I've been a lurker and a user of this site for more years than I remember. I want to come back actively as I am recently coming off of a divorce from an abusive marriage. I gained a lot of weight, lost a lot of self esteem, and overall hate myself. I want to get back to the size where I was happy before I let myself go. I have blamed him for so long, but I'm tired of being the victim. I'm ready to do this and admit I put on the weight, I let myself go. Now I need to get it together. My name is Becky and I will be using weight watchers. I've already lost 11 lbs in a couple months and my goal is about 35-40 more. Here's hoping I can do it for myself