Megan, thanks, I've been back on my medication for three days. What went away almost immediately are the so-called "brain zaps," a symptom of withdrawal thatr's hard to describe, except to say that they resemble spells of vertigo or having your skull jarred really hard. Other symptoms like increased anxiety and difficulty focusing will take longer to go away probably. I have been anxious all day -- what if I don't get enough done today? what if I waste my weekend -- and so I was overactive, going to the movies & then to three different stores. It's like I am fleeing something and have to keep throwing activities in my way to distract myself. I meant to cook for the week, too, but I know I won't now as I am simply too tired.
Part of my hyperactivity had to do with the weather. We had a bad forecast. A tornado watch, a sky that turned duck-egg green at one point, and spells of torrential rain. I don't like torrential rain. But we will probably be okay.
Tonight another ground-floor apartment resident who was flooded out stopped by my apartment and I felt a tremendous sense of relief while talking to him. He was traveling for his job, then on vacation, and so did not move back until now. He still isn't sleeping in his apartment. He's overwhelmed by having to unpack his boxes and buy furniture. Through his eyes I saw how much I have gotten done & how relatively settled I am. I am used to thinking of myself as unsettled and surrounded by incomplete and delayed things, so that was an eye-opener.
Last edited by saef; 09-08-2012 at 07:42 PM.
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