Up until about three days ago I didn't care that I was overweight. I had everyone around me believing that I was overweight and this was who I was and I didn't care. But I did care, I've always cared. I've been overweight all my life, as far back as I can remember, but I never knew how to deal with it. Like a lot of people I shut down my feelings and ate to fill the void in my life.
If it was just my weight, maybe I could have handled my body image. But there was acne, all over my body. There was facial hair and sweating, randomly, and badly. No one was able to help me. I went for surgeries that fixed nothing and I accepted that I would hate myself forever.
Of course I had my struggles, and I did try. But I have genetic knee problems, and I used that as an excuse. And then I had a podiatrist who made me the wrong orthodics which I wore for over a year before another doctor noticed the mistake. And then of course I used money as an excuse, that it cost too much to eat right.
But then a few days ago I met a man. A gyn actually, and he gave me a diagnosis. Polycystic Ovary syndrome. And he told me all the little things, the sweating and the hair and the acne...it could be fixed. And the weight. It would help a little bit. He asked me what we were going to do about my weight. Not what I was going to do, but we. Together. Finally I had someone real and tangible wanting to help me! So he referred to me to a dietician, I meet with them Feb 7.
For the first time in my life the clouds have parted and there is hope. I have new orthodics, they still hurt, but not nearly as bad. My knees have been really good, and I can see myself going back to walking to and from work, both for my health, and to eliminate the cab fares so I can't use money as an excuse anymore.
My name is Alana
I'm 27 years old.
I weight 340.
And on Friday, Jan 31 I start down the road to a new me. And I'm excited to share the journey with all of you.
Welcome Alana. Doesn't it feel good to have someone who is on your side and wants to help you? Good for you! I think it's excellent that you're going to start walking again and seeing a nutritionist!! I'd love to do that, actually. Best of luck on your weight loss and I look forward to hearing about your journey!
eitherAlana,you are still young and your skin still has elasticity and you can work on your weight.I am thrilled for you that you will be able to finally understand why you are the way you are and the best way to overcome it.Most POS girls also develop diabetes so tackling your weight and diet now is good.I wish you the absolute most luck that I can.It will not be an easy journey,but I think your old way was probably not the greatest
Welcome! What an insightful introduction. We are all on a journey and have our stories and can't wait to conquer it all together! Sometimes it is hard to take a diagnosis, but it's a starting point towards healing. Everything is going to be great! This support system is beyond the best!
A new me
I am so happy you found the help you need. Gods watching out for you.
