[Lemontart]

Hi, friends.
I've been on this site before, lurking mostly. My story isn't unique, apparently. This is a good thing, seeing all of these similar stories. It feels great to know I'm not alone. What troubles me is that for literally 7 years after the birth of my second child, I've done everything to lose weight and continue to give up.
Weight Watchers a million times.
Atkins several times.
HCG twice.
Paleo/Whole 30
Crash diets and cleanses galore.
Calorie counting, of course.
With and without exercise. I have the gym memberships and the gym equipment. I now see a personal trainer twice a week. I've seen counselors. I swing between motivation and laziness, will power and resignation. I know the slogans, have all the phone apps, read daily quotes and inspirational verses daily. Yet I still can lose 20 pounds and then gain it all back and then some because I want instant gratification of horrible food choices, massive portions and alcohol. I WANT these things.
I also want to be thin again and be myself again. I feel like I'm forgetting her, though.
Does anyone else feel this way? When I first started, I had about 30 pounds to lose. 7 years later, I have over 100. This has to stop.

[lpn0603]

Originally Posted by Lemontart

I swing between motivation and laziness, will power and resignation. I know the slogans, have all the phone apps, read daily quotes and inspirational verses daily. Yet I still can lose 20 pounds and then gain it all back and then some because I want instant gratification of horrible food choices, massive portions and alcohol. I WANT these things.
I also want to be thin again and be myself again. I feel like I'm forgetting her, though.
Does anyone else feel this way?

I especially relate to this part of your story... I did finally have a switch flip and started giving it my all (thankful it wasn't at an even higher weight). I have to say I probably wouldn't have had my success without some motivation or incentive (going on vacation in November). Maybe create an incentive of your own? i.e. a getaway, new clothes etc...?

[lpn0603]

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[MinervaMoo]

Hello and Welcome Lemontart!
I know what you mean about seeing your weight creeping up and not knowing what to do. I think what lpn said above about having an incentive does help; that is what got me finally doing something about my weight.
I'd love to talk if you ever need too!
Good luck and can't wait to hear about your progress!

[Jacqui_D]

Lemontart! I have yo-yo dieted all my life. I would go all gung-ho and then stop because like you I wanted my cake and to eat it too. I didn't want to feel deprived. I love sweets and I know I can only go so long without indulging in them. Now I'm on a diet that incorporates a "cheat day" every week. It's actually part of the diet, so I'm not really cheating, so there's no "falling off the wagon." For 6 days I eat low glycemic index foods and on one day a week I eat whatever I want. If you are interested in knowing the details, I've outlined it here: http://www.3fatchicks.com/forum/othe...hread-2-a.html. Whichever diet plan you choose to follow, give it your best and keep in mind the pitfalls you've come across before and try to avoid them. I wish you the best! You can do it!