Hello everyone,
I don't know where to start because the 'problem' i am having is very new to me. I have never encountered such difficulty in loosing weight and i don't know whom to address about it and what to ask so maybe you know what is going on with me.
A small background for me. I never ever passed the 182 pound limit in my life. I reached it once and that was it. After that i dieted hard for a year and due to my athletic past with aerobics, running and being an intermediate yogi (I am an intermediate nothing at this point of course) i went down to a VERY exercised 110 pounds with 17% fat which was not difficult to keep for 7 years exactly because i used to be a young athlete.
So after giving up the race track i was going up and down between 141 to 165 pounds before the big weight loss i mentioned above. Nothing too extreme and nothing that caused me trouble since i could lose weight quickly and easily. And then comes real life. I get married and give birth to my now 4 year old daughter. My marriage is collapsing and i am in a psychological mess. I live in Greece and my country's economy is in the ruins and that also causes me a lot of grief. In sort i have a lot of problems. I am trying to lose weight since i gave birth. Immediately after i was 140 somethings....now i am in the 160 something region. *in the usual up and down area of mine*. Nothing extreme either.
BUT and here is my problem. I CANNOT SEEM TO BE ABLE TO LOOSE IT......whenever i loose a few pounds i go and binge in the middle of the night and gain it all back up again. I gain a few i stop eating, i loose a few and the circle lives on and on. I cannot exercise because i am alone with the kid and the house and everything else with no help whatsoever and at night when she is asleep i am simply dead. Don't even have the MOOD to try to do something about myself. I feel a worthless piece of meet and whenever i see photos of what i used to look like before i feel even worst. And the most dreadful part of all this is my midnight snacks. I don't know if you can call it binge because i don't eat huge quantities, but i get up every 2 freaking hours and eat something out of the fridge. And that goes on from 2 (in the morning) when i fall asleep to 9 when i wake up. At times i have so much water in me (i LOVE to drink litters of water after eating anything) that i burp when i sleep and the water comes up in the throat. Wtf is wrong with me? can anyone help me? Can anyone tell me WHY i cannot stop eating at night?
Please please....help?
PS: I am currently 165 (just weighted myself) and i am 5.6....