Hi DeeLee,
I am sorry that you are struggling. It is hard to start back on Phase 1, but once you get going it is fine. I am two months into my reboot and have lost 20 pounds. I am looking to drop 10 more pounds before phasing off. I too, am missing wine!
After my niece's wedding last August- I totally stopped working at maintaining. I had program fatigue and did not handle my slide well. I stopped separating carbs and fats and allowed sugar back into my daily diet. I got my self going again when my pants stopped fitting. I set a date to start and bit the bullet. The first week was miserable. But, I knew from the first time, that I did not perish from starvation, lol. I find that I am motivated by upcoming events so I set a new goal for my June trip to Italy. I really need to remember that the last 10 pounds are incredibly hard to get off, so that I stop myself at a slip!
I hope that knowing you are not alone in this experience helps. Figuring out why you want the weight gone helps too. For me, it is all about the clothes

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