Its better to say it out loud, or write, even if no one every reads it. I commend you for getting up and doing what you have to do despite the sadness. In the treatment center I was in, they gave us a book, small book, but powerful, called "constructive living" and that was pretty much what the book was about. Doing what you have to do even though you feel awful, to not let those bad thoughts and feelings control your actions anymore. I am not there yet, getting there, but still not quite to that point. I think we are supposed to feel this way, especially in early abstinence. We have been stuffing our feelings down with food for so long, when we put the food down, they all come back to the surface again. You are dealing with them instead of numbing out, I think that is progress.
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