Thanks so much guys for caring, and thinking about me!
Things have been very rough, and I will not be able to post so much. But I am okay, my family is okay, and since we have the best military in the world, our country will be okay.
I have basically trashed my Atkins diet. I was unable to get to the commisary for a few days (lockdown and typhoon), and had to revert to eating carbs at meals. And that started a downward spiral. All that dedication for nothing. I keep trying to start back, but I just keep failing.... eating Burger King, and spaghetti, and my favorite, yakisoba. Every morning I say I am starting, but by lunch or dinner, all is lost. I have gained about half of my 13 pounds lost, back again, putting me at 185.
Also, I started smoking again. One month off, and I started again. I guess I am just not as strong as I thought I was. Something had to give. Things are REALLY stressful over here. Sometimes I feel like I am going to breakdown. My husband has been really super stressed at work, so he takes it out on me sometimes, being really mean and snotty. Or just biting my head off whenever I breathe. We had a talk about it, and he felt REALLY bad, and has been great since the talk. But it still dealt me quite a load.
Kirei - we are just so glad to see you back that you can come in here eating a huge carb sandwich and we will hug you to death- and nibble the edges!
We are so darmed happy to see you, girlie!!!!
(Sheesh! Wonder if that Moderator B will edit this?)
So glad tosee you back on the boards--don't worry about the back slide in the Atkins program--everyone does it. Just pick yourself up, dust yourself off, come backin here and keep on trying to work your program. And when you're not doing that, exercise, exercise, exercise to work off all that anxiety and stress in your life, OK? You just come on in any ole time and let it all hang it out if it's getting to you, OK? Just remember to take good care of yourself for now on and drink a TON of water to flush out the system!
Good to see you back Kirei, I know all too well how quickly a few little cheats can destroy weeks of effort. Hang in there. You can do it. For the sake of your dear little ones please try to quit smoking.
Christie glad to see you again. Please do not think that you are weak and not able to do this. it is very hard to pick your self up and dust off. you are doing great. the fact that you are here is the first step. just make a commitment to get started again and choose a day. then psyche your self up for it. you can do it i know you can. do not worry about doing it all at one time just start with the diet. hten worry about the smoking. the atkins works becuse we are addicts and that is why you are having such a hard time getting back OP. if it was easy we all would be skinny. the weight that you have put back on is water and after a few days it will come off. stop and reread your book now that will give you the incentive to get back OP. and that you are here is the first step you can do. glad to have you here. we will break out the duct tape and tape you down.
and with all the stress no wonder you caved. it is hard to eat op when you can not get to your food.
Thanks gals. I started back on program today. We'll see how it goes. The smoking is just gonna have to stay for a while. I think quitting was one of the factors in my getting off program. I can only take so much. Besides, someone made a comment about "quitting for the sake of my kids", and while I know that was in good intension, I just want to make clear that I only smoke at BINGO (hehe), and OUTSIDE after they have gone to nap, or bedtime. I NEVER smoke around them or in the house. I won't even let them see me smoke. My husband hates smoking, so he would never put up with smoking in the house (nor would I). Sad as it sounds, smoking is my sanity right now. You all have NO IDEA how stressul it is over here!!! I'm sorry that I can't tell you specifics, but it is hard to stay upbeat. I don't want to spend another holiday season (Thanksgiving, Christmas, New Years) without my husband. Hopefully, we will all be together. We have been married for 4 years, and have only had 1 Christmas together.
Well, enough of my whining. I feel I can do this, especially since I have you guys. You keep me held accountable!
Christy
Christy as a nurse i know how it is to be spending christmas apart fromyour hubby. but have no idea how it would be ifhe was totally away. I also can not imangine how stressful it is over there. I am sure that it is not good. My heart goes out to you and feel free to vent any streses tous that you are able. like the kids spilling the milk and the trash fell over. we realize that there are many things that you can not talk about so vent the small things for us. We understand. we are all friends here and help eachother out as much as we can. so vent all you want. and hold off on the quit smoking till you have a better handle on the diet again and the stress that ou are under. Keep posting and take care.
You are doing great and you will do this. I have the faith in you.
Say, you sound pretty human to me!
Stress can be so hard on the body and on a marriage! Last year hubby and I went through a time whe he was under stress at work and he thought he could use me for a "whipping boy". It almost wrecked our marriage as I rarely allow anyone to be rude to me. We too sat down and discussed it. (Actually I told him that ,if it were to comtinue,we would be divorcing fairly soon.) He realized what he was doing very quickly.
For goodness sake, be kind to yourself! Youre not a fairlure cause you are smoking and eating. Take it one day at a time for now. Maybe, right now, you need the comfort of carbs more than you need to not eat them....does that make any sense?
Just remember that we're here and we understand. God bless.
I have missed you so much. I'm glad you are safe...you've been in my prayers.
If you are a failure, then so am I. I also gave up the effort to quit smoking. Three days after the attacks, my brother died, and I have not yet been able to get settled with my life yet. I am staying OP, but have gained 10 pounds...it's all stress (and back...am on pain meds again) related.
You are strong, my dear friend. We all have our limits. Be good to yourself and don't add to your stress. We are all here pulling for you.
Hugs to you, I am so sorry to hear of your loss. My thoughts and prayers are with you, your family, and all of those who are feeling pain during this very stressful time.
I'm here...
