Good morning all. I've never been to 3 fat chicks on a diet...very interesting name, I'm sure there is a story behind it. Well a little about myself. I started this journey in March of this year (2012) when my surgeon informed me I needed knee surgery (a bad fall in February) but that he would not do the surgery unless I loss 45lbs. The surgery was scheduled for early June and the weightloss began. I lost a grand total of 48lbs by the date of the surgery, was very proud of myself for accomplishing this and vowed to get the rest off.
I started at a size of 4X, it was a struggle forcing myself on the scale, but I did and was SHOCKED that the number rose so high, I had never in my life thought I would or could weigh that much.
Today I am in a size 18 (not 18W, just 18) and though I am still huge, I have enjoyed the journey. My goal is to be a size 6 again...that person is in there, I just have to find her again.
These past eight months have been fun. I've started down this path so many times before I can't even tell you. I was never overweight until I reached 35, then the weight just piled on for many reasons. None of which are that important, but were stressful enough for me to no longer care...and I honestly didn't.
I am doing so many things differently this time...
when I get out of a size, I donate all of those clothes, all of them, the only regret is that I don't have anything that I can pull out and take a picture with when I reach goal.
Another change this time is that I'm not weighing myself, other than that initial weigh-in, the weigh-in at the physicians office just before surgery (in June) I've not been on the scale once. I often fantasize about the number, but know it is a dangerous tool for me...I tend to set such unrealistic goals when I'm looking at that number daily, I get to the point that if I don't see significant weight loss daily I simply give up.
I'm not killing myself in the gym.
I get crazy with exercising. Along the way I've realized that one should never equate exercise with weightloss...it takes a significant amount of exercise to burn one single lb...I workout for the joy of it and because I know that it is the only way to RESHAPE my body and not be a skinny fat person when I reach goal.
I don't have to lose 10lbs a week, I've realized how distructive this way of thinking is and how it has not surved me in the past decade of dieting
The last big difference,
I don't hate myself if I fall off the wagon, and I have, when I do, I complete the day off plan and get right back on the next day and will usually see a big loss by the end of the week.
So I like to think I've learned a little over the years, and though I've been here before, maybe just maybe this time I will reach goal.