I can't believe it is May already! How is everyone doing? I have come to a point where I seem to go off plan at least once a month. I am ok with it though since I only have a little more to go until goal. How is everyone coming along?
Jen

Operator265 , 05-01-2008 03:27 PM
Things are looking better today. They removed most of the stones and got a relief opening, but we're not out of it yet. They'll check what they have for cancer, but he didn't see any large tumors. We still have to hope he doesn't get plugged again. Sorry about the post. I didn't mean to get so morose. I guess the pain and exhaustion hit my fingers and I let it out. I'm going to take a nap before I go to pick him up now that he's beening watched. I was up every hour last night checking his breathing. It was just like when my girls were born. My first was 2 mths premature, so I spent the first 2 yrs. checking her every hour. It kicked back in with my 2nd even though she was perfectly healthy.
It's also easier to tie my boots.
Operator265 , 05-01-2008 07:24 PM

Will get test results on Saturday. Oh, Jen, yeah I lost my mind on the "energy return" thread. Go there if you want to see what a melt down looks like. I didn't realize that could happen typing into a forum. But I did it. Oh well. Just look at him. He's worth it and a kitchen renovation too.
I can get new appliances later. He'll get his staples out in 2 weeks. Right now, I'm the happiest Mommy on the planet.
****, my ex has been beside himself thru all this. Thank goodness for unlimited long distance.
Operator265 , 05-01-2008 11:47 PM
I also love hearing success stories.
I am so very happy all my fear is confronted and I know I can do this. I did have a couple of moments that I wanted to give up. 
I'm only 1/2 pound shy of my 1 month goal. I started on April 3, so I have one more day to lose the last 1/2 pound! I can do it I think!
Operator265 , 05-03-2008 12:00 AM
He couldn't eat and was spitting up blood so I took him in. It looks OK, but they need to give him IV fluids and nutrients. He looked alot better when I went in this afternoon.
Probably because I wouldn't let him sleep for fear he wouldn't wake back up. There he finally got to take a nap. I blew off OT today and, OH **** YES, I'll leave my regular shift if I have to 2morrow, but I think he'll be OK. My DD can pick him up in the morning.
Wierd how I barely ate over the last 2 days but have stayed the same weight. I must have gone into starvation mode or something. Oh well, my diet hasn't been the most important thing to me right now. And, at least I didn't go on a major binge or anything like that. I did get a little fast food once each day simply out of concenience.
I didn't have the energy to come home and make stuff up. But, I kept it to a minimum.
) and have a couple of weeks Nic-free I'll be able to also quit scale jumping every morning. I'm just crapping bricks for fear of gaining 20 lbs when I quit
(like I have everytime before). At least with MF in place I should do better. I may up my treadmill time from 30 to 45 min. "They" say it takes about a week for your metabolism to return when you quit smoking. God, I hope so.
Can't wait to hear your updates.
Poor little guy! 
Operator265 , 05-03-2008 09:56 PM