Hi there!
I have had weight issues ever since I can remember. I had undiagnosed ADHD when I was a child and when I hit the puberty I gained a lot of weight. It coupled with depression and anxiety and I used food as a way of controlling suicidal thoughts. My weight was very disappointing to my parents, especially to my father. I was never acknowledged for managing to stay alive, because according to my parents, there was no way I felt that way.
If you are starting to be worried, don't be. I have plenty support now, I have a terrific husband and a therapist and these problems are more or less in the past. The reason I am telling this is that I want to make clear why is it hard for me to talk about my feelings concerning my weight to anyone I know. I am really ashamed to have these thoughts and I cannot face telling anyone of my friends. I believe that there are some similar people out there and we can help each other =)
looking forward to hearing from you and I wish you all the luck in the world on your journey.