New....day 1 begins now.
Hello All. I'm new to site, trying to have a sounding board for this time at weight loss. I've had a lot of changes the last few months. New baby, graduated nursing school, passed boards, began new/first nursing job (full time after being PRN for ever), two kids versus just one. My family has had to adapt to all these new changes...while hanging out in my parents basement until we save up our down payment for a new home. I'm stressed, I'm working third shift, my sleep/eating pattern is jacked up, I don't exercise, and I still have that antepartum belly going on. All these things pile up but I don't want to bug the peeps I love. Life is hard enough with out reminding every one. But recently I didn't just have a change to adapt to...I miscarried unexpectedly. It's been two weeks - I'm crawling into bed when I should be reading stories with my four year old, or helping my husband cook dinner because we're the best team ever, or not crying when I'm rocking my 5 month old to sleep. I should be focused on my challenging and exciting career. I'm probably depressed, grieving. The world won't stop and wait for me. I'm overweight, unfit, and unhappy despite my many blessings. I used to be a division I cross country runner. This morning I'm going for my first jog in years. I've got stuff to work through, and running or more like power walking for my skill level, will be my way of processing. (And lose a bunches of weight) I don't want to stress any one but I ask you all on this Valentine's Day, who are also struggling with weight and the pressures of daily life to please know that I appreciate and need a sounding board. I hope to talk with others that relate and connect in a way to help also encourage you as well.
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