybe I was eating the same number of calories before I started counting.
I can't wait until it warms up (next week) so I can get outside and take some long walks.

VD calories were again over the top.

2728 with 38% coming from fat. You read that right! It was a delightful meal, I must say. Great company... just wonderful. No one I want to get serious about, but certainly someone I could spend time with and enjoy myself.

Not over the boyfriend... eight years is a long time. And guess what! He saw me in the restaurant, came right up to me, and told me he was NEVER in love with me.

HUMILIATION.

Long story short... cried, went nuts, all after I got home, of course. It was/is so painful... honest to God it hurts so much. And the worst part is I BLEW MY QUIT!

I smoked stupid cigarettes!

So now I don't need to count calories. I'll be so depressed for days and days that this weight will slip right off. No desire to go to the gym (but I'll go anyway) and no desire to eat (but I must anyway).

I told myself I'd quit smoking in February, and dammit, I will quit smoking in February.

I start over again, I am beating myself up to no end, but I will weather this storm and I will show that man what it means to be a DIVA.

And God as my witness, I will cut my hand off before I dial his phone number!

And yeah... he WILL call... and yeah... I WILL NOT answer.

I have three other gentlemen callers (love the southern charm, don't YOU?) who I'll be dining with this week and even if I'd rather shoot them just for being men, I'll fake it 'til I make it.

Cuz that's what a Diva does!

Diva- I think that he probably said that to you because he was Jealous that you were with another man. I know that it hurts. But you can over come it. As far as the smoking, you did it before for what 2 weeks? You can do it again. It might take a couple of tries but you will be able to do it!!!!!


My calories for today were 1258 I think or pretty close to it. I didn't get on the gazelle like I wanted to. Was kinda a lazy day. I have been having a lot of them lately. But I am happy to report that I am 1lb away from my former V-Day Goal. Well off to bed.
Mary

Diva~we've all been there, done that, regardless of whether it is food or smoking. Lord knows that I messed up several times before I finally quit. I "officially" quit 17 years ago when I was pregnant with DD. I pretty much stayed quit for a long, long time (although it was hard stopping--but I had to do it). My weakness was going out. Friends. Booze. Each of those things made me want a smoke, and I usually bummed one from a smoking friend. I did this for YEARS. DH eventually quit when DD was an infant, but he, too, gave into his cravings in social situations. We'd even smoke a whole carton when we'd go on cruises (we've done 3). Weird how we were able to take it up as if we'd never quit, smoke endlessly for over a week, come home and quit cold turkey all over again. It's been several years since the last cruise and I can say that after the 17 years, it has truly been only the last 2 years that I have not had the craving to smoke. It is a long, long road. You will probably give in from time to time, but as long as you stop again, you will eventually win. Good luck.

Well, I didn't eat the cupcake or the mini cinnamon roll, but someone came in with homemade Linzer cookies. I had never tried them before, and I thought I would treat myself but be good for the rest of the day. And I was. I stayed within my calories, a little less then 1400.

Ali,

You've convinced me. NO cruises for me. But I really want to kick this beast. Worst part will be those first two days, but as you said, if I've done it before, I'll do it again. And do it I will in February.

Petra, I'm sure he was jealous. But it still hurt.

Talked to my mom about it and she said... "Girl, your best weapon is excellence. Be excellent at all you do and all you say and that will be your best recourse." I love my mom!

Today's calories were 1063 and I hit the gym for the next three consecutive days including a group run on Saturday morning in 20 degree weather.

Diva, you are a model of picking yourself up and dusting yourself off. I have no doubt you'll come up smelling like a rose. No problemo, small set back ... move on. She said with a swish of her hair!

Sorry to now pop off sideways but ... I had an awesome day yesterday! Good cals, good percentages, resistance and cardio

Diva I have no doubt that you will conquer this. Just because you went back doesn't mean you have to STAY back. You have made huge progress. And you will continue to make huge progress. Good luck. You can do this, I just know you can and WILL.
Your ex was mean and hurtful. He sounds like a total and complete D*$K and so unworthy of you. Unfortunately that doesn't change the fact that you are hurting. THis too shall pass. One day he will be a distant memory to you. Right now, it's all fresh in your mind. That won't always be the case. Hang tough, tough lady.

Thursday's calories - about 1100.

Can I adopt you guys as my sisters?

I never had a sister. But man.... you guys would be better than anything my mom and dad could have given me.

Diva - your ex is a jerk! Sounds like he may have been a wee bit jealous? Good for you for dusting yourself off and starting over. I know how hard it is to not run for those cigarettes, they have been your "therapy" for so long.

Yesterday I was at 1245 calories. A little low for me - but I really wasn't that hungry yesterday.

TGIF!! I can't wait for the weekend!!!

Becky, never worry about one low day. It usually balances out with a day someone else does the cooking
What part of Alabama? We vacation with friends near Birmingham.

Diva? family is in your heart, not necessarily in your genes.

Susan - I am in Huntsville which is about 1 1/2 hours North of Birmingham. I am not worried about being too low - I put my meal plan for today into fitday and I am back on track.

We have my nephews b-day party this weekend. My sister is ordering pizza. I am so focused on getting into the 150's by the end of this month that it doesn't even sound appealing to me. I am going to pack a salad to bring with me instead.

Well today wasn't great. Started off okay. Had the worst day I've ever had at school. I was basically accused of plaguirizing something that I wasn't at all... and then failed a test because it was not on the material the teacher taught (although I knew that going in because everyone who has had her before says she is the worst teacher and there is no point in studying because everything you don't learn is what she tests on). So emotional eating and drinking followed suit so well... gotta just start over tomorrow I guess.

My calories for today were 855. So that kinda equals out the bad days this week. I think that now I will meet my goal by next week. I hope so anyways. I probably just jinxed myself but oh well it will happen when the time is right!!

Hello everyone I would like to join in on this site. I belong to one more and ck in daily but two couldn't hurt and will be even more support to reach my goal. I try to stay within 1400 -1500 cals a day. I do the scale at least once a week but should do it two times. It helps me to stay stable and not slip too far away. I have tried it both ways. I don't believe in not having something I want to eat instead I have a portion or add it in to my cals for the day. I figure if I don''t have it then I end up eatting more cals trying to get over my hump of wanting it. Oh we are all so individualized when it comes to weight and loss wish it were easier for all of us to just lose.
I am a young gram and have 3 grown children and 4 grandkids, love to kayak and camp, work in the socialwork field with MR adults, married forever and love to garden, walk and explore the world. My last adventure was last March to Hawaii Maui to visit my son and his wife. Well thats it. I am starting my day off with a 300 cal breakfast. On the weekends I tend to lean more towards the 1500 cals.