Hi I'm new
Hi all! My name is Clare, I am 21 and from Houston, Tx. I guess I
will start off with a background of me and why I am here. I have
always been overweight, but not what most people would call fat I
guess, but I have always felt fat. The most I ever weighed (before
now) was when I started college at 17...I think I got up to 175
pounds. But the weight slowly dropped off when I moved back in with
my parents. Then I started partying a lot, and did a lot of
speed...mainly because I was so obsessed with losing weight and I
thought I had found the easy way out. Well, it was easy at the
time...but I would say then I also was slightly anorexic, because of
the drugs I wouldn't eat for sometimes 4 or 5 days, and when I did eat
it would be like half of a hamburger or something. I didn't know or
care at the time that I was destroying my body, I just knew that I
weighed 120 pounds, and I felt sexy. Well, eventually I tried doing
the drugs and living a normal lifestyle again, but it just didn't
work...I couldn't hold a job, I had really bad anxiety problems, and I
only felt happy when I was high. I finally realized I was really
missing out on my life, and decided to quit. So at first I gained
about 20 pounds, which I could live with...140 isn't that bad. But
then I started gaining weight like crazy, and now I am up to 200
pounds. I think I really screwed my metabolism up. I went to the dr.
and got my thyroid checked out, no problems there, but I know I will
never just be at a good weight again without working my butt off to
get there. So I am here for a serious diet/lifestyle overhaul. The
only thing that scares me is that I am NOT a very self motivated
person, and I don't really believe I can do this alone. So I come
here for your support and motivation, and I hope to provide you all
with the same. Sorry this was so long, I just kind of want to get to
know everyone and let you get to know who I am and why I am here
~Much Love
Clare from Houston
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