[So_much_to_lose]

Hi everyone. I am not a new member to 3fc though I am new to posting. I mainly lurk a lot and then get upset, motivated, start, then inevitably fail. I am so sick of this cycle of overeating, guilt, trying, failing, crying, and vowing to always do better...but never seem to.

I have over 100lbs to lose. I want to lose it, or most of it by the time I am 30 (I am 28 now). I have a wonderful husband and a beautiful daughter and I don't want to put my weight issues on her. I really don't want her to go down the same road as me --- always being the "fat girl", trying and losing weight only to gain it back, always being the "friend" to the guy you like, not being able to find fashionable clothing to fit as a teenager...and down the line.

I don't want to paint it as if I have a horrible life. I am really blessed in so many ways. I am still healthy (youth on my side, but that won't last forever) I have a wonderful, handsome, sweet husband who supports me emotionally and financially so I can stay home with our daughter which is what I always wanted to to when I had a child. I have friends and a pretty decent self esteem except for this darn weight!

I feel like it holds me back from so much. I know my confidence is lower than it was when I was thinner. I got down to a size 12 a few years ago and I felt great!!! I was still "thick" but man, I loved shopping in "regular" stores and being able to wear the latest fashions (within reason lol) and I just had this air about me where I felt really strong and healthy and beautiful (not to sound vain) ... but I did. I felt really good.

I know self image shouldn't be tied into body image, but cmon, we all know it is for most people. I don't have illusions of being a supermodel. I just want to be healthy and a *regular* size -- even a comfortable misses 14 maintained would have me over the moon, I am not picky about being tiny.

I dunno, I am just rambling. It is good to get it out.

[lilly2006]

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[brandyangel1]

we are o so the same person except i was a thin teenager.

[MikiG]

Hello and welcome to 3FC You have come to the right place if what you want is understanding concerning that cycle you mentioned. You described it perfectly! I should know..I've experienced it a million times myself over the years, even over the last months. More than anything, I want to break it and I am determined for that to happen. That's why I'm here. You'll find tons of support, motivation, inspiration, and when needed, a "cyber kick" in the rear..

I want to lose at least 50 more lbs myself. I came here 3 yrs ago and with the help of the great "chicks" I met, I was able to lose over 50 lbs. In the last year, I gained back 20+ of that. It's so discouraging to keep losing the same lbs over and over again. Especially when I never reached my original goal the first time I lost.

I will be 43 in March so I know it's only going to get harder the longer I wait. You are smart to get on the right track at your age. You'll be so glad you did.

I post in a thread under "Support Groups". It is called "I need accountability to get back on track". You are welcome to join us if you'd like. If not, I hope you find just the group you need to help you succeed.

Again, Welcome!

Miki

[Liliann]

Welcome So much to lose.. I have over 100 Lbs to loose, but am taking 50 Lbs per year on losing of getting to my goal of 200.. I can relate of the vicious cycle due to overeating ..It can be a pain of everyday struggles to stay on track. You made a good start of posting and wanting to change. There is many good eating plans to choose from. I had tried a few and just did not click for me..I am now calorie counting and being faithful on journaling the food choices that I make each day. Good luck with your weight loss efforts.. You can Private message me anytime for that extra support. You can do it and taking one day at a time.