I've been trying to lose weight for as long as I can remember. I have been overweight all my life, but it has progressively gotten worse as I get older; I pretty much am subject to the cycle of gaining wait, getting depressed about gaining the weight, and then gaining more weight because I gained weight. I hope you guys were able to follow me on that, hehe.
Anyways, a bit more about myself; my name is Piper and I've always been conscious of my weight. I avoid wearing anything more revealing than a parka and I have had enough. I've tried diets, my exercise regimes always seem to fail because I don't have anyone to do them with/anyone WILLING to do them with me, so I finally just become so demotivated that I just give up and succumb to old habits.
As I've said, I'm tired of it, and I've decided to join a community who is centered around this sort of thing! For those curious, I am currently at 285 at nearly 20 years old (huge number for my age, I know, and accept that), and aiming for 150~125, depending on how my body decides to take to the weight. Doctors have told me weights around there are fine, so I am kind of uncertain of which weight to aim for. I'm 5'8'', so I want to avoid looking like I'm the skeleton display for science class.
Divulging this information is a huge step for me, and I almost want to press the 'X' on my window right now and avoid posting it! But I think the only way to finally get myself into gear is to come face-to-face with all of it and admit that, yes, this weight is still here and it's not going anywhere until I fully commit to doing away with it - and telling others of my exploits make me feel obligated to complete them. At least that's how I hope this works!
I'm aiming to hopefully lose 100 pounds by the time fall term comes around - which will hopefully be my first semester in college.
I am starting to put the stepping stones that build my life in line, so I want to start the process with a complete change of myself. I want to reinvent myself, I want to be able to find clothes that fit and don't look like burlap sacks, and I want to stop avoiding mirrors. I want to start working on changing my life - I want to reinvent the way I will live my life. If I continue my ways, I will always be stuck in my ways. I will never exercise, I will eat poorly, and I will get the health problems that afflict my family. It is a scary thought that 3 of my close family members have diabetes and it absolutely terrifies me. I don't want to be another statistic.
My grandfather was in the hospital last week with congestive heart failure and a lightbulb upstairs came on. The food he was eating landed him there - his monstrous amount of salt intake all his life had all but landed him at death's doorstep. As I look at the sweets and fat-saturated yet tasty food I usually indulge in, I realized they're not worth it. The fifteen seconds of enjoying that Debbie cake isn't worth the 50 years of pricking my finger and having to monitor my diet because if I have over 2000mg of salt in a day, I risk gaining enough water weight to drown my heart. Maybe his near-death experience is what I needed, and I have since tried to change my eating habits.
I am starting with baby steps. I allow myself my morning cup of coffee with splenda and powdered French Vanilla creamer for now (partially because I have a sore throat, but also because I don't want to burn myself out - once the creamer is gone, I will be doing away with the cup of coffee), I cut out all white bread (only use flax sandwich thins now - very low sodium and lots of fiber!), I am trying to eat all leaner meats and I'm eating more veggies. (Carrots and snowpeas, but those count, right?) I also have only had one soda (in a can, and it was diet + had 55mg of sodium) in about a week now, which is an accomplishment for me. Its not much, but this is only the beginning! (:
I'm sorry for the novel introduction, but I need to get it all off my chest and hopefully it will prod me into staying on track. (:
So... Hello, 3FC!
Hello! :)
