and sobbed like a baby or like someone who has completely turned their life around or one who's went from utter misery to utter joy, from constant worries and anxiety to lightness and carefreeness, from mopey and depressed-ish to energetic, productive and full of stamina. from one who's gone from self conscious to full of self worth, self respect, self confidence, self pride and just plain old MYself..
I was shopping with my daughters for a gown for me for DD#1's wedding. Well I finally made a decision and was ready to order a dressand was being measured. First of all, the seamstress kept on calling my peanut. Anyway, we're in the middle of measuring and I say, wait a sec, how is the back going to look on me, I can't tell. The reason I can't tell - well the sample was waaay too big on me, so they clip it in the back to give you an idea what it will look like, but then you really can't tell what the back will look like, cause it's all clipped. The seamstress says to me, what are you worried about, you've got nothing there, you're going to look fabulous. She then continues to take my measurements and tells me I have the perfect body. Okay - I lost it. Just lost it.
This whole thing has been very emotional for me, because as I stated many times, one of the things I used to lie awake at night worrying about was how I would get through my daughter's wedding (if I were lucky enough to live that long) being SO heavy. I always worried what I would wear and where I would find a tent big enough and dressy to wear. How would I feel good about myself? How would I even have enough strength, energy and stamina for all of the planning and the actual event itself???
Well, after me having such a hard time deciding on dresses because, well, ummm,, I kinda looked pretty darn good in all of them, and then her calling me peanut, and all the other comments, I just busted - and broke down and cried and cried. My poor daughters. I've always said they've been SO supportive of me, but they really can't imagine the scope of how different I feel NOW as opposed to then, morbidly obese then. I am just so grateful to be this way and to feel this way.
Just had to share.
Here's a picture of the dress. I just can't believe that I, me, yes ME, could wear such a dress. It's like a dream come true, only better. What do you think?
http://www.bestbridalprices.com/imag...rge/12276.html