Hi, everybody,

Came in for work and it is another day of training. means another 1 hour for the gym left when we break for lunch.
yesterday was an eye opener for me - my son is in fourth year of music for young children program and they have 6 books for music and have to learn so much that on my first class I was totally lost! That is, I have music education myself. Than I thought that sometimes when we are directly involved, we do not register that it is just too much and just push it away as it is too much too difficult. As soon as I broke it into parts, 6 books and 10 different assignments did not look so scary. 15 min practise/day will do it. My son and i both were happy after.

So if the mountain is too large, break it into smaller stretches on your way... Works wonders and well, gives this inner peace.

Cheers,
Sash.

Well, I decided to go to work today, but then as I was getting showered and dressed I developed a huge headache. I just keep going over and over it all in my head. My body is telling me something. So I think it's definitely some vitamin I and a day on the couch for me. I'm going to walk my disobedient dogs and then try to relax. Goals for today: read, stretch, meditate, prepare a nutritous supper, nap. Breathe. Breathe. Breathe.

Anne

Hi Sash,

What a great thought! So if the mountain is a co-worker, break him into smaller pieces...

Just kidding about the co-worker thing.

Seriously though, breaking up big problems is one of the best life strategies I've ever found for getting through the really hard stuff. It is such a shame that we need to relearn this lesson over and over again.

Anne

Hi everyone. I just came from PT and my Dr.'s appt. They had a neurologist and Orthopedic Dr. both to see me. I feel doomed right now. They explained that the results of the nerve study were baffling to them. The injury was to my lower ankle and the nerves are "dead" from the back of the knee down. They don't have an explanation for this. Said it could be from my diabetes but even that doesn't make sense to them since there is nothing wrong with Right leg and this wasn't a problem prior to the accident. They ordered a new orthopedic device to wear inside my shoe instead of this big, heavy luna boot. The worst part is that I have to have another nerve study done in 6 weeks for a comparison. He did say that they could do an exploratory surgery to "check out" the nerves, but would wait until after the next nerve study. I am just at a total loss. I am to sit with legs out straight to avoid any bending in the knee area.
Last night, I felt pretty good. I used my exercise ball for side sit-ups and leg lifts and push ups. Thought even this was better than no exercise at all. However, when I tried to sleep last night I hurt terribly bad over right ribcage and liver area. I know, I'm falling apart.
I did the wrong thing and had mexican food for lunch to drown my sorrows. It just made me feel even worse. Now, it's tuna for dinner.

Wanted to add that the only damage to my son's motorcycle was the brake handle is bent and the key hole had been dug out a bit . The key still works and he had the handle replaced this AM. He brought it over to store in our garage and just get when he wants to ride it. Feels it is a lot safer here than at his apartment.

Oh Lily, I'm so sorry. I was hoping you'd catch a break this time. Try not to feel doomed--even your doctors don't know what is going on yet.

Anne

Sorry I am so frustrated. It just feels like I'm a human guinea pig for medical experiments. I have worked so hard to improve my health and I feel like when I take a step forward, I go back 2 steps. I have had 3 surgeries in the past year and at least 6 CT scans and now this. I am happy that my weight is OK but worry how long it will survive. I don't mean to be depressed, I'm just very worried right now.

Hi:

Hugs to you right now lilly. Don't be sorry for being down, anyone would be in your situation. Just try to take it one step at a time.

Anne a mental health day is always a good choice.

GTG bbl.

I am better today. I woke up with renewed determination to keep this weight off. No cheats. I'm not going to let this beat me. I have had too many set-backs and too much to overcome to let this win. I weighed and surveyed the damage and I'm still in maintenance level. I started my day with breakfast on program and I'm going to finish tonite the same way. Used exercise ball for what I am able to do and that will have to be good enough. I may go shopping today for a new exercise bike instead of getting the used one this weekend. I found out last night that DH isn't going on his annual deep-sea fishing trip, so this frees up some extra money. He's staying home to test for an advancement on his job. This would be great with more pay and better work hrs. I hope he gets it.

Ah! This is better! New computer ... cable internet ... if only I hadn't gained those few pounds while moving and settling in ... I'd be great.
Honestly, I feel good but this little roll over my jeans has got to go.

I've got some reading to catch up on, don't I? Has everybody been good little maintainers?

Hello Susan - glad you're all moved Moving usually does a number on me too! Take-away chips don't help!

Hi maintainers,

Hi Lily- that doctor story sounds scary, and if I were you I would also find it scary! Do you take enough b vitamins? I vaguely remember that these are important in mending nerves. Maybe something to check out on then internet. I think it is absolutely normal to feel down about such news, and very very positive that you have grabbed yourself together the day after to come up with your plan B. Keep hanging in there, and keep posting. It's what we are here for.

Susan - Glad you are back ! how is the new house?

Today I did 1 hr yoga and 1 hr power class. i upped the weights on the biveps & triceps sets, and it was hard! This sunday I'll be going to taiwan for a 1 week business trip. I'm nervous about forgetting stuff, so I'll start packing today!

have a great day all,
rabbit

I have been taking a multi-vitamin. The neurologist recommended taking extra Vit. B 6 and B 12, saying it is "nerve friendly".

Hi Lily,

I had heard about the b12. By all means check on internet, and if you think it's Ok take the extra Bs. The nerve specialist that I heard this from said that it could be like 2 - 3 months for damaged nerves toto recover, depending on how damaged of course, so I guess that effect of the vitamins could be weeks before you notice anything.

rabbit

Thanks, I plan to get the B vitamins on Monday. I had a run-a-round with my insurance carrier as to where I could get my new foot brace that would be covered by the insurance. The place I was told to get it wasn't on my list of providers. Problem solved now, I have a different appt. on Monday and it will pay at 100%. I am glad I made the calls, it would have costed over $1000.00 out of pocket if I went "out of network".