Today I hit a milestone....40lbs. gone!
I knew it was coming up, but the reality of it just floored me. As I lose the weight I feel like each day a little piece of my shell is chipped off and someday the last chip will fall and I will stand up and be the person I know I was meant to be. This has been such an emotional journey for me because food was my way of stuffing down my feelings. As I lose the weight, I feel like each emotion never dealt with....every memory surpressed....all those hurts I fixed with food....now have to be dealt with once and for all. It's a scary process, but I really want to move on with my life. I've learned the most amazing thing on 3fc's, and that is that it's safe to open up and let people in. I only learned this after being a total jerk to my BL blue team members, and I only hope that those women know how much they have inspired me to become a better person. I'm not always a good friend or teammate because it's hard for me to not make everything about me. I'm learning to listen more and be supportive instead of selfish. I'm learning that I'm not the only one on here losing weight and if I want support, I have to give it too. I stopped thinking of losing weight as a job, and slowed down and learned to enjoy the process...while getting to know everyone. I'm still learning....and it is going to take me awhile to remember everything is not about me. But I'm going to get there, I know I will.
Thanks for all the support everyone! We can do this......together.
40 Pounds Gone!!
