[Pooky]

I need to be really honest right now, I have been on a really bad carb binge and I'm struggling to get out of it. I ate a whole turtle cheesecake and a package of rice crackers and that's how it started. I know why I did it--my dh has been away all week and I haven't had a break at all from Miree. Stress, compounded by dh's absence has left me to my own devises and I am feeling the effects of it. I now I have only myself to blame--and here I was crowing about how my hormones have equalled themselves out. Go figure that with one success comes the downfall. I am trying my hardest to get back on track and I know it's going to be a few days before I can sort through this but I needed to be fair and honest--mostly for me, if not for you all too. I'm wise enough not to be hard on myself sicne I realize we all do it now and again and it is never pretty when we do it. It just feels like a bad secret, stuffing my face and loathing myself with every bite. I figure if I post it and get out the demons inside it will be easier for me to get myself back on program.