Hello everyone.
I have a weight loss diary at OD and I was browsing the circles there and a fellow diarist suggested this site so..here I am.
I'm 36 years old. I have 2 children and a fantastic supportive hubby. Life is great. Last year this time I would have said life is good. Although I was happy with my family and my life I wasn't happy about me.
I have always been overweight. For as long as I can remember. Back when I was about 10 years old my father (whom I can't stand and don't associate with anymore) told me he would give me 100 dollars if I lost 25 lbs. Wow that stung and still stings 25 years later!!
In my teen years I always had the "I'll start a diet tomorrow" Tomorrow never came.
After the birth of my daughter I did lose a lot of weight. I got down to 140 lbs which is still overweight for my 5'1 frame. I thought I was fat then. It wasn't until 10 years later I looked at those pictures of me @ 140 and thought I was skinny then.
I continued to gain weight until I ended up somewhere around 252. It was probably higher but I don't know for sure. I stepped on the scale and watched it go higher and higher and when it hit the 252 mark I jumped off. I just did not want to see what I honestly weighed. How sick. I was in denial. I knew I had gained but I kept thinking Oh I probably gained about 10 lbs. WRONG...it was more like 100.
Last year I noticed it was harder to do the things I once used to do. Things as simple as climbing the 2 stairs on the back porch. I felt like I couldn't do it. Walking the smallest incline made me out of breath. Walking up the stairs from the laundry room was torture. Sleeping was interrupted due to what I assume was apena. Again in denial and was too embarassed to go the to doctors about it.
I reflected back and remembered how good I felt when I was thinner. I was never ever skinny but I was thinner.
So, last year my new years resolution was to lose weight. I didn't set unrealistic goals this time as I have in the past because I could never acheive them. I would get discouraged and basically throw the diet out the window This time I told myself I would be happy with any amount of loss each week or even a maintain here and there. AND IT WORKED!
Since Jan 3, 2005 I have lost 99.5 lbs. I am certain I will hit the -100 lb mark on my next weekly weigh in. I'm so excited and I can not beleive how easy the weight has come off since I have changed my eating habits. I don't starve. I don't count calories. I just eat healthy meals instead of fast food. I drink water and green tea with the occasional glass of orange juice. I don't drink sodas. Haven't had a burger in a year. Haven't eaten at McDonalds or any fast food restaurant in a year. Haven't ordered a pizza in a year. I'm just so darned proud of myself for doing something for me for a change. I feel 100% better.
I joined a gym when I got down to under 200 lbs. I used to think exercising was too much work. Now I live for it. I love to get up every day and go to the gym. I give myself 2 days a week off so I don't get burned out going.
I started out wearing a 3X shirt and size 24-26 pants. Today I wear a medium shirt and size 11 pants. I can squeeze into size 9 but I won't do that. I will wait until they fit me comfortably before I wear them. I have a whole new wardrobe of clothes. I don't have to wear stretchy pants and big shirts anymore. I can dress confidently and cute now.
I can't wait to get to my goal of 125. It's only 27 lbs away when last year this time it seemed unattainable.
If I can do this anyone can. I've failed so many times in my life at so many things and for once I can say Im A Loser and PROUD OF IT!
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That is SO awesome!! Oh my goodness. You give me so much hope! I am like you were now. Although I don't weigh as much and i am 5'7 but.. I remember being 160 lbs and I was not too concerned with my weight... I was happy. Now at 220 lbs I would die (not literally 
) to be that weight again! 
