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Wow! I wish I had found these boards a long time ago...In cruising around here last night I think I will definitely be spending some time hanging out here...

I am Kathy...37 yo wife and mom of 7 (age spread 10 mos-18y).

I have battled eating disorders on and off since age 12 (anorexia, bulmarexia, bulimia). I am feeling pretty peaceful where these demons are concerned now...but I never let my guard down.

I am just finishing week two of maintenance after losing the last of my pudge from my last pregnancy. Starting in January, I decided it was time to do it, and succeeded in losing about 15 pounds bringing me down to around 130.

I am now faced with the prospect of maintenance. I do not do maintenance...usually I end up pregnant when I get skinny...and I don't see that happening at least any time soon...SOOOOO...I am embarking upon new territory here.

In the past while and after dieting, I restrict so much that the binge urges gradually begin building up to the breaking point and I end up giving in...thus begins those awful ups and downs that go along with that. This time...I have noticed a pattern. If I keep myself satisfied with the "clean foods" and make sure that I don't get too hungry I can keep the binge urges to a mininum. If I notice the urges intensifying it's because I'm over-extended and I need to either eat or sleep.

I DO NOT want all my work getting down to where I am to go for naught...so am desperately looking for a place to hang out where I can get some maintenance support and figure out how to do this.

I should mention...my dh is an ex-muscle head. He isn't body building any more, but still lifts and works out and is very into fitness. He LOVES my cut bod and he is very excited that I have gotten back into shape. He is trying to be very supportive of me and is very free with his compliments and sweet words. You would think this would be great, right? NOPE! My goofy brain looks at it like pressure and I get mad at him for getting into this so much. If I don't maintain it, I get to not only deal with myself, but I get to deal with his disappointment, too.

I guess that's me in a nutshell. I look forward to getting to know you all!

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Hi Kathy,
I was also very glad I found this website!! My problem is a lot differant than yours, I am just a plain overeater, addicted to food, want to eat all the time. So therefore I just get heavier and heavier. But Im at a breaking point and have to do something about it!!! So far this place has helped. Keep up the good work!!!