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I know I am my worst critic...I know what I have to do...I just don't know why I do this to myself...during the past months I would go to the store and buy junk...lots and lots (chips, licorice, jelly beans, chocolate...) and eat it all...to the point where I would feel sick and my stomach would hurt...and then a few days later...do it again...of course I would get on the scale and feel disgusted...do IP for a few days and then for some reason the junk would call my name. i cannot just have a bite of junk...not 1 chip, not 1 licorice...if I do...it' s over. My brain says ..well since you had one have all you wnat and start again tomorrow.
It took me some time to come back here. I LOVE this site and I know I have all this great suuport but I think I just did not want it. I just wanted to eat.
Well on this morning I am pledging to myslef and all you Ipeeps that this time if ever I do fall...I will come and talk to you.
I have cried many tears for what I have done to myself in the past months (my health not just the weight) but I know I am worth it, I love myself and I forgive myself.
Thank you for being there for me, Linda
Originally Posted by Loser13
Hello ladies. I haven't been here in some time. On my 10 th day of reboot. I am what you call the Queen of Self Sabbotage. In March I was at 127 pounds...so close....went on vacation...gained a little back...but just could not forgive myself...so I spiraled out of control...now I'm at 155...I was back up to 167 went I started my reboot ten days ago...I know I am my worst critic...I know what I have to do...I just don't know why I do this to myself...during the past months I would go to the store and buy junk...lots and lots (chips, licorice, jelly beans, chocolate...) and eat it all...to the point where I would feel sick and my stomach would hurt...and then a few days later...do it again...of course I would get on the scale and feel disgusted...do IP for a few days and then for some reason the junk would call my name. i cannot just have a bite of junk...not 1 chip, not 1 licorice...if I do...it' s over. My brain says ..well since you had one have all you wnat and start again tomorrow.
It took me some time to come back here. I LOVE this site and I know I have all this great suuport but I think I just did not want it. I just wanted to eat.
Well on this morning I am pledging to myslef and all you Ipeeps that this time if ever I do fall...I will come and talk to you.
I have cried many tears for what I have done to myself in the past months (my health not just the weight) but I know I am worth it, I love myself and I forgive myself.
Thank you for being there for me, Linda
Hi, I have been reading this forum for quite some time. I don't write much but I do read everyone's comments and suggestions and it is very encouraging. Reading your post was like reading my mind. I do the same things. I just finished my second time on IP and in 4 months have gained back 20 pounds. I am so frustrated with myself. I also can't just eat one thing. If I cheat I feel like I have to eat everything in my house that one day and swear I will start again tomorrow. I'm not sure what the solution to this is but I have been back on program since Monday and hopefully, this time around will be able to maintain. I'm thinking maybe my body just can't have fun days. I think if I just completely stay away from the sweets I might be okay. But, I would like to be able to have a fun meal and dessert once in awhile. I'm just glad to see that I am not the only one that feels this way.
We can do this though. I keep repeating to myself a phrase I heard the first time I was on this diet -- NOTHING TASTE AS GOOD AS SKINNY FEELS. This helps me sometimes.
Good luck to you and just remember that the people here are very supportive and are always willing to help with advice and support. Your post has made me pledge to myself that if I do fall again I am going to ask for the help and support of the people on this wonderful forum before I spiral out of control.




I plan on doing the "alternative" IP diet since I really have no budget for the real thing.