I want this to be the last time I start...
Hello everyone,
I am a 25 year old "fat chick", I have been over 200 pounds since 3rd or 4th grade. I don't know what it's like to not be big, but man am I motivated to find out.
I quit smoking February 1st, third times the charm right? I really think I'm done this time. Strike that, I know I'm done. Hopefully, I can find the same motivation to be healthy when it comes to food.
A year ago I was diagnosised with MS. It opened up my eyes to just what its like to have your body fail. I had lost vision in one eye, couldn't walk, couldn't maintain basic hygene on my own, and all the emotional issues that come with that.
Add to that... I had just achieved a major accomplishment of losing 40 pounds. I was going to the gym 3 times a week and working with a trainer. I was good about what I was eating. But then the attack happened and I couldn't walk let alone work out. I gained all the weight back and more. Add to that the emotional eating that happened afterward and it ended up being a gigantic set back.
But, I've (literally) gotten back on my feet. I've moved and found a new job (my last employer fired me shortly after the diagnosis). I'm ready to stop starting this battle, I'm ready to feel overwhelming pride in myself like I did a year ago.
I need some help and support though. I'm contemplating OA meetings but I'm more comfortable online (shocker) though I think I will get to a meeting at some point. A step is a step, right?
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