Hi DEANNE~ No I didn't send you pics... hmmmm now who did???

Thanx Kim.. for the advice I might just have to do that!! good Idea...

hello???? am I the only one posting.. OMG.. I'm afraid to be alone....

You're not alone.. I'm just slow waking up this morning lol

picture of hubby's mistress...

LOL Well at least you know who he's spending his time with...

Good Morning to all. Well today is a big day for me, i have a job interview hope i do ok. I have a job but need a better paying, and alittle closer to home. worked out last night. But then ate a bowl of cereal. I need to get rid of my night cravings. Any ideas? well hope everyone has a happy friday!

Jessica

I'm a bit frustrated with my scale over the last few days. I've been eating on plan.. no sugar no bad carbs and it's not moving. I know it's that time of month and thats probably whats holding it up, but still.. its very frustrating to be doing everything right (at least i hope) and get no results... my official weigh in is not until monday so hopefully i'll be over the bloat by then.. arrrrrgggghhhhhhhhhhhhh lol

hi jessica..
good luck with the job interview.... ((hugz)).. I save some points for night sneaking ( I mean snacking). I've read not to eat after a certain time, but that isn't going to work for me. I have yogart or fruit, a cereal bar, or a choclate fudge pop at night. Sometimes I make a bag of jiffy pop 94% fat free popcorn and eat the whole bag!!

kim~~could be water weight, I can gain three pounds by just eating salty foods even if i'm on plan. Don't sweat it, do what you are doing. Don't weigh yourself till after aunt flow comes. This way you won't be disappointed.

I have to drive an hour to the doctor for Heather, she goes to a specialist for pediatric urology. She has interstital cystitis with a spastic bladder muscle. She is doing biofeed back there for relaxation as she has constant burning. She has six sessions for the next six weeks. The traveling there is not fun, it is on a windy small parkway. By the time I get there my nail marks are indented in the steering wheel.

Tonight is our annual monthly pokeno game. The excitment of my month. We play with 12 girls and each of us takes a month and host's. We buy a 10 dollar gift wrapped and we play for gifts. It is soo much fun, alil food, alil wine... usually I over eat at these games. Tonight I'm bringing popcorn for the hostess to pop for me and at dessert ill bring blueberries and strawberries.
Have a great friday vixens..
stay healthy
LYNN~~

Hi Everyone! Kim and I just got back from our walk. It is a bit cool and very cloudy here. I wish the sun would come out! I have not been drinking as much water as I need to. I am really going to try to do better today. UGH! I hate water.

Jessica, I wish you the best of luck with the interview. Night time snacking for me is the worst. If I would just go to bed and not stay up it would help. I am a night owl though. I can't help it. I have done good though. I guess it is 'boredom' eating.

Lynn, hope Heathers appointment goes well. And the drive too.

Well, we are finishing out an upstairs room and the AC people are here. Better go for now. I hope you are all a bunch of 'losers' today!

Total pts for the day 25
water four glasses
no exercise~

Hey chicks...Sorry I havent been posting too much lately. Ive just been feeling UGH lately. Anyway, Ill post in a little while. I hope everyone is doing great!

Love,
Deanne

Hi Vixens~

I guess I have been in Deanne's boat--feeling UGH lately. I have been second guessing my ability to stick with a diet. And boy is that super frustrating. Because in actuality I just have to do it for my health, and the fact that I just can't stand the way I look and feel. It's so BLAH! How to get out of a funk? That is the question. Why does this happen? It's such a cycle. I do really well for a week, maybe 2 or 3. Once I even did really well for 3 months straight. Then I start to feel like a failure when I start taking on the bad habits. And I start to question my own ability to stick with eating healthy. And then I get depressed because I think "WHY DO I DO THIS?" Because the irony is that I always feel really bad when I start to fall off the wagon, and not single day goes by when I forget how much I want to look and feel healthy. In fact I constantly think about it. But at the same time, especially when I get really stressed (which has been a reality lately with too much on my plate) I think impulsively too. For some stupid reason, it feels good to eat some foods at the end of a long day and I am feeling too hungry. And darn it, I know part of the problem is the old pattern of letting myself feel too hungry. Hello, what is wrong with this picture?

So I have to reflect on the good things I have done--not beat myself up. I successfully kept drinking diet soda and all my water. I still went to the gym and joined in my water aerobics class. And yesterday when I think about it, I think I did make several good choices (low fat breakfast, lunch, healthy snack). Dinner crept up on me--and bingo I fell off the wagon with a trip to a chinese buffet w/ the kids. Although, I didn't fill up--and left feeling comfortably full. So that actually wasn't all bad. So I am easing my way back to a good pattern. Because darn it, I am worth it! This really is like a bad drug addiction. I own my problem, but finding the road to recovery in healthy eating is extremely difficult when I need my drug of choice to survive. I can't just toss food out the door. I have to retrain and rethink how I will use it to survive.

So that's the scoop ladies....I needed to get that off my chest. Thanks for listening and letting me vent. I really do love this group, and even when I am not posting I think about y'all. I am glad to see that many of you are doing so well. And even if any of you are stumbling (like me), sometimes I think that is the best time to post--because Lord knows we all need to lean on someone somtimes. And who better to lean on then our gal-pal "Curvy Vixens" who are on a similar journey!

I am going to go freshen up and get ready for a beautiful Spring day--the weather is awesome. I am actually headed to an auction. I love to check out auctions every once in a while--it's like a treasure hunt. And I am all about finding a good treasure!

Hope you are having a healthy and happy day!

Hey girls....I wonder if we're all in this "funk". The posts are getting far and few between. Where is everyone??

Karen- Everything that you wrote is everything that I have felt lately. I do great for a while and then bam! Im back where I started. We just really have to get back on track. I seem to do really well during the day. Then, I stay up late at night and eat. Then, the next day I feel terrible. Lets do something about this!!

To everyone else, I miss y'all. Its weird not getting on here and reading about everyones day.

Love,
Deanne

I know, I was wondering where everyone has been lately. I actually had to work for 2 days for an apparently insane person so I've been a bit stressed out myself. I did manage not to let it get to me so much that i broke my diet. I'm still kicking my scale instead of getting onto it. I'm praying that by the next weigh in I'll be down at least a little. I've worked so hard sticking to the strict phase of this diet I'd be so disappointed to not get some tangeable results. I know that it's just been that time of month, but still, why does it have to wreak so much havoc on our bodies?? My 12 year old handles her period better than i do lol.. sad isnt it.. Anyway I know how you all feel with your funk. I've lived thru it for most of my life and all i can say is just ride it out ladies it will get better. If you can keep your head above water and just keep doing your daily activities (i know sometimes you have to make yourself) it will get better. The funk will pass and you will feel better about yourself and your decisions. I know its hard, but I know you are all strong women and you can do it.. **** if i can do it anyone can lol..
Well I hope everyone has a fabulous day..

((HUGZ DEANNE AND KAREN)
I wish I had the answers. If only we could bottle up willpower and sprinkle it on when are willpower starts waning.I went 8 months of totally commiting myself to my plan and shed the weight I wanted. I was so amazed at myself, better yet, hubby couldn't beleive it. This was a girl who went straight to the dessert menu for a main meal and ordered grilled cheese with chili fries for dessert . I ate mountains of food. I was active, was going to nursing school, danced and was in a hiking club, but eating like that sooned caught up to me and I was over 200 pounds in a blink of an eye. I found weight watchers and in 8 months was at goal. I maintained this for years by 'watching' what I ate and giving myself a day off. My 'day offs' became DAY'S OFF. Soon I started bingeing, then I didn't care.
All of us are suspectable to over eating and that makes it hard to stay on a plan. If we were alcoholics we could stay away from bars, parties and such, but we have to eat to live~!
I made the mistake of buying weight watchers friendly foods when I started, but they weren't lynn friendly. I can't have lowfat icecream or baked chips, or anything sweet and gooey in the house. I can't control myself~ I once ate 6 skinney cows, I had thought it was 12 pts but when I added it together it was 15, that is insane!!
All you can do is wake up and get through breakfast, then lunch, then dinner. Take one meal at a time and then it will be day one, day two, etc.

I played cards last night and for the first time in a year I was on plan. I ate popcorn and carrots. The hostess made my fave choclate cake and I had notta peice! I felt bad that she went out of her way for me, but I had to stay on track, I knew if I had one peice that would be it, I'd binge.Have a great day all, the sun is out here and I'm going to enjoy it!!