I'm all alone here. And crying. I have these tremendous mood swings from day to day. Well, not tremendous. Just some days I can pretend I'm ok and other days I can't. Today, I can't.

I'm at my wits end and don't know where to go. Who to talk to. Who can give me support. I really am crying through tears as I write this. I just don't know any more. I don't think I CAN any more. I try to lose weight. I try, and try, and try. And it's not that it's life threatening in an urgent fashion. I'm 5'5 and weigh about 220 pounds. That's a lot. Especially for someone with a small frame like me. But I see people on TV and think what is wrong with me? These people who truly need help, and who find the strength to get fitter. Lose weight. Save their lives. If they can do it, then for crying out loud what's wrong with me?

I am so alone. But this post isn't about that yet. I've never posted on a forum that dealt with overeating. I always thought I could do it myself. But I can't. I hate myself so much. I truly do. I need so much help for so many different reasons. Can someone here please tell me that it's going to be ok? Please? Someone tell me I'm not alone. Please. Someone tell me that I'll get over my horrible binge eating habits. Someone point me in the right direction. God. Please. I'm sorry. This just isn't a good day. I'm tired of binging. I'm tired of not being in control. But I don't have the strength to stop. I truly am all alone. I need support. I am not enough. I don't know what else to say yet.

Please help.

Michael

Oh Michael, you've come to the right place!

I think we've all been where you are, and it DOES get better! Not only will we give you all the support we can, but since we're all losing weight different ways, you can learn all sorts of things and decide what's right for you.

Big big hugs to you. Write it out. Get it out. Ask any and all questions that you want. I promise to help

Hi

I'm not yet as successful a dieter as star princess but I just wanted to add another post of support and let you know that people are there for you

Dill

Michael--

I too wanted to post and let you know that you're not alone!

You will find all the support you need here. Any question you have, someone here will have an answer. This site has been a great place for support and encouragement for me and I just know that it will for you too. I hope you keep coming back, we would all love to help you out in any way that we can!

As you browse around, you will see huge successes (such as Starprincess) which can be a great motivation to get going and to keep going. I know it has for me....I'm still working on it, and it can be a struggle at times, but coming here has been great for those moments I feel lost. I've made many friends as you will too!

Just know that you're NOT alone and that we ALL welcome you here!! Come and vent and just let it all out anytime you need!!

Sending big hugs from me too!!

Marti

Hi Micheal --

You've made a great first step by coming to this forum and talking about what's bothering you... You can't do it alone, no one can, that's why we're all here... This place for me has been the best motivator...

If a place like this wonderful forum can't help you. Get real professional help. Don't be shy just do it... Binging is an awful place to be and asking for help is no easy task but we can't do it alone...

Have you read any of Dr. Phil's books... or any self help books... The library is full of interesting healthy books..."Diary of a Fat Housewife" is EXCELLENT, I can't remember the author's name though...It's written so well about how she battled her food ...

Just keep coming back here and we'll help you in any way we can...

Keep in touch...

TTFN

I was almost too scared to come back here today. I was afraid no one would respond. Thank you all. That's all I can say tonight. I'm just drained. It's been a rough autumn, winter, and spring.

Going to bed now. Going to come back tomorrow with, I hope, a clearer head. Do you know what has me scared at the moment? Really scared? I bought Dr. Phil's new book and it hasn't helped me at all. I thought it would. I don't find it motivating. I'm worried that I've just given up.

Is it a drug? It is a drug. I'm an addict. Sometimes I catch myself wishing I were handcuffed to a bed - like an addict. Does that sound hard to do? Extreme? I wish it were that easy. What in me made food a drug?

Michael

Hello again Michael--

Don't ever feel scared to come here, there is always someone here to talk to.

Your post sound so sad...and I really wish that we could help you lift you up. I agree with Lanaii1, that if you can't get the help your looking for here, maybe getting professional help can be a good thing.

Feel free to PM me anytime you just want to talk.....just to let it out. It always helps to have someone to talk to.

Take care and hope to hear more from you.

Marti

Michael

You are not alone!!! Never alone!! You can always come here and get the support you need!! I was at my wits end when I started coming here! I'm just now beginning to regain my self confidence back and it's wonderful!! The wonderful people on these forums have helped me and encouraged me so much!! I do hope you'll stay with us and find the support that you so desperately need
If you need to talk you can PM me I know how important it is to have people to talk to about these things!!
Michelle

Michael -

I'm so glad you came back! For most of us, food is comfort and reassurance and in a sense, safety. It's no wonder that so many of us have developed an unhealthy relationship with it when all of our lives it's been used to put us to sleep, stop us from crying, reward us, and just generally make us feel better. It takes work to redefine that ingrained belief system.

But we're here for you. Whenever you want to talk and whatever you want to talk about. Like Marti said, feel free to PM any of us any time you want if you want to talk about something you don't feel like posting.

I hope you're having a good monday

Michael--Come back!!

Well now I know I'm not alone. I came here because I feel the same way Michael feels. But not so extreme. But I have been there. I too never post on any forums. I really don't know where to start. I'm 31 years old I have 4 children. I just gave birth to a beautyful baby boy in April. I'm 5'7 276 lbs. And I need to get moving. I've been a big girl all my life and I'm tired. No I'm not depressed and I know after haveing a baby it takes a while to get in shape. But I was already big so I just poured gas on the fire Michael I feel your pain and this is the first step, and I'm taking it with you. God bless
K.I.T
Rea

Michael - I just joined 3fc too. I have to say that I have been where you were. But 3fc gave me hope. This IS the place to come for support. Every single person who I have spoken with on here has been such a source of comfort. (Better comfort than I've EVER gotten from a Twinkie or a piece of pizza) Hang in there. Remember that admitting that you can't do this alone is the first step on the way to actually achieving your goal! Please never hesitate to PM me or email me. I wish I could give you a huge hug and tell you that IT WILL GET BETTER. And you are NEVER alone!! The best thing I can tell you - whether you actually are on a plan already - or just here for inspiration - KEEP COMING BACK. We are all here for you.

Come back, come back, Michael!

Michael- I yo yo'd with my weight all my life. Star Princess is right to say it's how we rewarded ourselves, put us to sleep, etc. It may be time to put in a new life tape. I'm glad you found this forum as I have only been here a week and I like it.

StarPrincess- I viewed your profile...WOW! You are an inspiration and quite wise.

Reaferg- I'm from Michigan as well. Tired of gray skies yet?

I appreciate everyone's support no matter who's going through what in their life. Thanks All!

You all are so so wonderful. God, I've been away. I said I would come back, but it was too hard. But now I'm here. I don't know how to take a chance on anyone any more. It's hard for me to believe that anyone can help me any more. Do I need professional help? Probably. But I'm powerless at the moment to do that, and that sounds like an excuse but it's less an excuse than you might think if I filled in all the details but I can't. I can't.

You're outpourings have meant so much to me. I am no better than I was when I initially posted - perhaps worse. But you all ARE here, and I need you, and no, I can't do this alone. I can't do this alone. I can't. But you all are so far away, intangible. Can someone please just say a prayer for me? Please?

I'll try to come back tomorrow. Oh God. Thank you all. I've never been such a wreck ever.

Michael