I'm petrified but I am desperate to lose fat and build muscle to improve my self-esteem as I HATE my body and have done for some years since I put on weight.
It's a kettlebell class and I'm going to walk there, which should take me about half an hour. The class lasts for 60 minutes.
I have been losing weight and exercising at home for a short time but really need the motivation of a class to really get me started again, hence me going out. I also feel that my being very unhappy with my body has made my phobia worse.
I used to lift weights at the gym about 10 years ago and weighed 63kg. When I weighed myself then, I was always looking to be heavier as I knew I didn't have much fat to worry about. Then medication and bad diet made me put on 28kg.
Now, I am aiming to lose 22 kgs in, at most, 6 months and I want a good bit of my final mass to be compromised of muscle.
This is the first time I've ever joined a weightloss/exercise forum and it's the last time I want to be doing something to get my body the way I want it!
Nice to meet you all!
I'm going out.....

