Becky, maybe you're just mirroring your boy as he grows and pushes the boundaries! Proprioception: http://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Proprioception

I made myself get on the scale this morning because I've felt all week as though I've ballooned up. I'd even imagined specific numbers. So it was a relief to see that yes, even though the visible fluid retention had added a few pounds, it was nowhere near what I'd been imagining.

This week's gain seems partly due to the heat wave we've been experiencing, which I find myself not minding as much as I would have years ago because I look decent in tank tops, thanks to all the strength training. And partly due to stress, as I'm trying to attain escape velocity from my job before a week of vacation. But I'm not looking forward a lot to the vacation because there will be a lot of duty visits to relatives with my mother in tow. I'm telling myself it will be more relaxing & fun than I think it will be.

I'm so sorry to hear your news Bargoo. You will be in my daily prayers. Thank you for sharing. Please keep us posted.

I'm still hanging at the same weight as last week, and feel pretty bloated. My rings are a little tight today, so obviously retaining some fluids. I'm considering restarting my colace, too. Things aren't always working smoothly there, either. :eek:

Saef - heat always makes me feel heavy.

Bargoo - how are you feeling today? I've been thinking about you.

My rings were tight last weekend, and I know I had gained and wasn't going to worry about it until after the vacation, but surprisingly I seem to have lost 2 pounds. I'll take it! I'll take any kind of loss!!

I have been weighing myself monthly, no more, for the past three months. I was hoping that this way, I wouldn't waste so much mental energy worrying about maintenance and loss. Very strangely, I have now weighed EXACTLY the same thing on all three weigh-ins. Either my scale is broken and only reads either zero or 137.5 (possible, I suppose) or this is working. It helps that I weigh at the same time every month (5 days after TOM starts, so at the point of minimum bloating). I think I'll keep trying this to see if it is enough.

JayZeeJay, for the longest time my scale read exactly the same weight. That was how I discovered that sometimes, I've got to re-set it. It has a memory, unfortunately. So before a weigh-in, I do plank on it with my hands, then stand up (incidentally, my plank can be as much as 104 pounds on my hands!), and then when I stand on the scale again, I get my true weight.

Yeah, weird, especially since I weigh naked, so I'm doing a naked plank before the weigh in. ;-)

Oh crud. I bet you're right. It seems way too unlikely that I have been THAT consistent over months of time. Now the fear and dread are starting to creep in...how far off am I? Ten pounds? A HUNDRED and ten pounds? :) OK, not likely.

But in any case I'm going home tonight to do a naked plank on my scale before the BF comes home to witness it (though he's seen me do much weirder things). Now I wish I hadn't eaten two lunches.

I don't want to spoil things but I just step on mine with one foot. I do that each time I want to use it. (I don't want to at the moment but I think I should.)

I haven't been weighing more than once a week and it's really starting to show - literally! I am now up to over 138 lbs. and my stomach is bulging. I will reset my scale too - probably with your method birchie - but I don't think that will change the now too, too high number.

A lot of my overeating involves my failing relationship with DH. He just can't seem to be happy about anything that's happening and that's making me angry so I eat. I have tried to talk to him but he's so deep into his pity party that he's not hearing it.

I am about to realize a dream I've had for about half a century - owning my own home. Everyone else I talk to IS happy for me. Except my sweetie. SIGH.

I am very appreciative of all the support here. But I wish I had some face-to-face friends I could enjoy this with too.

Dagmar :dance: :(

Dagmar, is DH depressed ? This might be something to check into . Trying to deal with a person who is depressed is a losing proposition. I have no suggestions other than trying to find out.

bargoo that's one of the frustrating things. DH is depressed and has said so numerous times. But he refuses to do anything about it. I have suggested a therapist - even found one for myself and gave him her name - but apparently there's no one that could possibly understand DH. I suggested going to a doctor for a diagnosis and possibly some meds and DH said all of that was "psychobabble" and that the drugs didn't work for him. Etc. etc. etc.

I really think DH likes being miserable. It's easier than being engaged in life and trying to move ahead etc. You can sit in front of the TV every night eating, rather than attempting to go out, or work out, or anything else.

I can't do anything about it. Except leave. And i really don't want to do that because, even with his faults, DH is the only face-to-face support I have in life. I'm not ready to be totally alone, nor do I want to be.

I'm hoping, once he starts doing some physical work on the house that will help pull him out of this rut.

Oops - gotta go to work now!

Dagmar :(

Dagmar, I hope something will work out for him and at least moderate his symptoms. I see a little of your situation in my parents' relationship - my dad is severely depressed, has eaten his way to obesity and poor health, and makes almost no effort to change anything. Mom walks 3 miles a day, manages all the finances and house and yard, and is alone much of most days - she had a very hands-off-talking-about-feelings upbringing though so it may be "normal" for her.

My heart breaks when I read some of your posts, Dagmar. I hope the work on the house helps. :(

This I understand completely. My last BF/partner suffered from something resembling depression but with a liberal helping of anger on top. And I think this sums up a lot of it - deep deep down, he was super afraid of failure and very insecure. It was easier for him to just opt out altogether than to address it somehow.

Saef: I naked-planked last night (mine was 82 lbs) - now naked planking is a "thing"! :) The good news is that the re-weigh was 139 lbs. So I didn't spiral out of control unknowingly. But I'm pretty sure you were right, it was stuck in a memory loop. Thank goodness it didn't remember some ridiculously high weight - imagine if it was 20 lbs more and I kept thinking that no matter what I did, I was going to be 160! I'd be down to 800 calories a day by now out of sheer desperation. Stupid scales and their stupid powers.