Thanks, Leenie, you have no idea how much that means!

Hey thanks guys...Havish that is funny thats probably what your saying about me right?? ok well my teenager needs the puter for homework so i need to get off here type more later!!!

Oh, dear Lord, no! I have so much admiration for you - you have all that other stuff going on, and you still find time to not only offer support and concern to others, but to be totally honest with yourself and us. Do you know how many people can't do that?

I've only been here a few weeks, but I already miss you guys when you don't post...I like to hear how Lost's move is going, and how Vermont's DH's job stuff is going. And how Leenie's company buy out is working out. It reminds me that I'm not alone in this, and that everyone else has problems and that we're all struggling. And coming here makes me feel like with all of you behind me, I can't fail.

So, mom, keep posting....we'd miss you if you weren't around!

Sorry I have been MIA too. I have been reading every day but sometimes posting feel overwhelming to me. Why? Don't know. Just feel boring I guess.

Marbear, looking forward to your post. Sorry you are feeling panicked. When I have a regular mon-fri job I begin to freak a little, or a lot on sunday night. I hope it's nothing more serious than the pre-week jitters.

Havisham, I'm really glad when you post daily. Please don't hold back. I have felt that way before, especially when I was out of work and posting a few times a day but I think we are all excited when we log on and see lots of posts to read.

Leenie, while you're at it, can you clear off my elipticle? It has plenty of clothes on it now. I need to eat at least a little better this week. I've been eating 90% junk and I'm starting to feel really icky from it. It really just zaps your energy and endorphins it seems.

Momof4, sorry I didn't get up the energy to join you the last couple of days. I did read like I said but just couldn't seem to get anything out. Oh, and don't forget your meds this week!

Vermont, did you get any riding in this weekend? My fiance has been riding some this week. Some days have been warmer than others.

Lost, aahh s'mores. Yummy. If you're going to splurge a little that's a good way to do it. I hope your dh's back heals quickly. It is a really bad time for that to happen but it will work out. It always does. I'm just so happy that you have a new place of your own.

Better get to bed girls, good night.

hope- i so love you....reminding me to take my meds..I really miss your post back before i stopped posting i always enjoyed your post cause you pretty much posted ALL the time...but its ok atleast your still reading..it happens..ive been there...youll come out of it I know you will!!

havish-thanks i dont really feel like I get everything right and do what I need to but I guess cause im in the middle of it.

SO GUESS WHAT EVERYONE...I EXCERCISED TONIGHT...lol...my teenager is going thru this stage the last few days since in health class she realized she is in the obese catagory. She is not over eating and tonight is the first night she excercised so I went down with her so she wasnt by herself....I felt good after I was done and came upstairs and it was like i wanted to go out for a run but it was dark and running in the city is cool when its dark or very safe!

so anyways...who knows...right now I am working on getting things organized and schedules straight so I think those things are important in order to eat properly and excercise I have to have a solid schedule!!

Ok well gonna go try and sleep even though im NOT tired...night

good morning chicks sunny and beautiful here but chilly, 30 degrees.

At least for now I am feeling good! And that is big for me, for this time of year (well, from now until almost April!) Using my Happy Light every day, taking my Wellbutrin XL every night, exercising almost every day.

hope4me, I havent been on the bike since ...hmm I forget which day it was, it was at least 3 or 4 days ago. But I do have to wean myself away from it. The inevitable *now is coming!

Havisham, can't remember if I posted it, but DH got ruled in his favor and yes he can collect UI while he is looking for something else. He has kicked around some ... radical ideas and I am trying to be supportive and understanding while still being scared about some of his ideas.

hello to everyone else!

Happy Monday all! I am surrounded by boxes that are calling to me to pack them, and I must get to it.... I have all those s'mores to work off (ummmm.... plus a lot of cheese lasagna ) so I will just jot off a quick note to say Have a really positive NSV and SV day!

Good morning, chickies, also sunny and cool here, but to be honest that's how I like it. I'm one of those strange depressives who LOVES fall. I don't know if it's a fat thing, but I hate being hot - I just find it drains me. So I love fall with it's cool sunny days and cold nights when I can light the fire.

Vermont - that is awesome news! I can relate on the 'ideas' - my DH has that habit, too...after 20 years I've learned the art of appearing interested and still reading my book!

Mom - EXCELLENT news! I bow before you as the thought of exercising is still horror provoking to me right now. I need to find a pool nearby that has actual lane swims - my nearest one gives us three lane widths, but only half lengths - it's ridiculous, you're barely in swing and you have to stop and turn around. I'm also going to start back in to the yoga - I know I always feel better when i do it, and my oldest son has said he'll start with me. Who knows how long that will last, but it's worth a shot!

Hope - thanks for the boost...is it pathetic that I feel all warm and fuzzy!

FINALLY going to get my scales tonight - fingers crossed I'm not waaaay more than i think I am!

So Marbear = lazy. I don't feel like retyping everything - so I'm going to copy and paste from my blog. Well, I shouldn't say I'm lazy. I just have homework and work work to do and too much! Ahh!

Here's my blog drama. Will do personals tomorrow. Promise
:hugs: to all! Sorry I suck!


There are two things that really have just freaked me out this weekend. The first I feel is a valid reason, and the second is… well… because I’m crazy. Friday night we were doing errands and the hubby got a text from his brother. His brother was scheduled to be married in May. Hubby is the best man, I’m the photographer - so, you know, we both have significant roles to play in this process. My goal date to loose 75 lbs was May because I didn’t want to be the fat family member at the wedding. 75lbs from August - May = doable. Well, not so much anymore. The text was informing us that they’re going to have 2 weddings since my future SIL has a brother over seas who can’t make it to the one in May. When will the “new” date be? THE BEGINNING OF JANUARY!!! That removes 5 months from my timeline. There is NO WAY I can loose … what do I have left?… 60Lbs by January!!!! Very not doable! Oh, plus it may be two different dates in January. But they don’t really know which one yet. Nor do they know what will exactly be happening on the first date, but we get to drive to and from Philly (8 hours w/ no traffic) two weekends in a row (Christmas visit & Wedding). If we’re lucky, it will be two weeks apart! Plus, uh - does hubby need to rent two tuxes? One for Jan and one for May? Am I shooting two weddings? I was going to wait until the Christmas visit was over to order any more equipment, so I didn’t spend money I didn’t need to. (We were going to visit the venue and check out if the flash capacity on the pop up was adequate, what the lighting situations are so I could see if I needed a lens with a larger aperture, etc…) But I can’ leave 1 week to order and acclimate myself to new equipment - so I guess I just need to buy it and hope I need it!!! CAN SOMEONE PLEASE TELL ME WHAT THE **** IS GOING ON?? Plus - who has two weddings to the same person without a divorce or 30 years between them?!

Oh. And then the “I’m crazy” part. You know that “guy” everyone has in their past. The only one who still has the ability to totally crawl under your skin and drive you INSANE. You know, the one you’ve always acted like a third grader around, kicking them in the shins and running away from them when they try to talk to you? Yeah. That guy. Well, apparently my friends cousin is friends with him now! And this is the cousin who normally throws the New Years parties we go to! Super! So the chances of me seeing this guy are pretty high now, and thats around the same time as my BIL’s wedding. Great. So if the wedding wasn’t a diet panic attack this is! I’d still love to know why this kid bothers me so much. Hello? Married! Very Happy! Very much do not want this guy seeing me looking less than perfect! Esp with his stupid little fiancee, who so better not me prettier than me.

Why the **** do I care!? I’d really love to know this. I really don’t like him anymore, and I am truly happily married. What the ****??

As for the diet - Yes. I know I’m doing this for me, and progress is progress, and I shouldn’t let it derail me, yada yada. But realistically, I’m not going off plan. I’m just going to go f’ing crazy to see if I can loose at LEAST 22lbs by the end of the year. This is going to get - well - insane to say the least. Here are the changes I’m making, and I’m extending/ revamping my challenge until the end of December.

Old Challenge (until Thanksgiving): Under 1650 calories/ day, 10 days where I can eat calories back, 150 min exercise a week.

New challenge (until the end of December): Under 1600/ day, 3 days where I can eat calories back, 4 days of lifting a week (at least 180 minutes) and at least 210 minutes of cardio a week. And I’m switching my “weekly start date” to Monday.

I’m going to ask my PT to get me back into a running program today. (I’ll ask today, I don’t expect to be back into a program by today Though, that WOULD be nice…) I was debating starting like P90 or ChaLEAn Extreme - but I don’t have 3 months before the wedding, so that would be setting myself to not finish it. I’m thinking that I can do one of those at the start of the new year as a “change up” as I feel I’m going to be a little burned from my current plan by then.

DAH!

On that note, we did have a nice weekend. Dim Sum was fun and we spent the night at hubby’s sister’s house in CT.

Weigh in today: 213 (water from sodium. Dim Sum = a wee bit high in sodium.)

Dude, I’m so going to kcik a$$ for the next two months.

Marbear, you can totally, totally do at least 22lbs by the end of the year. You've already done so well, and I know you can do this, too. We are all rooting for you!!!!!

Sorry I'm posting late.. boy things are nuts around here LOL

Have I told you lately how much I love you all I really do.

Have a great evening chickies....

Leenie

Marbear, I completely understand. There are a couple of people I would avoid seeing ( or them seeing me) at all costs. I do not want these people, wouldn't take them on a silver platter, but the thought of them seeing me looking like this turns my stomach. I actually have nightmares about it. Often. Crazy isn't it. Sorry you are being put in this position. It would freak me out too. Things are usually worse than we imagine them to be however.

Good luck on your new goals. I know you can do it!

Oh good luck Marbear, I do understand. I would rather die than bump into an ex-boyfriend who dumped me years ago for being too fat - when I was way slimmer than now! And I am so glad I never ended up with him, I have a lovely family now. So relax, I reckon it's nothing too unusual.

I would run as fast as I could in the opposite direction if I ever saw him coming down the road towards me!

Do your best to get to your mini-goals and goals. You've done well so far, keep going

Morning Ladies...

Hope everyone is doing ok...

hugs

good morning everyone

marbear, oh my gosh...wow. I am sorry to hear what a shake-up those new wedding plans are! So it is just assumed that you will be shooting both weddings? and all that driving, and your WL plans given a huge hurry-up...well all I can do is say we have faith in your ability to step up your goals

momof4, yay to you and your daughter working out together do you have equipment downstairs?

hello to everyone else today is my Friday, woohoo! and it's already 42 degrees here, s'posed to get to 50-55, so I hope to ride m'cycle to work.

have a great day chicks