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Originally Posted by thewalrus0
One thing I really imagine will be nice about being at goal will be to put on a t-shirt and not worry about my rolls pushing out. Right now I usually wear t-shirts or tank tops but then I put on some sort of jacket/hoody/sweater to smooth out the belly area. Obviously I still look overweight but it makes me feel better.
You sound like me! I would sometimes start feeling super uncomfortable in the middle of the day because I'd realize my rolls were pushing through my shirt, so I'd put on a sweatshirt.
Just in the past month or so, I've realized I can wear all my t-shirts and walk around... and I'm not sucking in. My belly is far from taut or toned, but it pretty much goes straight from my ribs to my hips with just a bit of a belly fold an inch or two to either side of my belly button. Definitely lumpy and bump, and still quite an impressive roll when I sit... but it's so amazing to look in the mirror and have a natural waist.
As for other things I've been noticing...
I can sit in a chair and then lean forward (bending at the waist) and rest my forehead on my knees. It doesn't hurt or make all my stomach rolls squash and jam together painfully, and I can still breathe. I can actually relax and feel comfortable in this position.
When squatting, my knees bend fully and easily till my heel is nearly touching my butt. I don't feel like all the flesh on my thighs and legs is squashing out to both sides trying to escape.
I can cross my legs and be comfortable, and not be constantly trying to keep them from coming uncrossed, which used to quickly exhaust my thigh muscles. My thighs also don't look huge when my legs are crossed.
I broke my collarbone when I was younger and I can, for the first time, see the slight asymmetry where the break healed.
I don't feel self-conscious or ashamed when people start talking about dieting and weight loss. Ashamed because either I'm not trying to lose weight and I'm embarrassed or because I am trying, but I still feel fat and don't want people to assume I'm not doing it right or am not serious.
The idea of going to the doctor and being asked to change into one of the gowns does not fill me with dread.
I've realized just being thin isn't going to make me attractive and I will have to learn to dress myself in flattering ways and wear at least light makeup if I want to be considered conventionally pretty. These are both relatively new to me and I'm a little torn between wanting to feel attractive and not being sure I want to give up my fairly no-nonsense, low maintenance approach to life. I'm worried I'll become vain, or feel inauthentic. However, I do feel far more attractive than I did when I was overweight.