[Chocolate Wonderland]

Hi ladies,

I'm new here and wanted to introduce myself. I'm currently starting over in my weight loss journey. I started out back in 2011 and then last year stalled out for a year. Now I have gained 30 lbs back from my 70 lost. It's humbling as when I was at 245 I was so ready to be smaller. Now I would give anything to be back at that size again.

I have not been as committed to my weight loss journey because I haven't been getting results. I noticed I would stop for while and some how lose but then when I would get back focused I would gain again.

I went through depression rather roughly all my life and now in all my 27 years I have been soo happy. I am happy about all the challenges I have ahead,changing careers,networking etc. But weight makes me feel so at odds. Part of me wants to look in the mirror and say wow your pretty and your worth love but the other part says until your at 150 you can't be pretty or lovable. I know that is a lie and isn't positive therefore has to be disregarded. But I know healthy living is important to the fabulous life.

I just cancelled or froze my gym membership for 6 months. Going into the gym has became a sore spot because again I haven't lost anything so it's not a motivator. When I was losing you couldn't beat me in the gym. I looked forward to it.

Now I'm preparing to figure out some good food items to start adding,I have updated my youtube with some good free full length videos. I will buy a dvd player too.

I need support really seriously. I know this is the internet and folks have lives but I'm serious about motivating others so I need the same in return. I'm a member on Myfitnesspal and I'm getting to a point I can't deal with the snarky attitudes. Had a guy just a few mins ago tell me are you blaming the gym for you not losing, stop looking for a short cut and the fat will melt away. He promptly got blocked.

I hope to make some new e-friends and it it happens some off line friends too.

[Monkeyruler164]

I can totally relate to how you feel. I'm about to be 27 in August and had a dead end career and was so unhappy with myself. I enrolled in college and I graduate tomorrow. Just a couple months ago I realized alot of my unhappiness was because of my weight. It held me back more then I thought. So in May I started my calorie counting and working out and it was soooo tough at first because I HAVE to see results or I too get discouraged. However, after that rough first week it's been uphill since. May 19 I was 260 and here it is June 13 and I'm down 14lbs...not a lot but a huge motivator. It's so hard to do exercise when you have no motivation. This forum is the perfect place to find that motivation. I know seeing other people's results, the before/after have really helped me to get motivated.

I completely agree that snarky attitudes and rude comments are totally unhelpful. Losing weight is a battle everyday but it's one I know you'll beat. Pop on here anytime for some motivating words and some encouragement when you need!