Hi mmmkey and hira!
No mmmkey, landing here through google is not sad; it's lucky!
You will find lots of support here. The more you get involved, the more you'll get to know people. Browse around, some threads are more active than others, and jump right in! Hira, slow is good! Crash diets do not work, so taking weight off at a realistic pace and gaining your self confidence along the way are wonderful goals! Keep it up!