So after hiding from my weight problems for over three years, I am back and more determined than ever to reach my goal weight.

My weight has fluctuated so much the last couple of years and I am so sick of it! I am ready to be a healthy weight and be happy in my body for the rest of my life!
College was terrible for me and I gained a crap load of weight and I was almost 190 lbs (yikes!). This was in 2004/2005 when I had reached my highest weight ever. Determined to lose weight, I ate nothing, worked my *** off, and dropped my weight down into the 150s. I basically did everything the wrong way and quickly rebounded back to my old ways. From 2007 to 2011, my weight fluctuated anywhere between 165 to 178 lbs. I was unhappy and was disgusted with myself.
In the spring of this year, I developed a new love for road biking and purchased a beautiful Felt road bike. At the beginning of this year, I weighed about 178 lbs. After biking 20-30 miles about 2-3x per week, I was able to drop my weight down to 153 lbs by August.
Currently, I am feeling myself lose control again. I am not watching what I eat and have become less active with the cold months (I live in Illinois). I saw pictures of myself from my sister's baby shower and was disgusted to see my muffin top! So that is what brings me here. I need some motivation and advice from all of you. I am excited and super nervous about this weight loss journey but I know I can do it!