lucinda, I'm all too familiar with that out of control feeling and I also relate to the blessing that occurs when the binges finally stop. I wish you continued serenity.
Today is a brand new day. Let's start once again and never give up.
I am recommitting myself to OA. I have a wonderful new sponsor who encourages me. I am starting a simple eating plan. 3 healthy meals a day and 1 not 20 snacks at night. Pray journal read and call. My plan.
Yes. my actual house really caught fire. I have been recommitting to my abstinence and today is day three.... I am at peace with sitting quietly with my emotions. I can feel guilty about not cleaning my house or attending to bills in the mail without using those situations as as opportunity to binge. Because binging on even acceptable foods is still an act of deception.
And I am not weighing myself until Wednesday. Because checking my weight is counterproductive to being abstinent.
I'm so sorry about your house; that's awful. Be proud of yourself for staying in control with your eating for the past three days under such difficult circumstances!
I have been reading about surgery because I have dieted all my life and always lose the weight. After reading those that have chosen to have surgery, they seem to still struggle with food. I know how to lose weight. I do not know how to keep it from coming back! Addicted to sugar. I gave up cigarettes and alcohol cold turkey at age 30. I do have will power. I am new to this website and was drawn to look here. I had the best sponsor, but she has moved away. The local meetings have very few people in a good place to sponsor. Just glad to find a place to be for now.
hi Maggie. So we overeaters in recovery know that it is not willpower that functions as a recovery tool, it is admitting we are weak weak weak and fragile and broken and deserving of God's loving mercy to carry us out of a life spiraling out of control...
my house caught fire...
