My appointment today went well. I was bummed because the altrasound was broken so I haveta wait another week to see the baby. But they were able to hear the heartbeat and they were surprised because they normally can't hear the heartbeat at 10 weeks. So that, plus the measurments of the uterus told the Dr. that I'm more like 16 weeks than 10...which is crazy!

I told my father and he seemed supportive of the idea of adoption and understands that babies are a big and hard responsibility.

On the down side my mother-in-law is very, very against adoption. Not that it will change anything. If she want's the baby she can adopt it, but I'm not going to put myself and my DF in a unstable place by not having enough $ to pay bills. I just bought this house, I'm not moving in with my dad. And I'm not pawing my baby on friends who have their own life, work the same shift i do...and might up and move/no longer be friends at any moment. I want my baby to have a stable and secure household and I can't offer that.

I've decided to go ahead and tell people that I'm pregnant and yes I am excited about it even if I'm placing my baby for adoption. I feel I'm be responsible in doing this and keeping this baby would only be greedy on my part. This is no longer about me but about my baby. He or she will be in a family where the parents have been waiting and wanting them, where they don't worry about bills, where he or she will have a parent raising them and not a stranger where they don't worry if they will have water or electricity next month. I can't offer any of this, and this is not good enough for my baby. People don't have to understand, it's not their baby, it's mine and I care about the quality of life he or she has.

ugh...drama
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Keller237-Well done with the weight control! I'm going to try and keep my weight stable. I lost one pound from my last appointment 4 weeks ago. Are you eating the same as before?

I'm back to drinking straight water again. the Dr. told me I need to drink a gallon a day. @.@ When i was dieting this was pretty easy to reach. but my stomach's been squashed upward and I can't eat/drink as much. I'll have to sip all day long...meaning I'll be peeing all day long...which I guess is expected to happpen anyway lol

Sakai- I'm a tad embarrased to say this, but my eating habits have gotten horrible. I've probably had fast food almost every day in the past week. Some of its salads, and "skinny" tacos and stuff like that but french fries have been my weakness. But I still did sit-ups and walked for the first almost 15 weeks, almost everyday, so it evened out. Being sick the first three months(and it decided to come back after a 3 week break) doesn't help but carbs is really all I can handle without throwing up. Doc said not to do sit ups anymore. something about it could tear something now that my uterus is bigger, and the headaches are keeping me from working out.

Also, I'm glad you have support with your adoption choice. Have you looked into families yet? Are you doing in state, or does it matter? Open, closed? Just wondering on what you've looked into. You are strong, and knowing you can't provide for your child and doing something about it beforehand is very impressive. I figure we don't have all the money in the world, but we do both have lagre supportive families who will help us. If not, adoption would also be my choice.

Hi ladies, sorry I've been MIA. Everything is ok, just lots going on. My therapist recommended that I start taking antidepressants, and I agree. On two tests I've taken my depression is rated as "severe." I don't love the idea of taking antidepressants while I'm pregnant, but it seems the lesser of the two evils at this point. I'm reading more and more studies about how depression can adversely effect an unborn baby. So, I have an appointment with my OB tomorrow to get things squared away. Hopefully I won't have such a hard time getting out of bed and changing the batteries in my thermostat won't reduce me to tears (true story.) I'm looking forward to looking forward to life again, if that makes any sense.

Keller - My body pillow is a permanent loan from a friend (she's done having babies, but reserves the right to ask for it back just in case.) Unfortunately, though, your sister is right about the price. They run about $80. Might be worth it though if you can get a good night's sleep. :) ETA: I just looked them up on Amazon and this is the one I have: http://tinyurl.com/7kxwa83 and it's only $60 there.

About the sore nipples, I had that with my first one. The Lansinoh nipple cream is the best stuff I've found, better than any other brand I've tried. I got it a little with my second, but since my babies are all so close together I still had the callouses from breastfeeding my first so it didn't hurt as bad. I'm hoping that's the case with this one, too!

Had a midwife appointment this morning, and I asked about my weight gain. She said I was "a bit ahead" of where they'd like to see me, and asked me to go through my daily diet, so I did. She said she understands my frustrations, because I am "doing everything right" (her words, not mine), but that probably I need to reduce my carbs in order to keep my gain on track.

I am eating 2000 cals a day and walking 4-7 miles, plus weight training 2x a week. I should not have gained 11 lbs in 16 weeks!

So the new move toward reducing carbs starts today. Grrr.

Saki - I am glad you had a good appointment and got to hear the baby's HB. It is so amazing hearing it for the first time :) I Had a midwife appointment on Mon. but decided not to try to hear the baby's HB because I didn't want to get anxious if we couldn't hear it (we couldn't hear my sons at 13 weeks) Plus I saw it at the ultrasound the Wed before. We will have a listen at my next apt in 4 weeks :)

I have a very good friend who put her baby up for adoption a few years ago. I went through the whole pregnancy with her and was at the baby's birth and got to be at the hospital when the parents came to meet their baby for the first time. My friend got to choose who the parents for her baby would be and got to meet and interview them before hand. It was an open adoption and for the first few years after they would send photos and updates about the baby. It was emotional for my friend but she knew she could not provide for her baby at the time nor did she want to be a parent. She has never regretted giving her baby a home she couldn't give herself even though it was hard at the time. It was an amazing experience watching the adoptive parents meet their baby and hold her for the first time. It was pure joy on their faces and they were so thankful to my friend. We all cried and took pictures and smiled.

Keller- I am glad you had a great appointment! My DS always measured a bit big and still does to this day! He is always in the 90-95 percentile in heaight and weight.

Gale- I am sorry about your depression and that you may have to go on antidepressants but you are right sometimes you need to weigh out the risks and if you need the meds then that is what is best for you and baby. I too have dealt with depression/anxiety my whole life and I feel like it is creeping up on me again :( I also am sensitive to SAD.

Mandalinn- That is frustrating about your weight gain even though you are eating well and exercising. Not fair!

My eating has been horrible and I am so down about it. The nausea is really getting to me and I can only seem to eat crap and fruit (which is good) I can't exercise besides little walks and I feel so useless and blah. I want to get back on my eating plan and I want to have the energy to exercise. I had a midwife appointment on Mon. mostly blood work and such but she said my uterus was perfect :) Also that the ultrasound on Wed was great and everything looked good. Oh and I discussed my desire to have a VBA2C and my midwife said I could totally do it but that the best way to get a vaginal delivery is to grow a smaller baby then my DS (he was 9lbs 12 oz) and to get labour to spontaneously happen before 40 weeks. my midwife said that once the nausea is gone that I need to be really strict with my diet and to exercise every day and then at 36/37 weeks we will do everything we can to encourage natural labour like acupuncture, meditation, EPO, etc.

Just went to the dentist to have a filling. At my last checkup, when they found the cavity, they said it was small. But of course couldn't do any x-rays. Got to filling it today, and it was about 4 times bigger and deeper than expected. I thought they were gonna drill into my BRAIN. Got it filled, but said it may be in the pulp.

After appointments I'm numb for hours. So I'm STARVING because I missed a snack this afternoon and can't eat 'til I can feel my face. Oh, and then there's the fact that if they had to get into the pulp I'll have intense pain at some point soon, and a root canal without sedation (which I require for major procedures), painkillers or even gas. Lovely.

I'm terrified of the dentist.

Mindi- My dentist will do an x-ray as long as you are passed the first trimester. I also just had one filled earlier this week, it was small like they said, but it was in my wisdom tooth so it hurt horribly =[ My dentist also does anestecia(sp?) and sedation when pregnant, again though, as long as you are out of the first trimester. Is it that your dentist won't do it at all? Have you asked?

Gale- I found a cheaper one at the walmart website. Instead of being a horseshoe, its the shape of a C. I'm gonna try that out. It had good reviews so i'm hoping it works as awesome as it sounds.

Butterfly- How old is your DS now? I'm just scared they keep telling me baby is bigger because I wanna do birth without epidural, and a big baby coming out just doesn't seem fun(Not that a small baby does either, but smaller seems better.)

Mandalinn- Glad your appointment went well =] Sucks about the weight, just keep doing everything you can.

My nurse just called me with the results of the 4 quad defect test. No defects were found =]

Keller - I've heard (but have no experience , mine were both 6.5 lbs) that bigger babies aren't necessarily more painful to birth. Their head size is still relatively the same. And really, all in all, it hurts like nothing else... unless you have pelvic issues that make it harder for the baby to pass through the birth canal, I wonder if you can tell small-ish variations in degrees of pain when it's that off the charts. Personally, I'm an epidural girl. ;) My last labor with a good epi was a pretty pleasant experience. The one before that, no epi, not so much. But, I also believe to each their own. :)

ETA: I just remembered that although my boys were small (like I said, 6.5lbs each) their heads were both in the 95th percentile. So maybe I do know what it feels like to birth a giant head, hahaha! :lol:

Keller, I haven't asked yet, just because I'm hoping the root canal doesn't have to happen!! :) I will if it does, though. Right now still numb from my eye to my jaw. It's getting worse instead of better. Starving and can't eat!

Keller237- Don't worry. I ate hoprrible for the first two weeks after I found out I was pregnant Because then I knew I had to eat something. (at the time I was only eating fruit because I was a veggitarian and the veggies made my morning sickness worse and I wasn't feeling up to carbs)
I'm eatting a bit better now. Still eatting meat and real milk. I know a healthy baby is possible on a veggitarian diet but I just don't have the ability with the stress right now to keep track of everything I need to.
I am thinking of a open adoption. I do want to pick the family and it makes me smile thinking about how happy they will be.

I am worried if I am 16 weeks and not 10...If I am 16 weeks then I did drink when I was pregnant..twice and once was really heavy drinking and I did get a x-ray at the dentist.

At the moment I'm dead set on not getting a epidural. The pain would have to be so bad that the threat of permanet spinal cord damage would no longer scare me...or the threat of the needle in the back. I can't handle needles. I refused a Flu shot at my first appointment and I nearly jumped off the table when they came to draw blood for all the tests. I never used to be so scared of needles. I was much better with them when I was younger but right now I would do anything to keep from getting them. I guess when the time comes we'll find out if i demand pain meds.

Right now I HAVE to exercise to some degree. I eat terrible on my weekends. On my work week I eat fine and i'm up and active for 9 hours. but on the weekend I nap on the sofa all day long and eat all the time. I must stop this. Even if it's just getting out and walking for a bit, something is better than it is right now.

Spent half the night last night throwing up, and the other half tossing and turning uncomfortably. Needless to say, i'm extremely tired and still need to do dishes and pick up the apartment.

Eating today has been **** and again with the carbs, the only thing I could keep down was a double cheesburger. Bleck. I'm so sick of eating bad but everything else makes me sick.

Throwing my dad a surprise birthday party this weekend, and because it's at my place, I get all the joys of setting up, hosting and cleaning up for over 100 people. This shall be fun. Also, family from another state is coming in and they have no clue i'm pregnant so this should be fun always being the baby of the family to being a grown woman.

Sakai- I understand your fear with the drinking. I was sooo worried about it until I had my ultrasound and found I actually concieved three days after I had thought, which the whole week before I was on a drinking spree celebrating friends birthdays, trashed every night. My doctor said as long as it wasn't more than one or two nights, it's still a low chance of having any alcohol related defects. And X-Rays aren't to bad as long as they have the apron on, i believe it's lead? and there can be no harm done if it was covering your abdomen.

Gale- Mine already has a big head lol Me and my boyfriend both have large heads, and the head was measuring bigger also. Ha. If I get an epidural, fine. I just want to try to do it without it. It depends on the pain. I thought about a water birth because our hospital has whirlpool tubs which I think would be a great relief for pain.

Just wanted to say "hi", am a newly preggo mama due August 3rd. This is my second baby. First one after losing 80lbs, though, should be interesting.

Oh my gosh my weight is out of control! I'm NOT eating too much....It's a habit, so I still count calories. In fact, I'm worried I'm not eating ENOUGH for being in my second trimester!! This morning, I hit the 16 pound mark! That's a pound for every week I've been pregnant for NO REASON! Coming into this I didn't have any problems....I maintained my weight of 140 pounds with 1,800 calories a day without an issue. I'm only eating 1,900 now. And gaining like crazy. 5 pounds this week alone.

My doctor wasn't worried at my last visit, but I go again in a couple of weeks. I'm going to make him listen to me. There's a huge family history of diabetes in my family, and I'm seriously worried now about gestational diabetes with the rate at which I'm gaining. :(

So today a coworker up on a ladder watched me walk by and went...
"Are you preggo?" (which always makes me think of pasta sauce.)
For one I was like 'crap I look like I'm pregnant.' another part of me was like 'Yay! I look like I'm pregnant and not fat!'
Two seconds later she was like...."that's a awkward question to ask someone.."
I guess she has a blurting problem lol.

My ultrasound is wednesday at 11:30 am - this is a bit of a issue...it's smack in the middle of my sleep. if it was much eairlier or much later then it wouldn't be so much of a problem, but it's almost right in the middle of the "Night" for me. The good news is that I'm off work tuesday so I won't be so tired that I can't stay up on wednesday morning. But I'll loose 4 hours or so of sleep I really, really need. I'm thinking of taking a personal day off...not sure if they will let me at work. But I'm thinking of saving it (I only have 3) for the OB appointment I have on a friday and 3:30 in the afternoon. (the only time they had open)
It really sucks to be pregnant on the night shift >.<

Also my back is starting to KILL me. I almost had to stop working last night because I just couldn't move. I took some painkillers (pregnancy legal) and it helped take the edge off. but it still terrified me that I won't be able to work much longer.

Glad to see everyone is doing well aside from the headaches, nausea, vomiting and backaches :)

As for me I think I am developing gestational diabetes already :( My eating has been pretty bad the last few weeks and very high in carbs which has been what I can keep down and actually want to eat. Anyway I have been testing my blood sugars randomly and my fasting have been fine but last week I got a few higher readings 2 hours after eating pretty high carb meals. I am upset by this but know the steps I need to take in trying to control it. I am taking heart that my blood sugars were not high during the critical development times (5-8weeks) but I still worry. I am going to start tracking my food intake again starting today and am really trying to eat low carb. I started taking a b-complex which is supposed to help with the nausea and your body breaking down carbs so I am hoping this will help.

Last night I had a hard time falling back asleep because I have been worried about the baby. I do feel the occasional flutter and bump but it is not daily yet or with any consistency so when i don't feel anything for awhile I start to get nervous. I can not wait till movement is stronger and more consistent. Using my mantra a lot these past few days and really trying to stay positive. :dizzy:

Hope everyone has a great week. Looking forward to your update Sakai after your ultrasound.

I'm still feeling no movement...I want something to MOVE already!!!

First off, :wave: to FattymcFatty (although even typing your username makes me sad! From now on, I'll refer to you as MamaMcPreggo!). Where in NorCal are you?

Mindi - as much as I hate it, cutting the carbs back really moderated my weight gain, at least so far. And I'm not nearly as hungry! I'm trying to only eat starches at meals, in moderate amounts, and keep my snacks and breakfast protein-heavy. I feel your pain, though...before I started watching what I was doing with the protein/carb balance, I was up 13 lbs in the same amount of time you have.

Sakai - I'm convinced I still look just fat. There's a "bump" that I can see, but I've seen enough non-pregnant bodies with fat in the same place my bump is that I don't think it can possibly be that obvious to anyone who doesn't know. I can't imagine being on the night shift...hang in there!

Butterfly - sometimes if you don't eat ENOUGH, your blood sugar can get wonky. That doesn't mean that in the second trimester, when you can eat a little more and you have less aversion going on, your sugars will still be abnormal. So just do the best you can!

As for me, I'm going to a 2D ultrasound at one of those 3D/4D centers tomorrow to try to get a gender. Normally I'd wait for my 20 week, but we REALLY wanted to do some sort of cute gender announcement to the grandparents on Christmas, which means we need to know BEFORE then, and I couldn't get in for that 20 week anatomy scan until Jan 3. So we're hoping to find out tomorrow whether we have a boy or a girl in there.

Spent this past weekend at my FIL's house...they just had twins via surrogate, so I got my fill of baby cuddles (and diaper changing practice!). OK, it's a little strange that my kid's aunt and uncle will be only 7 months older, BUT we got SO MANY HAND ME DOWNS. All of their newborn clothes, a perfect swing, a completely unused 350 dollar breast pump...so there are perks!

Mandalinn- I'm a tad jealous if you can find out the gender tomorrow. My appointment is also on Jan 3rd, in my 23rd week. I'm so anxious. I just want to go shopping already! Originally I was going to send out christmas cards announcing the pregnancy, but they couldn't get me in before christmas either :(

Mindi- I've only felt baby move twice and i'm 18 1/2 weeks. Once in my 15th week during a super scary part in a moving, I think I startled baby by my heart beating extra fast and me jumping and screaming. And once when I was sleeping in my 17th week. I wish I had movement too! I know there's a heartbeat but I'm always just so nervous and baby moving would make me feel SOOOO much better.

Fatty- Welcome =] My best friend is due on August 3rd as well. When do you get your first ultrasound?

Sakai- Can't wait to hear about the ultrasound. Soo exciting!

My stomach is officially hard all the time, and you can see a little "bump" versus my fat. I think I just look fat but people keep telling me it's rounder. Headaches haven't been too bad this week. I also figured out when I take my prenatals at night, or right after I've eaten, it's much less likely to give me afternoon/evening sickness or headaches. Have been super hungry this week though, I feel like i could eat out a whole grocery store. I've also slept really well for the past couple nights. I think it's been because I was soo exhausted but it was well needed.

The surprise party for my dad went well. I haven't seen him so happy in such a long time. My family wasn't pushy on me, surprisingly, rather supportive and happy for me. They weren't too happy when they found out last year so I figured it wouldn't be much better this time around.

It should be far enough along that we can tell, it's just a question of whether the little munchkin gets into position. It's 65 dollars for the 2D package, but we're OK throwing some money at this problem to get an answer!

I have a gigantic headache and have for two days. I think it's my shoulder and neck acting up and shooting up into my head. The 8 hour roadtrip, each way, did a number on me.

Good luck on the ultrasound Amanda!!! Hope that little one cooperates!

I'm just weighing myself once a week now. This up and down every day was driving me nuts. From Monday last week to Monday this week I had no change at all in my weight. So I'm sticking with that. Not worried about it just yet, since I've gained so much so far. Just gonna keep adding some calories in (healthy calories of course) and see what the doctor says next week.

My stomach is harder at night. Actually, in the morning I'm nearly as flat as before I got pregnant (just a little wider!). At night, I've got a definite bump going, and I can put my hands on either side of it and it feels hard. Guess I'm just preggo at night!

So we did have a cooperative little... BOY!

I'm thrilled. I had a feeling all along that the baby would be a he, but there was NO mistaking it on the ultrasound. Everything looked good, heartbeat was fabulous, and we got lots of pictures (including a few previews in 3D).

Mandalinn- so excited for you! Glad you could find out the gender and that he's healthy.

Its 330 am. I can't get comfy for some odd reason tonight, have a horrible backache and feel like throwing up. I've also got a cold and horrid cough now and am getting sicker so its hard to breathe when laying. How I love 12 degree weather... not.

Tis gonna be a long day.

Congrats on finding out its a Boy :). Ive been reading threw your ladies post but not part of this group I am due in the Winter Feb. but it gets kinda boring over in the weight check in lol. Looking forward to you other ladies finding out what you are having its coming soon for you guys. I have around 7 to 10 weeks before I met my little man I cant wait :carrot:

Hey Ky! Congrats!


I'm getting punished for my relatively easy first trimester with some crazy symptoms now! First, the headaches have escalated and are now maybe happening twice as much. Second, I have this rash on my calves that randomly appears and itches like my skin is on fire...no idea what that is about. Third, it appears the loosening of the pelvic joints has caused either sciatica (not as likely this early) or pelvic girdle pain, which hurts right under my left glute. I'm a little uncomfortable this week!

Mandalinn - Congrats on the boy!!! Boys are fun, I love being a mama to my sweet boy :) Sorry about the crazy headache, rash and sciatica.

Keller- Having a cold when pregnant really sucks :( Sending you healing vibes.

Sakai- thinking of you today and having your ultrasound.

As for me my nausea is a little less then it has been which is good. Been getting the odd mild headache but not too bad. Also my blood sugars have not been pretty good this week so I am feeling a bit better about that. Waiting to hear back from the midwife clinic about when my next apt will be, supposed to be in 3 weeks but I guess it may be in the new year. Oh and I have been feeling much more flutters and bumps the last 2 days :D

Ok wishing everyone a happy healthy symptom free week :) Hopefully we will all be feeling our little ones a lot more in the next few weeks!

Mandalinn82- Congrats on having a boy! What cute way are you gonna announce it?

As for me....My appointment got moved to NEXT wednesday. Arg!! i don't wann wait any longer!!!
The good news is that because it was pushed back a week my DF and I were able to take the day off so we won't be dead at work that night. (bad news is that my manager wants us to work on one of our days off to make up for it. I'm NOT looking forward to a 6 day work week when I can just pull 5) Df grumbled but agreed to work an extra day and I said I would if my body let me. so we'll see if my manager understands.

Feeling lots of twinges and pains in strange places on my belly now. Not sure what it is. sleep is getting hard as I will get this MASSIVE pain on my back by my right kidney if I'm not sleeping on my left side. WTF is going on with that @.@ then I'm hot, then cold, dying of heat, freezing my buns off...
I will never have normal sleepp again -.-

also...Dear Mother-in-law let it slip on my facebook page about my being pregnant and my wall expolded with people demanding to know if it was true, when i was due and 'So Happy's' and 'congrats!' ect...ect....
I don't think she ment to do it. But DF thinks she did because she is very...very against the addoption.
So now I have to figure out how I'm going to tell all these people my plans...or if I should have to let them in on my buisness. I want to be firm but not *****y as I've already had two coworkers trying their hardest to talk me out of it and I don't want friends and family doing the same.

Sakai - wow, to me that is a total invasion of your privacy. Sorry that it got revealed before you were ready. If your MIL was trying to somehow interfere with your adoption plans by posting, the best way to sort of take that power back would be to respond to the FB well-wishers with a note that says "Thanks, we are planning on finding a family who can adopt this child". That way, you take the control over your plans back. But I totally understand if you're not ready to do that. Tough position!

We got cute little coffee mugs for people that say things like "My Grandson Loves Me" and "My Nephew Loves His Aunt Alicia", and we're wrapping them up and giving them for Christmas. They're nice heavy white mugs with baby blue interiors. I may fill them with some kind of "It's a boy" type candy, or even homemade candy, before I wrap them up.

My appointment is on Wednesday next week too, Sakai! I can't wait...but DH probably won't be able to go with me, unfortunately. :( Gonna go it alone. And hopefully schedule my 18 week ultrasound for sometime between the 19th and 23rd!

Cute Christmas reveal ideas, Amanda!!

Mindi- That sucks he can't make it. I feel you there though, i've beeb to all of my appointments alone so far. I tell him he's welcome to go anytime but he works two jobs and is always tired and sleeps when he can. He will be going to the anatomy ultrasound and i'm pysched about that =]

Manda- Super cute idea. LOVE it!

Sakai- Sorry about your appointment getting pushed back, but baby will be a week bigger next week, thats always what helped me wait it out. Sorry about your mother-in-law announcing your pregnancy. I agree with Manda- Take the control back by saying something about adoption. If not, not saying anything is another option until you're ready. Don't let anybody talk you into changing your mind, Make the best decision for you, the dad and baby. You guys know what's best for your child.

Made it to the gym yesterday. Got a mile and a half and weights.

Today was a VERY BAD day. My soon to be mother in law tried to commit suicide because she's super depressed. Cops found and stopped her in the process. Something so stressful that none of us need to deal with at this point. She's getting help and in the hospital. One of the younger sons moved in with us until babys here, then he'll be old enough to get his own place, the other will be staying with us until she's out and better. Nobody knows how long that will be so we just gotta deal with it. They say it gets worse before its gets better but everything lately just seems downhill with our families.

26 days! I'm counting down til my next ultrasound lol

Keller, just remember to BREATHE through the stress! Sorry you're going through all that, and hope your MIL-to-be gets the help she needs!

DH got to go to one doctor's appointment with me, but had to be back at work before the sonogram. He hasn't seen the baby on the sono in person OR heard the heartbeat yet!! :( I really hope he can make the Christmas ultrasound...

Keller- egads, that's rough for you to have to deal with right now. But at least things turned out okay and your MIL is getting what she needs.

Mandalinn- Cute! I love that idea!

MindiV- True. And if I'm as far as my Dr. thinks I am then they might be able to tell me the sex of the baby. we'll both have news here next wednesday ^.^

Would anyone happen to know if it's okay to take melatonin to help get to sleep? we asked at the dr. office and they didn't really know. We looked it up online and it was 50-50..some said yes, some said no.
I really need to get some sleep, it's stupid how horrible my sleep has been. the past two nights I've taken a 1.5 mg melatonin(sp) and it's helped me get into that deeper sleep that I haven't been able to get to for the past two months. I don't feel drowsy or anything like that when I wake up. really it wears off about halfway through the night when I have to get up to go to the bathroom.

Thanks! Sorry you are having a rough time. I had a scare Thursday started having contractions had to go to docs office and be hooked up to montiors and indeed I was so he checked me I wasnt pregressing which is good i was only 30 weeks at the time he sent me home to rest and drink tons of water they stopped after downing a ton of water must of been dehydrated even thou I drink 10 to 12 cups of water a day he now wants me drinking more water uhhhhh. So ladies make sure you drink up your water everyday.

This is from mayoclinic.com: Pregnancy and Breastfeeding Melatonin supplementation should be avoided in women who are pregnant or attempting to become pregnant, based on possible hormonal effects. High levels of melatonin during pregnancy may increase the risk of developmental disorders. In animal studies, melatonin was detected in breast milk and therefore should be avoided during breastfeeding. In men, decreased sperm motility and decreased sperm count are reported with the use of melatonin.

Some Doctors say it's ok though, so I don't know. :dunno:

I'm getting REALLY frustrated with my family. It's like nobody remembers or cares that I'm pregnant. On my side of the family, I've had literally ONE of nine close family members, who I see regularly, even bother to ASK how the baby and I are doing since I told them I was pregnant months ago. My dad hasn't asked once, and neither has my sister, brother, his wife or two of their three kids. On DH's side, his sister is the only one who cares. Even DH acts like nothing's going on.

It's just really frustrating. Or I'm really emotional today.

But literally, here in town, I have total strangers who've heard I'm pregnant come up and ask me how I'm doing, how the baby is, if we know the gender, when I'm due...several of them are genuinely excited that I'm pregnant.

But my own family? Not at all. :(

Mindiv- that can be hard. I assume it because your not showing as much yet? so it not really real to them? Not sure why family or DH for that matter wouldn't at least ask how the pregnacy is going.

Gale- yeah we read that too. I decided to only take it when I'm really falling behind in my sleep. ^.^ maybe once or twice a week.

(long story)
So I had my first major hormonal (sp) meltdown yesterday. I was at work eatting lunch and messing with my phone when I suddenly notice that I have a voice mail from who knows when. Well I it was my grandmother asking me to call her but she sounded so sad. most likely she was just tried or not feeling well or unsure what to say on the voice mail but to me it sounded like she was lonely and dissapointed that I didn't pick up the phone.
So I burst into tears,...in the middle of the break room in front of half my coworkers. DF (freaking out that the voice mail was bad news) Snatched me and lead me (blind with tears) out into the hallway where I could bawl on his shoulder with a bit more privacy.

he called down once he realized that nothing was really wrong and that it was just my emotions going nuts. Of course during this time when I was weepingly trying to explain my feelings, it was luch time for the OTHER half of my coworkers. so they were all clocking out in the same hall and seeing us down at the other end and THEY started worrying.

So THEN comes the Co-manager and nearly pulls us into his office and says to stay there until we could deal with our problem and take our time and let him know if he could help (he knew i was pregnent) he wanted us to have some privacy.

@.@ normally I would of just felt bad for missing the call but last night it was the most depressing thing I ever heard and i just couldn't stop the tears.

at the end of the day I get home and wait for 8 in the morning and call my grandmother. She sounded fine and said she left a voice mail around thanksgiving. And that it was spooky that it just showed up on my pphone last night. So she was fine.
So since I had her on the phone i told her about being pregnant because it got out of facebook and I didn't want another family member to tell her before I could explain myself. So i told her about needing the ultrasound before wanting to tell but that DF mother leaked it out and i'm not sure how far along I am yet and about the adoption.

I gave her my reasons and she seemed to understand but didn't want the baby to leave the family and said she would take the baby. but would talk about it more after my ultra-spound on wednesday
@.@
Now I respect my grandmother and it was hard to tell her that I'm not comfortable with that. But I'll let her know on wednesday. She's getting up there in years (really I have no idea but she must be into her 80's) She's retiring from work in a few months and she'll have the time to be with baby but kids are hard...teenagers are hard, and what if something happens and she can't take care of baby anymore, what will happen then? I don't want this baby passed around from one family member to another knowing that it's parents are right here but can't/won't take them.
I want my baby to have both a mother and father, and they are juat waiting for someone to pick them to be parents. I don't want my grandmother to take this sort of responsibility in her advanced years it dosn't seem fair to her or to the baby.

DF is sure that family on both sides are trying to guilt trip us into keeping this baby. He feels they should just accept it as our choice and not butt in. I tell him that it's hard for them because this isn't a normal thing for people to do (giving up their baby) and it's his mother's first grandbaby and my grandmothers great-grandbaby (though not her first) and it's hard for them to think that someone is gonna take the baby away when it's born.

Sometimes I wish I just kept this whole pregnant thing a secret. -.-

Mindi- Sorry about your family not supporting you. This is a tough time to not have support. I agree that maybe once you get bigger they'll be more into it. My parent didn't even acknowledge I was pregnant until last weekend when somebody asked my dad how many grandchildren he has. I hope you get support from your family soon. If not, you still have all of us ladies :]

Sakai- My ob-gyn said he won't give out sleeping pills because if you take them on a regular basis, it can actually cause the baby to ahve an addiction in utero. He said if anything, Ambien and Diphenhydramine(Active ingredient in benadryl but also main ingredient in many other generic sleeping aids) are the safest because they're class b pills. I googled Melatonin and thats a class C drug. If you don't know "classes", A- studies have found no posed risk to fetus in pregnancy, B- Studies have been done on pregnant animals and considered safe, but not humans. C- Studies have been done on animals and shown adverse effects in some fetuses but no studies on humans. It's up to you and you know your body better than anybody else, but personally, i would only take a class A or B medication.

No news with MIL yet other then she will be staying for extended period of time, rather than being released today after the minimum three day period. I also found out today that his pregnant sister (whom neither me nor him can personally stand but aside from the fact) tried to commit suicide herself and overdosed on thursday afternoon after reading their moms suicide note. She didn't know her mom was found in the process and is still alive apparently. Shes not my stress but that just means that the younger boys have to stay with me until both of them(daughter lives with MIL) are stable. I don't mind them being here because I know it's the safest place and the only way they can get to school and work safely.

It just annoys me because now living with three guys in a two bedroom apartment, theres always dishes, clothes, blankets, etc laying around and i'm constantly telling them to pick up after themselves. I mean I had to tell his 12 year old brother to take a shower today. He hasn't had one since Wed! I feel like I have to be a keeper of all of them and it's so frustrating. I don't mind cooking extra food or buying it even, its just annoying to be a "mom" to three grown kids and sometimes his 4 year old nephew as well when my child isn't even born yet. And the 12 year old snoops through all my stuff. Not that I have anything to hide but seriously? UGGGH.

Sorry, i'm just on a rant. I've been extra annoyed this weekend. The bf had off work from both jobs- and slept the whole time. every time I woke him up, he was grumpy and would complain until I would leave him alone. He gets literally one or two days off a month from both jobs- and sleeps 18 hours a damn day. So frustrating.

Back to work tomorrow. I've been off since Thursday when all of this went down. I'm hoping for a much better week this week!

Sakai. I doubt if your grandmother is 80 if she is just thinking of retiring. Many children have been raised by grandparents or aunts and uncles and turned out just fine. The reason your family members appear to be against the adoption is, although this is your baby it is also their flesh and blood that is why it is hard for them to accept.

Hi ladies...well, I guess I am going to officially join you! I have been lurking for the past few weeks reading all of your posts, but I am officially 5 weeks pregnant today, so I figured now is as good a time as any to join you!

This is my first pregnancy and I lost my last 30 pounds to get healthy for a pregnancy, so I am very excited. My first prenatal appointment is December 22nd. I can hardly wait. It seems like this is going to be a forever journey. Plus, it is still so early that it feels like anything could happen at any time, but I know that is true with any pregnancy. When I first found out I was pregnant, I was a maniac on Google and search engines and I got into an immediate "worry" mode, but I'm much better now and I'm just enjoying each day.

I am looking forward to sharing thoughts/feelings/adventures with you all on this incredible journey. :)

I just wanted to tell someone: SECOND TRIMESTER! Woohoo!! :D

WOOHOO Gale! Hooray!

Emme - WELCOME! Congratulations!

Sakai and Keller - you are both dealing with so much! Sending you lots of good vibes to get through the crazy family situations and hormonal meltdowns.