Tired of the yo-yo
Hello all. I am a long time lurker, first time poster. 29 years-old (this month), 5'4, 210 lbs. I have been overweight my entire life (20 years now) and although I have successfully managed to lose (and re-gain) weight, I have never reached my goal weight.
A few months ago my Doctor gave me an ultimatum. I have a strong history of deadly heart conditions in my family (terrifying, I know) and I have been diagnosed with hypertension (thanks genes). My Doctor told me I must must lose weight and, if it doesn't improve the hypertension, I have to start taking meds. When she told me that I felt like it was the catalyst I needed my entire life. Finally, here was concrete proof that my poor eating habits are causing problems.
Before this I would lose weight to look pretty (more on that later) and since my health wasn't compromised it wasn't a motivating factor. Age, it seems, has caught up to me.
I went out and got the Fitbit and committed to following the DASH diet. As usual, it worked. I dropped 20lbs in 2 months.
BUT, also as usual, my motivation has severely slipped. I feel like I have been fighting with myself the past two months to get back on the horse. I have 4 "good" days and 3 "off" days and that has led to stagnation. Yes, this is better than weight gain, but not better than weight loss.
I have read so many success stories on here. I would love to hear how you did it, how you broke past the actual struggle with weight. Sheer will power? Determination? Tremendous motive?
I have to add that this story is more complicated. Fear of men, history of abuse, the need to use fat as a safety shield, and emotional binging all factor into the "struggle." I am in therapy for these but when my health is at stake, I don't have time to wait another 20 years to be "healed."
**Lastly, please add me on MFP if you use it frequently. I would love accountability partners. My UN is sophisli
Thanks!
Last edited by gottalosetowin; 07-06-2013 at 08:49 PM.
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