Jennifer - thanks for the good vibes because I got on the scale and there is a lot of daylight to the left of 175! Woo hoo! I'm probably between 171 & 172 but I didn't just stand there and stare at the lines. I prefer to just wait until I see that its 170 straight up and down (or I'd settle even for a smidget to the right of it!).

My birthday is August 8th and I'm pretty psyched about the possibility of leaving the 170's behind by then. Enter the new year on a high note, you know?
Did a little soul searching today...
My eating was pretty light today, mainly because I was so stressed at work. I was busy work wise, but also upset because a budding friendship that I thought I had I found out is not meant to be. I was a huge misjudge (a word?) of her character. It upset me because there are so many cliques at work and she is not a part of one either and its hard to make really meaningful contacts / work friendships where I work. So it was a little depressing. The huge lesson for me is that it is not important the NUMBER of friends you have, but the QUALITY of those friendships. I don't have a large circle of friends that I always hang out with or go shopping with or anything like that. But I do have long-lasting friends (one of my best friends I've been friends with for over 20 years but she is long distance). And I have a few really good friends that I can talk to about anything, even though we are not the hang out kind of friends. We have been there for each other through thick and thin and I'm confident that we will always be. So I questioned myself, I know that I'm blessed with good friends, so why did I extend myself to this person at work even when I saw red flags? Am I that desperate? How pathetic is this but I think the only answer is that basically I'm lonely.
There is an article in this month's Prevention magazine about overcoming emotional eating. They suggest that you apply the People Solution, which is basically turning to people as your support system instead of turning to food for comfort. "Why you overeat: Emotional eating is only a symptom. The true source of your weight challenge stems from a hurtful void or emptiness in your life. It stems from a hungry heart. In the past, when you overate when you were not hungry, food helped fill a void or numb a pain. Food made you feel supported and comforted."
What makes me feel that void? To be honest, its my husband working a lot of hours and not having the run-around-with type of girlfriends in my life. So my goal is to no longer use food as a temporary pain reliever. A shift has got to occur deep within me to turn to other sources like to actually call my friends when I'm feeling that loneliness instead of planning what will be the perfect time to eat a piece of pie, which sadly I have done - timed the eating of said pie at the exact time in the evening when I was bound to start feeling lonely! So that's one alternative - make a phone call. The other thing - and this is where you guys come in as part of my People Solution - come to 3FC's!!! So I say all of that to say that I'm so very glad that you all are here! But the bottom line for me is that until I get a handle on the emotional eating no "diet" (which I'm glad to say I'm not on) will ever work. The emotional part will still be there waiting for me.
Sorry this is so long! I'll probably be back later because it seems like I had some other revelation today that right now I'm just not remembering.

Michelle


Well, I don't know what's gotten into me. I'm like a chickie possessed
I had committed myself to the bike when I got home from work. Well, once again, it was POURING when I was leaving the office. Mad dash to the car, I was still soaking wet, got to be damp for the entire ride home, which took 3x the normal amount of time because roads were flooded, and frankly, the blue-haired old people who live in this god-forsaken state can't drive if a drop of rain hits their windshield. Needless to say, I had some frustration to get out.
16 oz. before I left home
I have officially declared Wednesday nights around here to be "Family Night", so no 3FC or TV or anything but spending quality time together on Wednesdays!